i dont think i‘ll ever be truly happy again (excluding drugs)

[LowInhibNoSMV]

when I got broken up with after 2 months of a „talking stage“, that for me, was my first love, I was heartbroken, and although im over her now after 6 months, the hole it left never dissapeared.
and then i watch my nt friends casually overtake 3 months together with random girls..

i dont think i‘ll ever truly be happy again, I mean, I have to be constantly high to not feel depressed and my life is, truly, going nowhere.

i wish things were different, but they arent..
you ever think about something so heartbreaking for you personally that your stomach and chest kind of pull into eachother and wont let go, I get that feeling when I think of where I was in life, where I am in life, and where i‘ll be in life.

Thanks for reading

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

i look so much better than I did 6 months ago, but its all useless. inside I am rotting.

 

[Lexapro]

i am sorry to hear that man, hope things get better

 

[LowInhibNoSMV]

i am sorry to hear that man, hope things get better

Thank you, i‘ve been hoping for that for 2-3 years and although my prayers were briefly answered december 25-march 26, its not gonna happen again as it was before. I really miss her right now, probably because I dont have any drugs on me rn except laughing gas