nymrcto
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i really hate being ugly. everyday i envy those around me who look better. have better eyes, skinner noses, less body fat, good eyebrows. ill always be jealous of people who are genetically blessed. ill do whatever it takes to reach my full potential, but right now as a broke sub 5 theres not much i can do. i need to make car payments, pay for bills, school, all while making $3000 a month. i will start ghk within the next few weeks, reta within 1-2 months, mt2 within 2-3 months, i will start minoxidil within a month, and latisse sometime soon too. i will get a rhinoplasty to fixed my fat ugly fucked up nose. i will do jaw training to lift up my hyoid. but i cant control my eyes, my bones, my body structure. ill get lean, go to the gym, but my genetics are fucked. im a worthless piece of shit, i suck as a person, and being ugly just makes me 10x worse. everyday i want to rope, i probably will soon. i dont think ill live to see 20, but i turn 19 in 3 days. life isnt fair. some have it all so easily. maybe roping is worth it. i dont even give not one molecule of a shit for women. i want to look better, be comfortable in my skin. it doesnt matter anyway, i will die young. but if i can die a mtn or higher then id rather have that. why does it have to be this way, i need help. my mental is fucked. im addicted to gooning, i watch gore, i think about killing and hurting others and myself although i dont think i could build the courage to do that. all day everyday i think about my mistakes. how different my life would be if i had more confidence, if i looked better. maybe i would have friends and wouldnt be a lonely pos. im not talented enough, dont look good enough, cant do anything right. roping might be my only way out