wakamegang
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DISCLAIMER: ENGLISH ISNT MY FIRST LANGUAGE/ THIS POST IS NONSENSE JUST A FAT FUCK VENTING ABOUT HIS MISERABLE LIFE
I want to die.
i never had male friends, i was always alone or with girls, i really dont know why but i just wasnt like them.
now i have some male friends but they’re more like acquaintances than real friends.
every time i see a group of boys just being boys i stare at them asking myself what the fuck is wrong with me, why cant i be like them just fucking dumb and naive and with their heads up in the clouds.
so i thought maybe if i fix my appearance ill be more confident and start making friends, which of course didnt happen.
a little context before talking about the , i’ve always been fat, really fat like morbidly obese fat, last year something in my head clicked and i just started starving, i lost 51kg in 1y and 3 months and now i weight 85kg but im still fat.
i always thought that the only thing that was ruining my appearance was being fat, well i was wrong, i started noticing asymmetries, one eyebrow was slightly taller than the other one etc. then i started noticing a heavy hairloss so i started using minoxidil, then i started fixating on my nose, oh fuck i hate my nose ( this summer ill get a job and save money to get a rhino) and then i realized my biggest problem is my posture, lmao it makes me want to slice my wrists just thinking about it, i’ve never seen anyone with a worse posture than me.
i have rounded shoulders, hypercifosis, hyperlordosis (apt), knock knees, flat feet, forward head posture, tilted head and like everything lmao. i just cant comprehend how to fix an atrocity like that, so i think that ill just give up and hope for the next life.
I want to die.
i never had male friends, i was always alone or with girls, i really dont know why but i just wasnt like them.
now i have some male friends but they’re more like acquaintances than real friends.
every time i see a group of boys just being boys i stare at them asking myself what the fuck is wrong with me, why cant i be like them just fucking dumb and naive and with their heads up in the clouds.
so i thought maybe if i fix my appearance ill be more confident and start making friends, which of course didnt happen.
a little context before talking about the , i’ve always been fat, really fat like morbidly obese fat, last year something in my head clicked and i just started starving, i lost 51kg in 1y and 3 months and now i weight 85kg but im still fat.
i always thought that the only thing that was ruining my appearance was being fat, well i was wrong, i started noticing asymmetries, one eyebrow was slightly taller than the other one etc. then i started noticing a heavy hairloss so i started using minoxidil, then i started fixating on my nose, oh fuck i hate my nose ( this summer ill get a job and save money to get a rhino) and then i realized my biggest problem is my posture, lmao it makes me want to slice my wrists just thinking about it, i’ve never seen anyone with a worse posture than me.
i have rounded shoulders, hypercifosis, hyperlordosis (apt), knock knees, flat feet, forward head posture, tilted head and like everything lmao. i just cant comprehend how to fix an atrocity like that, so i think that ill just give up and hope for the next life.
