i hate myself

[stacykiller]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

 

[incelincel]

we all do

 

[stacykiller]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

@mohito u are a great guy thank you for everything you explained to me

 

[mohito]

@mohito u are a great guy thank you for everything you explained to me

You are absolutely welcome, my man but one thing u have to understand is that pharmacology is just one aspect of looksmaxing. You can always invest in hardmaxing and cosmetic procedures or even non looks related methods to increase your smv. There is no escaping genetics but it might not be over just yet

 

[jgrey080]

Feeling hopeless is exhausting

 

[stacykiller]

You are absolutely welcome, my man but one thing u have to understand is that pharmacology is just one aspect of looksmaxing. You can always invest in hardmaxing and cosmetic procedures or even non looks related methods to increase your smv. There is no escaping genetics but it might not be over just yet

yeah i know, it’s definitely not over but i was hoping to get somewhere by abusing pharmacology i researched

 

[JOTAROSON]

Пожалуйста, дружище, но ты должен понимать, что фармакология — это лишь один аспект улучшения внешности. Ты всегда можешь инвестировать в хардмаксинг и косметические процедуры или даже в методы, не связанные с внешностью, чтобы повысить свой сексуальный статус. От генетики никуда не деться, но, возможно, на этом всё ещё не заканчивается.

Hey bro racist

 

[Marss]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

dnr nigga holy fuck stop feeling sorry for yourself and take initiative to do something with your life.

 

[mohito]

yeah i know, it’s definitely not over but i was hoping to get somewhere by abusing pharmacology i researched

The obsession with pharma and bone growth is mostly useless in the context of aesthetics anyway. There are way more areas to explore

 

[mohito]

Hey bro racist

It's always fun to see my post in russian with you

 

[stacykiller]

You are absolutely welcome, my man but one thing u have to understand is that pharmacology is just one aspect of looksmaxing. You can always invest in hardmaxing and cosmetic procedures or even non looks related methods to increase your smv. There is no escaping genetics but it might not be over just yet

to be honest i’m not even sure i want smv, i just want to look in the mirror and genuinely smile and feel confident, and i think in the close future i will be just digging deeper and deeper

 

[petsmart]

 

[KG4]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an

interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really

wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could

have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy.

and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there

before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier

and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now

i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i

hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about

simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it

literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read

researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so

on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf,

bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i

have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing

will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure

and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit,

and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and

probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for

future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep

down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i

achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so

chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t

know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i

stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or

you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t

even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here.

wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

 

[KG4]

View attachment 4816097

killyourselffaggot

 

[petsmart]

killyourselffaggot

larp nigger

 

[mohito]

to be honest i’m not even sure i want smv, i just want to look in the mirror and genuinely smile and feel confident, and i think in the close future i will be just digging deeper and deeper

Self contentment doesnt really occur in isolation, it emerges from performing well in society and continually increasing your value there

 

[mohito]

View attachment 4816097

To call u goyim is an insult to the cattle

 

[grayhaahm]

@mohito u are a great guy thank you for everything you explained to me

Grey

 

[stacykiller]

Grey

116 posts

 

[foidslayer84]

dnr and like 90% of people active on here hate their lives too

 

[Galvatron]

Biggest dnr bro

 

[Deleted member 203845]

Feeling hopeless is exhausting

Endless feeling

 

[stacykiller]

dnr and like 90% of people active on here hate their lives too

so tuff

 

[stacykiller]

Biggest dnr bro

you can read when you have time idk

 

[stacykiller]

dnr and like 90% of people active on here hate their lives too

bro is talking about 90% people there while having feb 1 2026 join date and like 50 posts

 

[grayhaahm]

116 posts

It’s actually 117

 

[stacykiller]

It’s actually 117

my bad bro

 

[foidslayer84]

bro is talking about 90% people there while having feb 1 2026 join date and like 50 posts

signed up in 2024 when my friend told me about this website. never used it and eventually forgot about the account username and email

 

[stacykiller]

signed up in 2024 when my friend told me about this website. never used it and eventually forgot about the account username and email

yeah bro right surely you signed up

 

[foidslayer84]

yeah bro right surely you signed up

surely bro surely

 

[Ren Hoek]

 

[mtn_dude_193]

just moneymaxx and surgerymaxx bro its never over

 

[restinsolitude]

Feeling hopeless is exhausting

holy grey

 

[jgrey080]

just moneymaxx and surgerymaxx bro its never over

holy grey

 

[restinsolitude]

ur so grey bro hooly gray just be brutal lil bro

 

[Tomato873]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

Who doesn hate himself

 

[stacykiller]

Who doesn hate himself

i mean it depends on a reason, im not only talking about hating yourself because of looks. i’ve already seen so many people who just seems to be happy about themselves it pisses me off so much that i genuinely wish that something bad happened to them or they don’t succeed at least at one thing so they are not happy for like 1 millisecond of their life

 

[hopelessmanlet32]

we all do here brah

 

[kiannnn]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

D to the N to the R

 

[Bricks228]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an

interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really

wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could

have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy.

and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there

before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier

and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now

i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i

hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about

simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it

literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read

researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so

on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf,

bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i

have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing

will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure

and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit,

and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and

probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for

future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep

down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i

achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so

chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t

know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i

stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or

you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t

even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here.

wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

Kys

 

[KG4]

Kys

ok greyfag

 

[Tomato873]

I rlly get you bro ugly people that are happy piss me pff so much

i mean it depends on a reason, im not only talking about hating yourself because of looks. i’ve already seen so many people who just seems to be happy about themselves it pisses me off so much that i genuinely wish that something bad happened to them or they don’t succeed at least at one thing so they are not happy for like 1 millisecond of their life

 

[Deleted member 135923]

Dnr but based name

 

[mrsaxobeat]

dnr lol jus rope lol and don’t let me catch you mirin me

 

[Gqe12]

I also do

 

[truegoycel]

yo so like im in puberty rn what should i do

 

[PAUL_ALLEN]

it’s been long time since since i posted something there and i don’t really know whether i should continue. what all started as an interesting journey, ended as a complete disaster. i met a lot of people there and i do not regret spending some time with them. i really wish i had joined .org when i first found about it not at the time it became complete mainstream. i waisted so much time when i could have joined during puberty and picked up some tips that could actually help me back in the time. but i was such a fucking scared pussy. and nothing fucking changed. except now i wasted years of my life coping and missed countless hours i could spend with people there before LM went mainstream. i’ve talked to many known guys and i genuinely feel sad because if i took action earlier and joined earlier and actually made something i would be able to talk to them more like friends and actually stand out, be something valuable, but now i talk to them like a fan even though im not interested in them as a “tool” for ascension, i just want to spend some time with them. i hate myself so fucking much i can’t even express it in words. the rabbit hole is actually crazy, i remember how a guy told me about simva and fluva and used some terms that i thought was very smart back then like osteobstats, TGF-β, BMP-2, but now i realize that’s it literally the top of the iceberg. and i decided that i want to be like him in this topic, and there it fucking started, i started to read researches, ask this guy more about pharmacology, met another dude i love asking about medicine and its mechanism of action and so on and so on. i am such a waste as a person, i can not achieve something valuable in life. I WISH all my problems were just like high bf, bloat and physique. who fucking knew that my base has like the worst features it could have ever had, and i’m not even kidding. now i have to spend days researching and finding some research WNT/β-catenin activators which won’t even fucking help. because nothing will help, my life is a fucking joke and i feel like my fate was predetermined. someone knew that deep down i will always be a failure and won’t achieve anything and continued giving me hopes. I’m am such a pointless creation, all my life i was doing some useless shit, and probably also doing it now. i hate people around me so much i genuinely want to kill myself, nothing in me feels right and probably will never be right. i can’t even talk to my parents normally because whenever they start talking about success and plans for future i just imagine myself hanging on a rope because that’s the only possible future for me. I became so insecure and depressed deep down that i don’t even mention half of my nt hobbies to people because i realize that probably those hobbies also impacted on what i achieved in life. last couple weeks i see no point in living to be honest, everything ragebaits me so fucking hard and everyone are so chill and happy laughing because they haven’t got any idea how it feels being like this writing this fucking complaint to god or i don’t know who i am addressing this to. i always feel tired, i just have no time and im planning to quit from all of my nt hobbies because i stopped seeing the point in this if i cant even get opportunities from them. the worst part is, non of you guys will take this seriously or you will just tell me to rope and kill myself and that’s a valid advice ngl. but deep down i understand that it’s all my fault and i don’t even know what’s changeable now. i don’t know how to end this post of pure rage and despair but probably im gonna end it right here. wish you best guys, and probably you could wish me best too

there is no god for sure

 

[leckerman]

Hey man,
Don’t be so hard on yourself. I was also in the same position as you. I still am!
My life is nothing and worthless too but ykw? Who gives a fuck?

I know I don’t but regardless I’m turning 19 this year and I don’t even own a car yet and I’m still insecure about myself. I live in a shit hole country which doesn’t have enough jobs even for University Graduates but life still goes on.
Just know that if you do kys there will be eternal pitch black and no consciousness and you’ll simply not exist.
Do you really want that?

Just like you I was robbed of an earnest life and I relate to you. I won’t sit here and tell you not to kys but know this.

There’s always a second chance..

 

[stacykiller]

Hey man,
Don’t be so hard on yourself. I was also in the same position as you. I still am!
My life is nothing and worthless too but ykw? Who gives a fuck?

I know I don’t but regardless I’m turning 19 this year and I don’t even own a car yet and I’m still insecure about myself. I live in a shit hole country which doesn’t have enough jobs even for University Graduates but life still goes on.
Just know that if you do kys there will be eternal pitch black and no consciousness and you’ll simply not exist.
Do you really want that?

Just like you I was robbed of an earnest life and I relate to you. I won’t sit here and tell you not to kys but know this.

There’s always a second chance..

i feel you bro, i sincerely hope we get better and everything will be just great