I hate my life, my family, and I honestly just wanna kill myself right now

[rawr]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

 

[rawr]

bump incase anyone relates

 

[rawr]

BUMP

 

[IronMike]

No need to bump again.

 

[rawr]

No need to bump again.

LMAOOO

 

[rawr]

No need to bump again.

a "dnr" would've been enough bro

 

[reallybro]

your family is run by women with no male head of household they will treat you like garbage

 

[rawr]

your family is run by women with no male head of household they will treat you like garbage

Yes exactly the second my dad left they instantly changed. I genuinely dont feel like a man at all and if i try to intimidate them, theyll call the cops, gang up on me, kick me out, take my belongings or all of the above

 

[134applesauce456]

No need to bump again.

speak for yourself, I care

 

[OlympicSizzler]

You would probably be into sad Bart Simpson edits because you whine like a little bitch

 

[fandoo]

Yes exactly the second my dad left they instantly changed. I genuinely dont feel like a man at all and if i try to intimidate them, theyll call the cops, gang up on me, kick me out, take my belongings or all of the above

I wouldn't escape because it's expensive to build a new life from zero, but I would certainly escape after maybe moneymaxxing

 

[mkUltra2xx]

Bro i know it may seem hard but please don’t rope. You still have a long life ahead of you trust me it WILL get better

 

[NatureEnjoyer_]

Dnr fr

 

[rawr]

You would probably be into sad Bart Simpson edits because you whine like a little bitch

the shit people say my first time actually ranting

 

[Jgns]

get a job rn and start saving up tbh bro and start planning to leave them

 

[catastropy]

 

[rawr]

speak for yourself, I care

goat

 

[IronMike]

a "dnr" would've been enough bro

The cool thing about being a man is that we all deal with our issues internally and you don't verbalize it.

 

[Eskorbutin]

move on asap. that's pretty much it. life sucks always anyway.

 

[rawr]

get a job rn and start saving up tbh bro and start planning to leave them

ironically im worried my mom forces me to quit. shes a performative manipulative POS and when i brought up having a job she said "no way you're getting a job, im independent enough to lead this family"

dude
food is a massive problem here
rent hasnt been paid in years
on the verge of eviction daily

 

[sympathy4thegrinch]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

Never rope

 

[rawr]

The cool thing about being a man is that we all deal with our issues internally and you don't verbalize it.

i agree, i dont like bringing up age but dude im 16
im insanely powerless
if i had a job or whatever atleast ill have leverage, but i have no ground to stand on

 

[Masty]

Why don't you try calling those helpline numbers? For example, here in my country, if you are a teen and something bad is happening in your family, you can call those lines. Don't give up bro

 

[Jgns]

ironically im worried my mom forces me to quit. shes a performative manipulative POS and when i brought up having a job she said "no way you're getting a job, im independent enough to lead this family"

dude
food is a massive problem here
rent hasnt been paid in years
on the verge of eviction daily

holy shit bro icl yeah call those helpline numbers tbh

 

[134applesauce456]

goat

but I really really hope it gets better for you bhai, you are in an abusive household and no child deserves that

I'm so sorry about ur situtatiion

 

[fandoo]

Bro i know it may seem hard but please don’t rope. You still have a long life ahead of you trust me it WILL get better

none of these guys actually rope unless they are terminally ill, it's all just a joke lol, it's just a way to cope with your personal issues

 

[irrumator praetor]

a "dnr" would've been enough bro

"worst he can say is dnr"

 

[rawr]

Bro i know it may seem hard but please don’t rope. You still have a long life ahead of you trust me it WILL get better

I don't think I'll truly rope, unless things get much worse. Funny how over the course of maybe a year I went from "There's no chance I'll kill myself EVER" to "Maybe there's a 1% chance" to now brainstorming a suicide note, thinking of ways to kill myself, and constantly having suicidal intrusive thoughts.

I wouldn't escape because it's expensive to build a new life from zero, but I would certainly escape after maybe moneymaxxing

I really hope that's possible, can't help but feel like I'm destined for failure and I won't even be able to escape, or atleast build leverage towards a life worth living.

get a job rn and start saving up tbh bro and start planning to leave them

Yeah, that's definitely on my list of things to do. I wanna get a job and spend most of my time away from family, and build complete independence. I wanna cut contact aswell.

move on asap. that's pretty much it. life sucks always anyway.

Rn, moving on sounds impossible because how can you move on in a situation you're still dealing with? But in the future, I'll definitely be able to move on. Life does suck

Never rope

I'll try

 

[fandoo]

i agree, i dont like bringing up age but dude im 16
im insanely powerless
if i had a job or whatever atleast ill have leverage, but i have no ground to stand on

in that case I would quite literally just call CPS lol, ur 16

 

[irrumator praetor]

child protective services

 

[rawr]

Why don't you try calling those helpline numbers? For example, here in my country, if you are a teen and something bad is happening in your family, you can call those lines. Don't give up bro

Thank you bro but I don't wanna get anyone involved, its not the worst life ever, still pretty bad though.

but I really really hope it gets better for you bhai, you are in an abusive household and no child deserves that

I'm so sorry about ur situtatiion

Thanks man. just sucks because my teen years are all replaced with stress instead of fun memories, only 3 years left of being a teen too, didnt feel like a normal human throughout them.

none of these guys actually rope unless they are terminally ill, it's all just a joke lol, it's just a way to cope with your personal issues

Nah im not one of those guys who write "im roping bye guys" jfl, i only added feeling like roping because i feel trapped here

 

[rawr]

child protective services

in that case I would quite literally just call CPS lol, ur 16

thank u guys for the advice but i js dont wanna get anyone involved, my life here is pretty miserable but its fine at times

 

[irrumator praetor]

thank u guys for the advice but i js dont wanna get anyone involved, my life here is pretty miserable but its fine at times

weak

 

[True Epstein]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

cps and hope that ur bitch sisters also get taken away from ur crazy mother

 

[rawr]

weak

nigga wouldnt that make me the opposite of weak? dealing with the stress rather than getting someone to deal w it for me

 

[kash Register]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

Burn them

 

[irrumator praetor]

nigga wouldnt that make me the opposite of weak? dealing with the stress rather than getting someone to deal w it for me

the weak suffer what they must, the strong do what they can

 

[rawr]

cps and hope that ur bitch sisters also get taken away from ur crazy mother

yeah dude its so weird i grew up close to her and she often does kind things to me but when she gets mad at me its always over dumb shit and she gets super angry. she broke my laptop over something stupid before, is incredibly petty and stubborn and is honestly just like my mom

cant remember other stuff shes done but there are so many instances in which my sister acted like a bitch

 

[irrumator praetor]

Thucydides' "Melian Dialogue"

 

[fandoo]

thank u guys for the advice but i js dont wanna get anyone involved, my life here is pretty miserable but its fine at times

well I wouldn't rlly rush anything but I would get started lol, if u call CPS they can potentially arrest those twats, pretty sure

 

[rawr]

i live in a shitty area so nothings gonna happen likely

 

[sympathy4thegrinch]

I don't think I'll truly rope, unless things get much worse. Funny how over the course of maybe a year I went from "There's no chance I'll kill myself EVER" to "Maybe there's a 1% chance" to now brainstorming a suicide note, thinking of ways to kill myself, and constantly having suicidal intrusive thoughts.

I really hope that's possible, can't help but feel like I'm destined for failure and I won't even be able to escape, or atleast build leverage towards a life worth living.

Yeah, that's definitely on my list of things to do. I wanna get a job and spend most of my time away from family, and build complete independence. I wanna cut contact aswell.

Rn, moving on sounds impossible because how can you move on in a situation you're still dealing with? But in the future, I'll definitely be able to move on. Life does suck

I'll try

I imagine that bare minimum ~30% of the org has wanted to rope at some point, of that 30%, 95% would probably say it's not worth

 

[zconru]

Had the same situation as you, bro. When I was younger, I decided to sign myself into care to escape a toxic household full of women like yourself. The best thing for you would be to move out and crack on with your own life, focusing on what matters. It does get better always but this is part of growing as a human. There will always be ups and downs stuff like this shapes you into the best version of yourself, though. It’s not worth thinking about roping when you’ve got so many good and positive years left to live. Keep your head up, king.

 

[miloeatscookies]

Man i feel bad for you OP

 

[rawr]

Man i feel bad for you OP

Its a rough life

Had the same situation as you, bro. When I was younger, I decided to sign myself into care to escape a toxic household full of women like yourself. The best thing for you would be to move out and crack on with your own life, focusing on what matters. It does get better always but this is part of growing as a human. There will always be ups and downs stuff like this shapes you into the best version of yourself, though. It’s not worth thinking about roping when you’ve got so many good and positive years left to live. Keep your head up, king.

Thank you dude

 

[alwazzab]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

Move out when you get to university and explore the world alone all this is temporary until you are ready. Dont look back either

 

[Eskorbutin]

Rn, moving on sounds impossible because how can you move on in a situation you're still dealing with? But in the future, I'll definitely be able to move on. Life does suck

You don't "deal" or "cope". You accept it as it is. You already "lost" that fight no? It's your choice to keep mourning or to take as much as you can from this situation before you leave. I understand this is hard to digest as you'll find just having to go through the hours painful, but even when you move on, something else will be painful, always will be.

 

[PrettyLights]

my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit.

bro….

 

[JOTAROSON]

Я знаю, что никому нет дела, но, чувак, жить в моем доме подростком — это ужасно. Я живу в семье, где одни женщины, мой отец, очевидно, ушел, потому что не смог смириться с семейными проблемами. Я живу с мамой и сестрами, и они каждый день сводят меня с ума. Моя мама постоянно оскорбляет и кричит на меня, и именно из-за нее у меня так много навязчивых мыслей о самоубийстве.

Сегодня вся моя семья разозлилась на меня, потому что я живу как раб, и мне приказали делать кучу вещей, которые ДОЛЖНЫ делать ОНИ. А я им прямо сказала, что не понимаю, почему я должна делать то, что должны делать они. Они буквально повели себя так, будто я им всем выстрелила в голову, и начали на меня кричать. Скорее всего, они откажутся готовить ужин сегодня, будут ещё больше меня игнорировать, заберут все мои вещи и, возможно, сделают то же, что делали, когда мне было 15 лет (запрут меня снаружи дома и выбросят мои вещи на улицу).

Чувак, ты бы подумал, что я такой плохой ребенок, что я употребляю наркотики, курю, пью алкоголь, но я провожу большую часть времени дома, смотрю YouTube, занимаюсь своими хобби или просто гуляю. Почему я так боюсь, что меня выгонят из дома??? Моя семья меня буквально ненавидит. Моя сестра пожелала мне смерти на мой день рождения.

Я совершенно не знаю, что делать, у меня нет абсолютно никакого выхода, и я, очевидно, не могу покинуть этот дом в ближайшие пару лет, так как я старшеклассник и не хочу остаться бездомным. Я так растерян, и я не могу придумать ничего другого, кроме как выговориться и оставить этот пост как документальное подтверждение, понимаете?

Вкратце: Ужасная, нерадивая и иррациональная семья разозлилась на меня из-за пустяка, и я боюсь, что они выгонят меня из дома, хотя мне всего 16, и я ничего плохого не сделал.

МI feel sorry for you, I hope everything will be okay with you.

 

[bolinha]

I know nobody cares but man living in my house as a teen fucking sucks. I live in a family of only women, my dad obviously left because he couldn't deal with my families bullshit. I live with my mom and my sisters and they drive me insane daily. My mom constantly insults and yells at me and has been the reason I've had so many suicidal intrusive thoughts.

My entire family got mad at me today because I live a life as a slave and so I was ordered to do a whole bunch of shit that THEY'RE meant to do and I flat out told them I dont understand why im meant to do things they should do. They literally acted as if i just shot them all in the head and started yelling at me and theyre likely gonna refuse to make dinner today, neglect me further, take away all of my belongings and they might do what they did back when i was 15 years old (lock me out of the house & throw my belongings outside aswelll)

Dude you'd think id be such a bad kid, youd think i do drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, but i spend most of my time just at home watching youtube, pursuing my hobbies, or just going on walks. Why am i in such fear of being kicked out??? My family literally hates me. My sister wished death upon me on my birthday.

Im so unsure of what to do i have absolutely no escape and i obviously cant leave this home for the next couple of years as im a highschool student and dont wanna be homeless. Im so lost and i couldnt think of anything else to do other then to rant and leave this post up as documentation yk

TLDR: Shitty neglectful and irrational family got mad at me over nothing and im worried about them kicking me out even though im only 16 and havent really done anything wrong

that shit only hapening becuase you living with 2 foids and dont look good if you were just a chad chilling you could be chilling at peace since you not that just leave your house