I feel like i don't belong.

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I feel like i don't belong anywhere, not in a community, a culture or tradition.
I am half italian and half german and reside in germany, but have spent multiple years of my life in italy.
People often tell me how lucky i am to have two homes. The reality for me is: i have none.

I talked to a muslim who openly says he doesn't want to be in germany, and yet he knows everyone, attends local events, and has a positive relationship with so many people here. He belongs more to my home town than i do.

I don't partake in any traditions that everyone else seems to share. No festivals, no rites nothing. I feel foreign.

Both my grandfathers are my polar opposite. They were both teachers. One was mayor, started a foundation to help the poor, a often cited historian who was very well known in these kinds of circles and the citys librarian who knew everything about anything that happened. He knew titles, content and storage location of 50k+ books by memory. There are theatre plays about him decades after his death. The other one a city counselor, who is very engrained in the town and contributed a bunch to local wellbeing. There are streets and palaces named after my ancestors. I will never have a street named after me.

I don't know anything about myself, the culture and traditions of my relatives and people i frequent. Im even kind of cut off from my family. I don't talk to a vast majority of them, some actively avoid me. Pretty much all of them think im wierd prolly. We don't even know eachother. I don't know all their names. Im estranged and irrelevant.

dnr of the century probably :(
 
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bump
 
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same but i eventually just stopped caring tbh, i feel no connection to any of my lineage on both sides. Prob due to not speaking at all to both sides of the family and living in a foreign country. But i feel no cultural tie to anywhere around the globe and i just feel like im a person without culture if that makes sense.
 
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same but i eventually just stopped caring tbh, i feel no connection to any of my lineage on both sides. Prob due to not speaking at all to both sides of the family and living in a foreign country. But i feel no cultural tie to anywhere around the globe and i just feel like im a person without culture if that makes sense.
thank for reading bhai
 
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dnr mirin avi tho :love::love::love:
 
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Being German and Italian sounds fine. I'm a huge mixture of Europeans and Semites. Talk about having no place to call home.
 
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What are u interested in?
 
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that’s how u connecteing with people, bond over similar interests
history and alot of other shit also interests me. but idk how i start talking to someone? i can't just walk up to a nigga in the street, stop him and ask him about ketosis vs. glycation or deep marine life forms right?
 
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history and alot of other shit also interests me. but idk how i start talking to someone? i can't just walk up to a nigga in the street, stop him and ask him about ketosis vs. glycation or deep marine life forms right?
Find people who are interested in this, I bet it’s not as hard as u think
 
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