dipenhydramine
nails in my mouth singing through my scream mask
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im 16, about when i was 15-16 i had a year long phase of doing dph. i dont really do it much anymore, but i can no longer think fast, everything feels slow, sometimes i still see spiders on my walls and figures that aint there and movements and hear things that arent there. i have absolutely fucked my attention span to the point where i cant type this out without getting distracted by my notifications. i did 500mg for my first time and never did anything lower than that. im scared ive like actived something in my brain. my mother suffers with schizophrenia, bpd and MDD. i consistenly feel at rock bottom and consider rope at least 3-4 times a day. i need advice on how to get out of this if possible. its quite serious ig and ivs really really tried a lot. ivs tried learing skills, going out more, engaging with people, focusing harder.