i feel soulless

[hax]

almost died of clod overnight, a near death experience i wasn’t even aware of.​

this happened because i overdosed on antipsychotics right before sleeping which made me unable to move or wake up for 15 hours.

15 hours my body was decaying and it couldn’t fight back.

i had extreme thoughts on my way there, some i could not share here.

simply put, i’ve had to stop myself multiple times from breaking into people’s houses.

any sort of thinking pushed me to the edge of jumping off these houses, i had to punch myself to stay focused.

when i came back, my mom didn’t really say much and my dad was being a bitch, laughing at my obsessions.

my mom told him i already ate eggs with milk as soon as i came back. he told me that i didn’t need it unless i worked out, then proceeded to laugh at what we were eating by pointing out the vitamins in them.

he then said the only thing i’ll be lifting is my hammer. they simply will never learn.

luckily, my body is shut off, the teasing did not get to me.

i cannot rage, i cannot cry, i cannot feel any emotion whatsoever; most likely due to antipsychotics.

my tinnitus is louder than ever, i cannot enjoy the simple idea of silence.

my eyes are stuck comically wide open and my vision is blurry, i am unable to focus.

my mind is completely blank and i have lost track of time; i need a complete wipe of my mind and hormones.

so yes, i pussied-out on the surface, but it was for my own good.

@truejamal @valentine @Psocho @afroheadluke​

 

[thebird]

I’m sorry baby

 

[valentine]

this happened because i overdosed on antipsychotics right before sleeping which made me unable to move or wake up for 15 hours.

15 hours my body was decaying and it couldn’t fight back.

be careful with ts it almost killed me once

 

[hax]

I’m sorry baby

i get to miss the last day of school (and already missed the one before.)

i missed around 5 tests in 2 days,
which means i will not be passing this year easily, they might kick me out.

the only time i went above average in all my school life was this semester… now going back down to a fail.

i don’t even feel hyped for vacation.

 

[thebird]

i get to miss the last day of school (and already missed the one before.)

i missed around 5 tests in 2 days,
which means i will not be passing this year easily, they might kick me out.

the only time i went above average in all my school life was this semester… now going back down to a fail.

i don’t even feel hyped for vacation.

I’m sorry

 

[hax]

be careful with ts it almost killed me once

i made sure to put it out my room today.

i don’t want to touch this again.

 

[truejamal]

sorry for you bro, but on the bright side they didnt send you anywhere again.

did you talk with them once you came come?

 

[hax]

sorry for you bro, but on the bright side they didnt send you anywhere again.

did you talk with them once you came come?

no, i told them not to speak to me.

all they did, as i said, was telling me to keep bonesmashing instead if getting food for my body that was going to stay the way it was.

 

[truejamal]

no, i told them not to speak to me.

all they did, as i said, was telling me to keep bonesmashing instead if getting food for my body that was going to stay the way it was.

reading this made me actually angry no way they are still not letting you eat properly wtf. and to top it off make jokes about it

 

[Deleted member 335575]

almost died of clod overnight, a near death experience i wasn’t even aware of.​

this happened because i overdosed on antipsychotics right before sleeping which made me unable to move or wake up for 15 hours.

15 hours my body was decaying and it couldn’t fight back.

i had extreme thoughts on my way there, some i could not share here.

simply put, i’ve had to stop myself multiple times from breaking into people’s houses.

any sort of thinking pushed me to the edge of jumping off these houses, i had to punch myself to stay focused.

when i came back, my mom didn’t really say much and my dad was being a bitch, laughing at my obsessions.

my mom told him i already ate eggs with milk as soon as i came back. he told me that i didn’t need it unless i worked out, then proceeded to laugh at what we were eating by pointing out the vitamins in them.

he then said the only thing i’ll be lifting is my hammer. they simply will never learn.

luckily, my body is shut off, the teasing did not get to me.

i cannot rage, i cannot cry, i cannot feel any emotion whatsoever; most likely due to antipsychotics.

my tinnitus is louder than ever, i cannot enjoy the simple idea of silence.

my eyes are stuck comically wide open and my vision is blurry, i am unable to focus.

my mind is completely blank and i have lost track of time; i need a complete wipe of my mind and hormones.

so yes, i pussied-out on the surface, but it was for my own good.

@truejamal @valentine @Psocho @afroheadluke​

I hope this makes you feel better

 

[hax]

reading this made me actually angry no way they are still not letting you eat properly wtf. and to top it off make jokes about it

joking about it is actually insane

View attachment 4621722I hope this makes you feel better

it’s okay bro, i don’t look remotely close to this and it’s not even engagement bait.

 

[Deleted member 335575]

joking about it is actually insane


it’s okay bro, i don’t look remotely close to this and it’s not even engagement bait.

You are just jealous of my Greek god physique

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

almost died of clod overnight, a near death experience i wasn’t even aware of.​

this happened because i overdosed on antipsychotics right before sleeping which made me unable to move or wake up for 15 hours.

15 hours my body was decaying and it couldn’t fight back.

i had extreme thoughts on my way there, some i could not share here.

simply put, i’ve had to stop myself multiple times from breaking into people’s houses.

any sort of thinking pushed me to the edge of jumping off these houses, i had to punch myself to stay focused.

when i came back, my mom didn’t really say much and my dad was being a bitch, laughing at my obsessions.

my mom told him i already ate eggs with milk as soon as i came back. he told me that i didn’t need it unless i worked out, then proceeded to laugh at what we were eating by pointing out the vitamins in them.

he then said the only thing i’ll be lifting is my hammer. they simply will never learn.

luckily, my body is shut off, the teasing did not get to me.

i cannot rage, i cannot cry, i cannot feel any emotion whatsoever; most likely due to antipsychotics.

my tinnitus is louder than ever, i cannot enjoy the simple idea of silence.

my eyes are stuck comically wide open and my vision is blurry, i am unable to focus.

my mind is completely blank and i have lost track of time; i need a complete wipe of my mind and hormones.

so yes, i pussied-out on the surface, but it was for my own good.

@truejamal @valentine @Psocho @afroheadluke​

I hope the drugmakers are paying you for this. I had a buddy who got paid $120,000 a year by taking their experimental drugs.

Had.

 

[afroheadluke]

 

[hax]

I hope the drugmakers are paying you for this. I had a buddy who got paid $120,000 a year by taking their experimental drugs.

Had.

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fuckass sound effect

 

[hax]

i’m going to try moving out to another country for some kind of university or something, yet i still want to find a real job.

all this is really weird, i’ll try not to think of it until the time comes.

will stay off the “medication” too don’t worry. idk what these doctors want of me.

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

i’m going to try moving out to another country for some kind of university or something, yet i still want to find a real job.

all this is really weird, i’ll try not to think of it until the time comes.

will stay off the “medication” too don’t worry. idk what these doctors want of me.

Go to India

 

[Psocho]

im sorry bro..
Thank you for putting awareness, im staying away from this shit

 

[imontheloose]

i’ve had to stop myself multiple times from breaking into people’s houses.

@asdvek wouldn’t hesitate.

 

[hax]

@asdvek wouldn’t hesitate.

he claims*

 

[hax]

im sorry bro..
Thank you for putting awareness, im staying away from this shit

i should make a thread about how it feels on/off medication but i'm just too much of a lazy faggot to type this shit out.

it's vacation now so it might push me to get up and type it out.

 

[Overrated]

(GONE WRONG) (ALMOST DIED) (3AM)

 

[hax]

@inversions this is "how i proved the haters wrong (part 1)"

 

[Psocho]

(GONE WRONG) (ALMOST DIED) (3AM)

this shit made me laugh so much