I have been completely drugged, zoned out, for the past 48 hours.

[MoggerGaston]

Combination of ketamine, alcohol, mdma, mephedrone and 2-cb.

just taking it all at the same time, all the drugs mingle in my brain and then some conclusion comes rolling out which says: 'You feel good!'

Currently drunk and redosing on ketamine+2cb+mephedrone.

 

[R@m@]

Still depressed after all that ketamine?

 

[the BULL]

Your tolerance Is out of this world. You must have a flawless dopaminergic system.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Still depressed after all that ketamine?

I don't really feel depressed at all, perhaps thanks to all the ketamine.

My brain doesn't even really get back to normal anymore. I wake up in the morning and I think: 'Oh shit, Fuck, it's this reality again.'
Then I do a couple of lines and I am back hallucinating in my dreamworld as I am right now.

I am quite aware, conscious, capable. But not really. I can hold conversations, could drive a car, etc, but with all these drugs in my brain there's something going on which makes life seem weird and funny and keeps me away from any kind of depressive thoughts.

I have so much drugs in my brain.
I just went to the toilet and had to wipe my ass with toilet-paper and all I could think of was how weird the toilet-paper felt in my hands. The sensation of paper in my hands. So weird.
Makes life so much more interesting and I don't need to overthink about my past traumas and its effects on my psyche.

 

[TechnoBoss]

Be safe bro & enjoy

 

[MoggerGaston]

Your tolerance Is out of this world. You must have a flawless dopaminergic system.

My brain is very calm honestly, it's very acceptive and not easily made anxious.

When something 'bad' is going on, like say you are late to the train-station and missed your train. My brain immediately is like: 'well nothing you can do about it now, life is like this. Your lifestyle caused this occurance and it's something you gotta figure out on the long-term. But right now? Buddyboyo, nothing you can do now. Chill.'

I actually feel relief and pleasure when things go wrong, because I feel like these were outside of my control anyways, not my responsibility. So now I am merely tasked with dealing with the aftermath, which I don't mind; it doesn't hold any stress, anxiety, pressure. It's just me making the logical rational steps.

 

[the BULL]

My brain is very calm honestly, it's very acceptive and not easily made anxious.

When something 'bad' is going on, like say you are late to the train-station and missed your train. My brain immediately is like: 'well nothing you can do about it now, life is like this. Your lifestyle caused this occurance and it's something you gotta figure out on the long-term. But right now? Buddyboyo, nothing you can do now. Chill.'

I actually feel relief and pleasure when things go wrong, because I feel like these were outside of my control anyways, not my responsibility. So now I am merely tasked with dealing with the aftermath, which I don't mind; it doesn't hold any stress, anxiety, pressure. It's just me making the logical rational steps.

I'm miring hard as fuck. Those are all the traits of a calm, resolute man. A leader. Someone that thinks about how to fix things and doesn't get bothered that they got broken in the First place. I'm kinda the opposite. I Always think about past mistakes, everytime i fail i think i screwed up my entire day or worse.

 

[S̴̱̪͈͈̄͛̆̅͊̀͊̚̕͝͝͝i]

Combination of ketamine, alcohol, mdma, mephedrone and 2-cb.

just taking it all at the same time, all the drugs mingle in my brain and then some conclusion comes rolling out which says: 'You feel good!'

Currently drunk and redosing on ketamine+2cb+mephedrone.

my lion boyo wanna drink triple lefort

 

[MoggerGaston]

I'm miring hard as fuck. Those are all the traits of a calm, resolute man. A leader. Someone that thinks about how to fix things and doesn't get bothered that they got broken in the First place. I'm kinda the opposite. I Always think about past mistakes, everytime i fail i think i screwed up my entire day or worse.

I can relate a lot with your emotions too. I have those thoughts where I blame myself for the situation I am in, but with the help of drugs, I can say in my mind: 'Today is a new day and I am who I am now.'

And then the burden of the past doesn't follow me which makes it very easy for me to maneuver. The heavy mental-load is gone and I can do whatever I want in the present.

Drugs keep me more connected to the present, instead of living in the past or future.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Only thing is that I stop eating when I am high. Which is leanmaxxing lifefuel.

But it can't be healthy to not eat for 2-3 days whenever I am on a drug binge.