EvilSatanArseRapist
loving and wholesome actually
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I feel like i don't belong anywhere, not in a community, a culture or tradition.
I am half italian and half german and reside in germany, but have spent multiple years of my life in italy.
People often tell me how lucky i am to have two homes. The reality for me is: i have none.
I talked to a muslim who openly says he doesn't want to be in germany, and yet he knows everyone, attends local events, and has a positive relationship with so many people here. He belongs more to my home town than i do.
I don't partake in any traditions that everyone else seems to share. No festivals, no rites nothing. I feel foreign.
Both my grandfathers are my polar opposite. They were both teachers. One was mayor, started a foundation to help the poor, a often cited historian who was very well known in these kinds of circles and the citys librarian who knew everything about anything that happened. He knew titles, content and storage location of 50k+ books by memory. There are theatre plays about him decades after his death. The other one a city counselor, who is very engrained in the town and contributed a bunch to local wellbeing. There are streets and palaces named after my ancestors. I will never have a street named after me.
I don't know anything about myself, the culture and traditions of my relatives and people i frequent. Im even kind of cut off from my family. I don't talk to a vast majority of them, some actively avoid me. Pretty much all of them think im wierd prolly. We don't even know eachother. I don't know all their names. Im estranged and irrelevant.
dnr of the century probably
I am half italian and half german and reside in germany, but have spent multiple years of my life in italy.
People often tell me how lucky i am to have two homes. The reality for me is: i have none.
I talked to a muslim who openly says he doesn't want to be in germany, and yet he knows everyone, attends local events, and has a positive relationship with so many people here. He belongs more to my home town than i do.
I don't partake in any traditions that everyone else seems to share. No festivals, no rites nothing. I feel foreign.
Both my grandfathers are my polar opposite. They were both teachers. One was mayor, started a foundation to help the poor, a often cited historian who was very well known in these kinds of circles and the citys librarian who knew everything about anything that happened. He knew titles, content and storage location of 50k+ books by memory. There are theatre plays about him decades after his death. The other one a city counselor, who is very engrained in the town and contributed a bunch to local wellbeing. There are streets and palaces named after my ancestors. I will never have a street named after me.
I don't know anything about myself, the culture and traditions of my relatives and people i frequent. Im even kind of cut off from my family. I don't talk to a vast majority of them, some actively avoid me. Pretty much all of them think im wierd prolly. We don't even know eachother. I don't know all their names. Im estranged and irrelevant.
dnr of the century probably
