KA24
the lion never cuts his mane
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While it doesn't hurt to say this, it still feels weird admitting I do truly hate my parents because of the genetics they bestowed upon me. While 90% of my genetics are from my parents, I received several recessive traits dating back to my great grandparents and past that even.
Out of all the recessive genes I could've gotten, I got negative canthal tilt, which has had the most impact on my mental state. I feel less than human because of it, I feel like I'm this hideous thing and I constantly wonder why it had to be me. If I'm not constantly squinting, which I often forget to do in social settings, my eyes automatically become droopy and ugly. My friends will mention in everyday conversation, they'll say how my eyes "look weird" and I "look sad" constantly. I was eating dinner with my family and the conversation somehow found its way to my eyes, and they would make a slanted motion and ask why my eyes look like that. All I could tell them was I had no idea and what a weird thing it was.
That felt horrible. I felt disgusted with my own shitty genetics. And, I can't explain to my parents how I want to get surgery when I turn 18 because they'll just think I'm some depressed suicidal kid.
The eye and jaw area are arguably the most important areas of someone's face, and they're coincidentally my worst areas. The only positive things about my eyes are I have virtually no UEE (unless I'm even slightly tired, then I have asymmetrical UEE), and I have long lashes. I have nothing else to be thankful for.
It's difficult being stuck with these genetics, but the second I get the chance, I'm getting surgeries to fix as many of my issues as possible and then maybe I'll get to experience what should've been my teenage years, in my 20's.
Out of all the recessive genes I could've gotten, I got negative canthal tilt, which has had the most impact on my mental state. I feel less than human because of it, I feel like I'm this hideous thing and I constantly wonder why it had to be me. If I'm not constantly squinting, which I often forget to do in social settings, my eyes automatically become droopy and ugly. My friends will mention in everyday conversation, they'll say how my eyes "look weird" and I "look sad" constantly. I was eating dinner with my family and the conversation somehow found its way to my eyes, and they would make a slanted motion and ask why my eyes look like that. All I could tell them was I had no idea and what a weird thing it was.
That felt horrible. I felt disgusted with my own shitty genetics. And, I can't explain to my parents how I want to get surgery when I turn 18 because they'll just think I'm some depressed suicidal kid.
The eye and jaw area are arguably the most important areas of someone's face, and they're coincidentally my worst areas. The only positive things about my eyes are I have virtually no UEE (unless I'm even slightly tired, then I have asymmetrical UEE), and I have long lashes. I have nothing else to be thankful for.
It's difficult being stuck with these genetics, but the second I get the chance, I'm getting surgeries to fix as many of my issues as possible and then maybe I'll get to experience what should've been my teenage years, in my 20's.
