i had it all man

[Deleted member 16133]

i had it all and let my life go down due to the blackpill (not even this forum but it did play a part) and i couldn't handle the hate i recieved from normies

i mean i had the music
my song together was about to take off and had a total of 10 million views on tiktok and if i would've just kept promoting it for 6 more months instead of quitting it would've got me somewhere instead of just staying at 30k spotify streams 11k youtube views 500+ tiktok videos since august 2021 i just couldn't handle the hate and bullying online and at school physically mentally and spiritually







the talent

i legit played 8 instruments was in 11 different bands over my total "career" and after taking the blackpill the members kicked me out i can barely even play anymore i was so fucking good man i got into all state for saxaphone was in 3 different jazz bands for guitar and bass played piano at church sang in the choir played upright bass in orchestra played ukuelele and harmonica at the family reunions before i became an embarassment to the "family" on my mothers side

















i had the looks too i was a prettyboy HTN-chadlite and even though i wasn't crazy PSL wise, I still had that JB appeal, and a nice pheno

File folder on MEGA

mega.nz

i'll never be able to get any of these things back, i used to make NT happy fun upbeat energetic music and now i don't even make music because i legit live in a hotel had to sell my equipment im writing this from my phone ive had to raise myself and panhandle and go to food pantries just to be able to eat canned soup and it's crazy cause i used to have friends family a good environment and girls and now nothing i'm in complete solitude no invitations ever i have nothing to lose anymore ill never look feminine and "pretty" again i'll never be able to write songs and produce play like i used to i'll never get another chance to promote my music and reach millions like i used to all because of the shitty blackpill and my fuckin upbringing and of course i listened to my mom give me horrible advice telling me to act cringe for views stick out my tongue to get her and i out of the slums and i end up getting bullied out of my highschool beat up multiple times yelled at called names they cut my hair in the bathroom fucking recording me 24/7 all this damage i've had to go through and i'm not even 17 yet i'm too young for this shit and my life ended before it even started my looks have gone down the drain prettyboys are in masc ogres are out it's crazy how a little bonesmashing peptides injections sarms lack of hygiene and basic softmaxxing can turn the most feminine looking boy into the most masculine low trust horror freak show i am legit called scary just for my looks man. most of this isn't even looks, it's just how i've been treated it's just not possible to ever go back and redo all the things i fucked up on. i will never forget what the kids of that city did to me, and i will remember the few that were nice to me and helped me out. that part of me will never heal from that damage, i don't know what to do now. i'm completely broken, i go outside once a day to the food bin, i used to panhandle before fiverr but now i am just in complete solitude 24 7 i used to slay on tinder and larp as 23 but now i dont even have motivation im running on3 days of no sleep 2 days i havent eaten anything and im so fuckign hungry but i don't deserve food or nice things because im james sapphire the old tiktok troll who used to stick out his tongue im not even human anymore to people i deserve to just rot and starve myself to death because i will never be able to go back 2020 be a prettyboy never make these fucking songs or discover this site people always act like im the problem here but no it's really them i am a nice fucking person very few people understand what has happened to me and trust me my story is going to be very relevant in the years to come ever since i got picked up by massacre video to shoot a film in 2024, december of 2023 is when i will depart so before then please ask as many questions as possible, and get to know me before i am long gone from this space, because i am going to be a very successful horror movie actor, and professional freak show. you all will see.

fucking clown world

also here's an unreleased track i will never ever release because the bitch it's about hates my guts, and i would feel second hand embarassment putting out a love song i made years ago and the femoid finding it and i just can't deal with that.



i am going to work on publishing all of my old thousands of tiktok videos to a huge mega drive like my old pictures so that I can see what went wrong, and maybe you guys can too.

 

[datboijj]

we are to blame

 

[Deleted member 16133]

i should've been a millionaire prettyboy by now with my looks talent and music i mean shit i had 40k tiktok followers i could've just grinded for 6 more months got 100k and easily gotten a record deal but as one user said i just got unlucky man

 

[Deleted member 22126]

Just dye your hair and straighten it
wear makeup to be a prettyboy

 

[Deleted member 2969]

Failed Kurt Cobain

 

[Deleted member 16133]

we are to blame

no you aren't, this forum was a very small piece of the puzzle, it helped me understand the truth about the world and i was oblivious before. it was mostly the normies from school i can't get out of my head after all these years of abuse and torture, i am so lonely in solitude it's all i can think about, it's the only memories i have.

 

[Deleted member 16133]

Failed Kurt Cobain

man at the time i wanted to be the next justin bieber man iwanted to be a big prettyboy star who made music for jbs but see how that worked out for me

Just dye your hair and straighten it
wear makeup to be a prettyboy

just get a haircut bro like it's even gonna give me less facial bones to loook more youthful

 

[bloomercel]

 

[Deleted member 2969]

man at the time i wanted to be the next justin bieber man iwanted to be a big prettyboy star who made music for jbs but see how that worked out for me

Man you're talented, you just had shitty upbringing like me and were destined to be blackpilled and non NT

 

[Deleted member 22126]

man at the time i wanted to be the next justin bieber man iwanted to be a big prettyboy star who made music for jbs but see how that worked out for me

just get a haircut bro like it's even gonna give me less facial bones to loook more youthful

U look less youthful cause you are leaner. Maybe get fatgrafts if bulking doesnt work?

 

[BugeyeBigNoseCurry]

We failed you James

 

[Deleted member 21052]

Very tragic ngl. Very sad story

And I agree with you. It’s honestly crazy how you managed to fuck up ur looks so bad

You were actually a TikTok pretty boy but now, idk what exactly it is ur face is too “extreme”

Mannn sad as fuck

 

[Deleted member 22780]

Brutal delete your account and just try to be normal again

 

[fruitgunpop]

You opted for the wrong path
Instead of chasing for PSL points mainly you should've devised a looksmax plan that takes both SMV and PSL into account. Not psl solely.
Imo you looksmaxxed your eyes correctly but went overboard with other features especially the supras, cheekbones and chin. Your lips also worsened

That's my honest opinion james

 

[Deleted member 16133]

Man you're talented, you just had shitty upbringing like me and were destined to be blackpilled and non NT

the blackpill chose us man and it's fuckin sad bro

U look less youthful cause you are leaner. Maybe get fatgrafts if bulking doesnt work?

it's all bones

 

[Polar]

brother you weigh like 100 lbs at 5'9 if im not mistaken ofc with those bones of yours youre gonna look like shit
you can ascend back to your prime looks if you just bulk up fr you gotta do it

 

[Enfant terrible]

embrace looking fugly now
bro and slay

 

[Deleted member 16133]

We failed you James

it was mainly the normies man i love this forum secretly and that's why i keep coming back

Very tragic ngl. Very sad story

And I agree with you. It’s honestly crazy how you managed to fuck up ur looks so bad

You were actually a TikTok pretty boy but now, idk what exactly it is ur face is too “extreme”

Mannn sad as fuck

i'llnever get it back ill never have the status i once had eitiher even tho it was nothin to crazy

 

[Deleted member 22126]

You opted for the wrong path
Instead of chasing for PSL points mainly you should've devised a looksmax plan that takes both SMV and PSL into account. Not psl solely.
Imo you looksmaxxed your eyes correctly but went overboard with other features especially the supras, cheekbones and chin. Your lips also worsened
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That's my honest opinion james

How did you fix your droopy eyelids?

 

[Deleted member 16133]

Brutal delete your account and just try to be normal again

i wish it was possible to do that but my face was already too memorable even in 2021 so people still always will remember me 50million people worldwide saw my face through my analytics in prime so i thjink moving to SEA would be the best optionj for me

 

[Deleted member 16133]

How did you fix your droopy eyelids?

a lot of things went into play

 

[Deleted member 22780]

i wish it was possible to do that but my face was already too memorable even in 2021 so people still always will remember me 50million people worldwide saw my face through my analytics in prime so i thjink moving to SEA would be the best optionj for me

True tons of musicians there too.

 

[Deleted member 22126]

a lot of things went into play

Pm if you dont want to share here?

 

[Deleted member 16133]

You opted for the wrong path
Instead of chasing for PSL points mainly you should've devised a looksmax plan that takes both SMV and PSL into account. Not psl solely.
Imo you looksmaxxed your eyes correctly but went overboard with other features especially the supras, cheekbones and chin. Your lips also worsened
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That's my honest opinion james

it sucks man but it's just how it is tbh its impossible to be a prettyboy its not possible to be nt listen to rap music youre eitther born with it or u arent

 

[Deleted member 16133]

Pm if you dont want to share here?

botchede canthoplasty then igot lateral canthal reconsutrciition to fix my eyelid asymetries lower lid retraction w spacer graft infra and supra orbital implant upper eyelid filler 3 session of yeux clairs and bonesamsh

 

[Deleted member 16133]

brother you weigh like 100 lbs at 5'9 if im not mistaken ofc with those bones of yours youre gonna look like shit
you can ascend back to your prime looks if you just bulk up fr you gotta do it

i am 105 5 7 manlet tbh but i cant ascend to my prime look sbc my eye area isnt as high trust my nose isnt as good and i had less bones

 

[Deleted member 16133]

embrace looking fugly now
bro and slay

i can get alt and menatal ill foid but no mroethan that i cant get beach girls like i used to

 

[Deleted member 19157]

dude ur fucking young, im 24 and this shit happened to me too. i just dont whine about it as frequently but losers on PSL and schitzo affected me too

u cant blame that on people on a website though, if you let that effect you so strongly than it was already over guy.

 

[fruitgunpop]

it sucks man but it's just how it is tbh its impossible to be a prettyboy its not possible to be nt listen to rap music youre eitther born with it or u arent

Isn't it reversible tho
Your eye area is already mogger
You just need to reverse all the other stuff

 

[quackspirations]

and I could've had it all man. no bitches in the dms is truly the curse of the sub 8 male specimen

 

[Deleted member 17920]

How did surgeons even perform on you when your 15?

 

[Deleted member 20652]

Fock your music is good I'm listening to it while high as fock

//UNCLE THOMAS

 

[Deleted member 22099]

i should've been a millionaire prettyboy by now with my looks talent and music i mean shit i had 40k tiktok followers i could've just grinded for 6 more months got 100k and easily gotten a record deal but as one user said i just got unlucky man

If you really think you could stop complaining about it here and get to work

 

[ascension]

Absolutely brutal. Your story makes me sad and worried for the future of this world. How dare this shit planet rob you of your potential? This is unacceptable.

 

[Deleted member 23564]

music is pretty bad

 

[Bojack]

james; i am feeling these tunes ngl. Send me your email and I will send you an audio that might help you.

 

[looksmaxxed]

try and succeed in the music business then give me money

 

[Deleted member 16133]

try and succeed in the music business then give me money

we will see

james; i am feeling these tunes ngl. Send me your email and I will send you an audio that might help you.

jamessapphirebusiness@gmail.com

music is pretty bad

thanks bro <3

Absolutely brutal. Your story makes me sad and worried for the future of this world. How dare this shit planet rob you of your potential? This is unacceptable.

i will come back

If you really think you could stop complaining about it here and get to work

i cant not yet at least

Fock your music is good I'm listening to it while high as fock

//UNCLE THOMAS

thank u for the support

How did surgeons even perform on you when your 15?

they do at any age

Isn't it reversible tho
Your eye area is already mogger
You just need to reverse all the other stuff

no these eyes are not good at all they arent soft

dude ur fucking young, im 24 and this shit happened to me too. i just dont whine about it as frequently but losers on PSL and schitzo affected me too

u cant blame that on people on a website though, if you let that effect you so strongly than it was already over guy.

its bc of normies i actually like this website but i had so much potential but its all to waste now

 

[Deleted member 23564]

jk bro ur music is fire

 

[Deleted member 16133]

jk bro ur music is fire

thanks bro <3

 

[redrum64389]

dnr

 

[6ft4]

It's unfortunate that your mother convince you to do the things for views that led to your bullying
Did she abandon you leaving you to find means to live on your own?
Should the fiver gig earnings be enough to find a permanent place to rent?
Do you have a laptop to work on music production still?

How is it that you were able to look like both this

And this at the same age

This leads my to think you were always destined to have prominent facial bones
The prettyboy looks phase would've passed regardless of taking interventions or not but your interventions accelerated the process
Yes it would've been good to take advantage of prettyboy looks and get famous for your music while they were intact but even if you kept them intact for another couple of years there is no guarantee it would've caused you to get the record deals that you wanted because sometimes the perfect path you reflect out may not have happened anyway

Lots of guys can have skin and features to run prettyboy game during puberty but how many of them are sentient enough to ever get any fame or status from it? At most they'll just get a gf with little effort by having a social circle, but then it will pass and they'll no longer look like a highschooler and then they will look at high schoolers and rage remembering back to when they were in that position

I am certain that you can improve your situation and have the success you wanted. Once you get older and have more perspective you will realize that thinking it's over at 16 is comical

I would recommend changing your image, disolving filler if possible, bulking as others have suggested to soften face a bit
New hairstyle and gaining muscle because robust facial bones look way better with a muscular body rather than skinny body

Would you consider creating a separate brand to upload new music under that has none of the previous stigma attached to it?
You could get it to take off then reveal yourself as the producer once you have a new image

 

[tallnegga]

Your life sounds like heaven compared to me at your age lol. Can’t feel bad if I wanted to.

 

[Deleted member 21688]

Leave America.

 

[Deleted member 16133]

Leave America.

i am going to fuck this shit man

Your life sounds like heaven compared to me at your age lol. Can’t feel bad if I wanted to.

how doe sit sound like heaven? m ylife sucks ass everyday is a struggle

It's unfortunate that your mother convince you to do the things for views that led to your bullying
Did she abandon you leaving you to find means to live on your own?
Should the fiver gig earnings be enough to find a permanent place to rent?
Do you have a laptop to work on music production still?

How is it that you were able to look like both this

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And this at the same age

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This leads my to think you were always destined to have prominent facial bones
The prettyboy looks phase would've passed regardless of taking interventions or not but your interventions accelerated the process
Yes it would've been good to take advantage of prettyboy looks and get famous for your music while they were intact but even if you kept them intact for another couple of years there is no guarantee it would've caused you to get the record deals that you wanted because sometimes the perfect path you reflect out may not have happened anyway

Lots of guys can have skin and features to run prettyboy game during puberty but how many of them are sentient enough to ever get any fame or status from it? At most they'll just get a gf with little effort by having a social circle, but then it will pass and they'll no longer look like a highschooler and then they will look at high schoolers and rage remembering back to when they were in that position

I am certain that you can improve your situation and have the success you wanted. Once you get older and have more perspective you will realize that thinking it's over at 16 is comical

I would recommend changing your image, disolving filler if possible, bulking as others have suggested to soften face a bit
New hairstyle and gaining muscle because robust facial bones look way better with a muscular body rather than skinny body

Would you consider creating a separate brand to upload new music under that has none of the previous stigma attached to it?
You could get it to take off then reveal yourself as the producer once you have a new image

It's unfortunate that your mother convince you to do the things for views that led to your bullying
yeah it sucks
Did she abandon you leaving you to find means to live on your own?
no i choose not to live with her because last august i was living w her and she almost got us killed this black dude pulled up in a car and asked if i wanted to make money and i ignored him and this drug dealer was tryna lure her and i to a corner and she was like he has weed tho and i was like ur not gonna risk ur life so i forced her to not do it and then we got held at gun point and i just gave the dude 100 dollars to let us go and after that i am the one who left her on her own not the other way around
Should the fiver gig earnings be enough to find a permanent place to rent?
yeah i make 1200 a month from it and get 2000 combined from the government so it pays my cheap 50 dollar a night hotel and canned soup while saving a bit extra dough on the side

How is it that you were able to look like both this

And this at the same age

just angle frauding and cheeksucking

Do you have a laptop to work on music production still?
yeah i got an old macbook i found at a discount electronics store but i dont use it a lot

Would you consider creating a separate brand to upload new music under that has none of the previous stigma attached to it?
You could get it to take off then reveal yourself as the producer once you have a new image

hmm i've thought about it but i've already spent over 2 years on the james sapphire shit bro so i gotta keep doing it or these years go to waste i have hella good songs w popular artists waiting to drop but i feel if i dropped it under a different name and never showed my face no one would bat an eye

 

[Deleted member 16133]

dnr

then fuck off greycel faggot

 

[redrum64389]

then fuck off greycel faggot

jk nigga i did read brutal shit tbh .u have legit talent bro ur music mogs

 

[Deleted member 22829]

sucks to suck lol

 

[PunishedDollcel]

U look less youthful cause you are leaner. Maybe get fatgrafts if bulking doesnt work?

Yeah getting injections at such a young age was a colossal fucking mistake. I hope he can fix that shit, and return to his baseline.

 

[Deleted member 21044]

You're a looksmaxxing legend tho.