i feel like i mightve subconciously gave up on life

[Deleted member 86840]

i got gifted sm money, i have it all sitting in the bank and i still have money i got from my past job that i never bothered to spend

and im thinking of just blowing that money away on other people because i simply dont desire anything for myself anymore, not clothes, not giftcards, not surgery, no specific foods, nothing, all this material shit doesnt matter to me anymore, i wanna walk naked

 

[Deleted member 86840]

i feel like this is my subconcious telling me its all gone for me

 

[Deleted member 86840]

is it over

 

[SubhumanEyes]

i have some money aswell which idk what to do with,im probably gonna blow it on cs2 cases though,idk maybe i`ll try to get some products for eye area but im too high inhib to ask my mom since i dont want her to think that im insecure ab my looks which i am but it would be unideal for her to know