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aolle
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I’ve talked about this before on here but I don’t know what it is that makes me so unlikable I just can’t seem to be able to keep friends
Like I’ll be invited to hangout with people and then after a couple weeks I find out that they’re all hanging out without me and I don’t know why
And I’ll try to make plans like I invited them all to my cabin pretty early on and they all cancelled 4 days prior citing things that I don’t really believe. I got bullied a lot for my appearance growing up and idk if that has anything to do with this now but I’ve been rated mtn-htn on here so I assume I’m not repulsive
And I don’t think I’m insufferable socially like there isn’t really anything I say that everyone makes me feel like I’m crazy for I just don’t know why they don’t like me
Maybe not having friends growing up stunted my social ability that bad and I just don’t know that they all don’t like my when we’re hanging out but I always fucking hate when these people hang out without me and I find out or they make dumb excuses when I propose something for why they can’t like I thought I was doing so well socially bc I was hanging out with 3 different groups of people only for me to find out all 3 groups will hang out without me most of the time I just don’t know why I can’t keep friends maybe this will double as a svicide note but I doubt it bc I’m going to college next year so at least I’ll have another chance but if that fails then I think I’ll just kms
All in all I just don’t understand why people don’t like hanging out with me I feel like I’m funny and interesting and not repulsive but I guess I’m wrong and that’s not how other people feel. I’ve kind of gotten into a cycle of coping with this by constantly talking to new girls so that I always have that to talk to and sometimes the girls are friends with girls who stopped hanging out with me as friends or they’ll have dated guys that stopped hanging out with me and I can use that to spite them but I just feel so fucking lonely about it all. I don’t understand why I’m not likable I fucking hate foids deep down but I also hate all these people who act like they like me and then slowly pull away and stop inviting me and subtly make it clear that I’m not liked but I never know why and if I knew why I would change but I might never know it just fucking sucks bc everytime I start hanging out with a new group of people it always ends the same way I’ll reply to this if I have anything else to add feel free to ask me any questions or words of consolation but thank you for reading this it’s the most seen I think I’ve been in my life
Like I’ll be invited to hangout with people and then after a couple weeks I find out that they’re all hanging out without me and I don’t know why
And I’ll try to make plans like I invited them all to my cabin pretty early on and they all cancelled 4 days prior citing things that I don’t really believe. I got bullied a lot for my appearance growing up and idk if that has anything to do with this now but I’ve been rated mtn-htn on here so I assume I’m not repulsive
And I don’t think I’m insufferable socially like there isn’t really anything I say that everyone makes me feel like I’m crazy for I just don’t know why they don’t like me
Maybe not having friends growing up stunted my social ability that bad and I just don’t know that they all don’t like my when we’re hanging out but I always fucking hate when these people hang out without me and I find out or they make dumb excuses when I propose something for why they can’t like I thought I was doing so well socially bc I was hanging out with 3 different groups of people only for me to find out all 3 groups will hang out without me most of the time I just don’t know why I can’t keep friends maybe this will double as a svicide note but I doubt it bc I’m going to college next year so at least I’ll have another chance but if that fails then I think I’ll just kms
All in all I just don’t understand why people don’t like hanging out with me I feel like I’m funny and interesting and not repulsive but I guess I’m wrong and that’s not how other people feel. I’ve kind of gotten into a cycle of coping with this by constantly talking to new girls so that I always have that to talk to and sometimes the girls are friends with girls who stopped hanging out with me as friends or they’ll have dated guys that stopped hanging out with me and I can use that to spite them but I just feel so fucking lonely about it all. I don’t understand why I’m not likable I fucking hate foids deep down but I also hate all these people who act like they like me and then slowly pull away and stop inviting me and subtly make it clear that I’m not liked but I never know why and if I knew why I would change but I might never know it just fucking sucks bc everytime I start hanging out with a new group of people it always ends the same way I’ll reply to this if I have anything else to add feel free to ask me any questions or words of consolation but thank you for reading this it’s the most seen I think I’ve been in my life
