I Hate My Stupid Face

[astatin]

You come home every day and the first thing you do is stare into the mirror, almost hoping to find a different person looking back at you. Instead, all you see is every flaw your mind has trained itself to obsess over. You know people think you look okay, but none of that matters when your own reflection feels unbearable to exist in. You can’t see a face anymore. Your brain reduces human beings into features and measurements until beauty stops feeling real and starts feeling like some cruel hierarchy you’ll never reach the top of.


Hours disappear in front of the mirror. Different angles. Different lighting. Pulling at your skin. Tilting your head. Searching for proof that maybe this time you finally look enough. But the longer you stare, the more distorted you become to yourself. The obsession eats away at you slowly until your entire worth depends on what you see reflected back.


And every night ends the same way, lying in bed mentally exhausted, knowing no amount of self-improvement will ever silence the hatred in your own head. Just waiting, hoping there has to be more to life than spending every moment at war with your own face.

 

[Deleted member 148697]

You stress over your looks probably bcs u want to fit in but what I am actually gonna tell you is that fitting into society is not a thing you should worry about, its all gonna make sense when you realize that the people forms the society is just really a bunch of stupid sheeps. I mean I don’t say you shouldnt care about your looks but its not something you should be always stressing over it

 

[khrome]

You stres over your looks probably bcs u want to fit in but what I am actually gonna tell you is that fitting into society is not a thing you should worry about

35 posts
what else is there to worry about in a world revolving around societal norms JFL

 

[idontlikemyself6]

Can i get a TLDR?

Seriously, i don’t have the time to read your pity text

 

[idontlikemyself6]

Can i get a TLDR?

Seriously, i don’t have the time to read your pity text

I’m too busy edging between org and X

 

[Deleted member 148697]

35 posts
what else is there to worry about in a world revolving around societal norms JFL

Who said that you should be one of the gears that revolve, just because majority is there doesnt mean that is the right way

 

[Deleted member 148697]

35 posts
what else is there to worry about in a world revolving around societal norms JFL

And what about my 35 post

 

[khrome]

Who said that you should be one of the gears that revolve, just because majority is there doesnt mean that is the right way

because nobody is going to follow you, the severe majority of people would wish to blend in with the crowd. Its the comfortable way of living
forsure you speak this way online, but you are one of said "gears" or "sheep"

 

[TGUN.]

I spend probably at least 2 hours daily looking at myself.

Every time I’m in public I’m opening up my camera, every reflection and mirror I quickly look.

 

[Deleted member 148697]

because nobody is going to follow you, the severe majority of people would wish to blend in with the crowd. Its the comfortable way of living
forsure you speak this way online, but you are one of said "gears" or "sheep"

I know that humans are social creatures and wishes to be around people but the only way of living comfortable is not being in the society people need to realize this you keep repeatinh the same shit over

 

[khrome]

I know that humans are a social creatures and wishes to be around people but the only way of living comfortable is not being in the society people need to realize this you keep repeatinh the same shit over

well yea but they wont, so who gives a shit if they "should"
Knowing and acting are very different

 

[astatin]

I spend probably at least 2 hours daily looking at myself.

Every time I’m in public I’m opening up my camera, every reflection and mirror I quickly look.

I hate how bad i look

Some days I'm really confident and shit

Today i want to kms

I'm literally hmtn, idk why i feel so ugly

 

[Deleted member 148697]

but you are one of said "gears" or "sheep"

What makes you assume that

 

[Deleted member 148697]

well yea but they wont, so who gives a shit if they "should"
Knowing and acting are very different

I don’t say they should live like that im just saying that this is not the only way

 

[khrome]

What makes you assume that

because it would be unintelligent to live otherwise

I don’t say they should live like that im just saying that this is not the only way

idk how you think not following the standardized lifestyle would present you with a better end of life

 

[Deleted member 148697]

because it would be unintelligent to live otherwise

What makes you think that is unintelligent, in my perspective rather than spending my life with stupid fuckasses, I enjoy the life by myself i dont find anyone good enough to spend my time with bcs if theres a human there will always be some problems. Living with groups is just a survival instinct from our ancestors that would die when they prefer to be alone but we are not in ancient times. By the sentences you use I think that you are a hedonist and always choosing the “safer” path is just a waste of life

idk how you think not following the standardized lifestyle would present you with a better end of life

You just dont try to understand and asked the same thing again but im gonna answer it by an example, i bet that you heard of the myth of sisyphus by Albert Camus, the damned king is forced to push the rock till the peak, think of this act as a revolt of leaving the society. Even though sisyphus knows that he won’t be able to push it because it will fall over again (right now we do know that a person who is not a part of people or identity can live so if you chose it there is no such thing as you wont be successful no matter what), Sisyphus is actually happy along the revolt without even considering he wont be successful, you just can’t comprehend the fact that living the way other than usual is not a life that would be miserable