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i had it all and let my life go down due to the blackpill (not even this forum but it did play a part) and i couldn't handle the hate i recieved from normies
i mean i had the music
my song together was about to take off and had a total of 10 million views on tiktok and if i would've just kept promoting it for 6 more months instead of quitting it would've got me somewhere instead of just staying at 30k spotify streams 11k youtube views 500+ tiktok videos since august 2021 i just couldn't handle the hate and bullying online and at school physically mentally and spiritually
the talent
i legit played 8 instruments was in 11 different bands over my total "career" and after taking the blackpill the members kicked me out i can barely even play anymore i was so fucking good man i got into all state for saxaphone was in 3 different jazz bands for guitar and bass played piano at church sang in the choir played upright bass in orchestra played ukuelele and harmonica at the family reunions before i became an embarassment to the "family" on my mothers side
i had the looks too i was a prettyboy HTN-chadlite and even though i wasn't crazy PSL wise, I still had that JB appeal, and a nice pheno
mega.nz
i'll never be able to get any of these things back, i used to make NT happy fun upbeat energetic music and now i don't even make music because i legit live in a hotel had to sell my equipment im writing this from my phone ive had to raise myself and panhandle and go to food pantries just to be able to eat canned soup and it's crazy cause i used to have friends family a good environment and girls and now nothing i'm in complete solitude no invitations ever i have nothing to lose anymore ill never look feminine and "pretty" again i'll never be able to write songs and produce play like i used to i'll never get another chance to promote my music and reach millions like i used to all because of the shitty blackpill and my fuckin upbringing and of course i listened to my mom give me horrible advice telling me to act cringe for views stick out my tongue to get her and i out of the slums and i end up getting bullied out of my highschool beat up multiple times yelled at called names they cut my hair in the bathroom fucking recording me 24/7 all this damage i've had to go through and i'm not even 17 yet i'm too young for this shit and my life ended before it even started my looks have gone down the drain prettyboys are in masc ogres are out it's crazy how a little bonesmashing peptides injections sarms lack of hygiene and basic softmaxxing can turn the most feminine looking boy into the most masculine low trust horror freak show i am legit called scary just for my looks man. most of this isn't even looks, it's just how i've been treated it's just not possible to ever go back and redo all the things i fucked up on. i will never forget what the kids of that city did to me, and i will remember the few that were nice to me and helped me out. that part of me will never heal from that damage, i don't know what to do now. i'm completely broken, i go outside once a day to the food bin, i used to panhandle before fiverr but now i am just in complete solitude 24 7 i used to slay on tinder and larp as 23 but now i dont even have motivation im running on3 days of no sleep 2 days i havent eaten anything and im so fuckign hungry but i don't deserve food or nice things because im james sapphire the old tiktok troll who used to stick out his tongue im not even human anymore to people i deserve to just rot and starve myself to death because i will never be able to go back 2020 be a prettyboy never make these fucking songs or discover this site people always act like im the problem here but no it's really them i am a nice fucking person very few people understand what has happened to me and trust me my story is going to be very relevant in the years to come ever since i got picked up by massacre video to shoot a film in 2024, december of 2023 is when i will depart so before then please ask as many questions as possible, and get to know me before i am long gone from this space, because i am going to be a very successful horror movie actor, and professional freak show. you all will see.
fucking clown world
also here's an unreleased track i will never ever release because the bitch it's about hates my guts, and i would feel second hand embarassment putting out a love song i made years ago and the femoid finding it and i just can't deal with that.
i am going to work on publishing all of my old thousands of tiktok videos to a huge mega drive like my old pictures so that I can see what went wrong, and maybe you guys can too.
i mean i had the music
my song together was about to take off and had a total of 10 million views on tiktok and if i would've just kept promoting it for 6 more months instead of quitting it would've got me somewhere instead of just staying at 30k spotify streams 11k youtube views 500+ tiktok videos since august 2021 i just couldn't handle the hate and bullying online and at school physically mentally and spiritually
the talent
i legit played 8 instruments was in 11 different bands over my total "career" and after taking the blackpill the members kicked me out i can barely even play anymore i was so fucking good man i got into all state for saxaphone was in 3 different jazz bands for guitar and bass played piano at church sang in the choir played upright bass in orchestra played ukuelele and harmonica at the family reunions before i became an embarassment to the "family" on my mothers side
i had the looks too i was a prettyboy HTN-chadlite and even though i wasn't crazy PSL wise, I still had that JB appeal, and a nice pheno

File folder on MEGA
i'll never be able to get any of these things back, i used to make NT happy fun upbeat energetic music and now i don't even make music because i legit live in a hotel had to sell my equipment im writing this from my phone ive had to raise myself and panhandle and go to food pantries just to be able to eat canned soup and it's crazy cause i used to have friends family a good environment and girls and now nothing i'm in complete solitude no invitations ever i have nothing to lose anymore ill never look feminine and "pretty" again i'll never be able to write songs and produce play like i used to i'll never get another chance to promote my music and reach millions like i used to all because of the shitty blackpill and my fuckin upbringing and of course i listened to my mom give me horrible advice telling me to act cringe for views stick out my tongue to get her and i out of the slums and i end up getting bullied out of my highschool beat up multiple times yelled at called names they cut my hair in the bathroom fucking recording me 24/7 all this damage i've had to go through and i'm not even 17 yet i'm too young for this shit and my life ended before it even started my looks have gone down the drain prettyboys are in masc ogres are out it's crazy how a little bonesmashing peptides injections sarms lack of hygiene and basic softmaxxing can turn the most feminine looking boy into the most masculine low trust horror freak show i am legit called scary just for my looks man. most of this isn't even looks, it's just how i've been treated it's just not possible to ever go back and redo all the things i fucked up on. i will never forget what the kids of that city did to me, and i will remember the few that were nice to me and helped me out. that part of me will never heal from that damage, i don't know what to do now. i'm completely broken, i go outside once a day to the food bin, i used to panhandle before fiverr but now i am just in complete solitude 24 7 i used to slay on tinder and larp as 23 but now i dont even have motivation im running on3 days of no sleep 2 days i havent eaten anything and im so fuckign hungry but i don't deserve food or nice things because im james sapphire the old tiktok troll who used to stick out his tongue im not even human anymore to people i deserve to just rot and starve myself to death because i will never be able to go back 2020 be a prettyboy never make these fucking songs or discover this site people always act like im the problem here but no it's really them i am a nice fucking person very few people understand what has happened to me and trust me my story is going to be very relevant in the years to come ever since i got picked up by massacre video to shoot a film in 2024, december of 2023 is when i will depart so before then please ask as many questions as possible, and get to know me before i am long gone from this space, because i am going to be a very successful horror movie actor, and professional freak show. you all will see.
fucking clown world
also here's an unreleased track i will never ever release because the bitch it's about hates my guts, and i would feel second hand embarassment putting out a love song i made years ago and the femoid finding it and i just can't deal with that.
i am going to work on publishing all of my old thousands of tiktok videos to a huge mega drive like my old pictures so that I can see what went wrong, and maybe you guys can too.