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“Rage, rage against the dying of the light”
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My whole life is marked by inferiority
I have extremely bad vision so I need other people to help me
I’m extremely ugly so I need other people to pity me
I’m extremely ND so I need other people to talk for me
I don’t even know who I am because I’m defined by my own shortcomings
I wish I lived in a body that didn’t need constant external help and attention to function
To live that way would be bliss
The #1 sign of genetic inferiority “that I wasn’t designed to be here naturally”: I find myself thinking about a fantasy more than my own life
At this point I don’t know how much of it was already decided, and how much of it I’m deciding, and deep down I don’t want to know, because the idea that I’m actually trying and still failing scares me deeply
But it only hurts worse when I’m confronted with my life of nothingness and I wake up a little to my situation
Like a bag of bricks
I have extremely bad vision so I need other people to help me
I’m extremely ugly so I need other people to pity me
I’m extremely ND so I need other people to talk for me
I don’t even know who I am because I’m defined by my own shortcomings
I wish I lived in a body that didn’t need constant external help and attention to function
To live that way would be bliss
The #1 sign of genetic inferiority “that I wasn’t designed to be here naturally”: I find myself thinking about a fantasy more than my own life
At this point I don’t know how much of it was already decided, and how much of it I’m deciding, and deep down I don’t want to know, because the idea that I’m actually trying and still failing scares me deeply
But it only hurts worse when I’m confronted with my life of nothingness and I wake up a little to my situation
Like a bag of bricks
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