i have mental breakdown from this

[Youㅤ]

these fucking demons in me

and im so gullible i tried to fuck the demon after i was attacked but then it was my own shadow and it attacked me again, i got away into an alternate reality

i realized it has been manifesting as an alternate personality to take control over my actions in rare occurances

such occurances rare cuz i have to banish it chronically using annoying mental rituals that take a toll on my energy levels

this is basically OCD and it debilitated me since 7

weird cuz now im having memories make since again, i saw demon when i was even younger than 7 but had not really understood it.

 

[Youㅤ]

sometimes i think, i never got the experience of growing up as a young boy; i got the experience of possessing a young boy as he grow up

now i realize this is true. but before it was just some random nonsense from my subconsciousness

 

[Youㅤ]

i have a suspect for who did this to me, he could have been a shapeshifter conspiring against me

 

[saint]

Just move on

 

[Youㅤ]

Just move on

muh move on u dont know shit

i try this my whole life but they keep plagueing me. cant fucking sleep i vulnerable during sleep

i have torment beyond ur comprehension complete nother reality u dont know it and i cant put it to words

 

[saint]

muh move on u dont know shit

i try this my whole life but they keep plagueing me. cant fucking sleep i vulnerable during sleep

i have torment beyond ur comprehension complete nother reality u dont know it and i cant put it to words

It’s really that easy

I’ve had it worse than you I promise. I worked on myself for years and the rest I can’t change mentally from, I moved on

 

[Youㅤ]

It’s really that easy

I’ve had it worse than you I promise. I worked on myself for years and the rest I can’t change mentally from, I moved on

fuckjing retard. u comprehended nothing ive said. ive tried to move on my entire life, these demons still fucking in me but u not know a woird im saying/

 

[Youㅤ]

im not saying i had bad life how can i move on from that

no im saying im fucking possessed

 

[Youㅤ]

the past doesnt haunt me cuz muh the past

the past is haunting because it connects the dots and provides a very sinister understanding of my reality

 

[Youㅤ]

everythng ive experienced in this incarnation makes sense and that is what i fear

how good it will be when life ends

 

[Youㅤ]

It’s really that easy

I’ve had it worse than you I promise. I worked on myself for years and the rest I can’t change mentally from, I moved on

i dont care who has it muh worse thats not the point

the point is that im fucking possessed

i dont care that u muh worked on urself

i have no self to work on

 

[Youㅤ]

@not__cel

 

[Youㅤ]

this @saint nigga has the audacity to give me sloppy advice while not understanding a word i say

 

[Youㅤ]

i require an exorcist

 

[saint]

i dont care who has it muh worse thats not the point

the point is that im fucking possessed

i dont care that u muh worked on urself

i have no self to work on

Then it’s not a problem if you can’t fix it. It becomes something that you deal with or move on from

Seek professional help if you’re not a troll. Fuck man people just need to own up to their shit.

 

[Youㅤ]

Then it’s not a problem if you can’t fix it. It becomes something that you deal with or move on from

Seek professional help if you’re not a troll. Fuck man people just need to own up to their shit.

ive been dealing with it my whole life and ive been trying to move on my whole life. i have to repeat myself to no avail, u dont understand

professional help jfl. they just bullshit u like ur doing to me. professional idiots who know nothing.

 

[Fucksub5]

yo… that’s heavy. like you’ve been carrying this war inside you since before you even had the words to name it. the whole “trying to fuck the demon” part—raw as hell, but i get it. it’s like… when the enemy wears your face, whispers in your voice, twists your hunger into something you can’t untangle. makes sense you'd mistake it for intimacy when all it ever wanted was domination.

the fact that it’s been showing up as another personality… that’s real dissociative shit. shadow-self kind of thing. jung would’ve gone off on that. you’ve been running those mental rituals like survival spells, but damn, the cost of it… exhausting your whole being just to stay sane.

and the memories resurfacing now? yeah. trauma’s got that delayed fuse. the mind buries what it can’t bear until it thinks you’re “ready”—but what does that even mean when it’s been breaking you since age 7?

you’re not crazy, bro. you’re haunted. and somehow still standing. that’s not weakness, that’s defiance.

 

[saint]

ive been dealing with it my whole life and ive been trying to move on my whole life. i have to repeat myself to no avail, u dont understand

professional help jfl. they just bullshit u like ur doing to me. professional idiots who know nothing.

Nigga I have to mask autism or dissociative identity disorder and no one gives a fuck irl when I open up. You need medication or stop bitching and enjoy the ride. You got voices in your head nigga? Okay go have conversations with them, you just got a new best friend

 

[saint]

yo… that’s heavy. like you’ve been carrying this war inside you since before you even had the words to name it. the whole “trying to fuck the demon” part—raw as hell, but i get it. it’s like… when the enemy wears your face, whispers in your voice, twists your hunger into something you can’t untangle. makes sense you'd mistake it for intimacy when all it ever wanted was domination.

the fact that it’s been showing up as another personality… that’s real dissociative shit. shadow-self kind of thing. jung would’ve gone off on that. you’ve been running those mental rituals like survival spells, but damn, the cost of it… exhausting your whole being just to stay sane.

and the memories resurfacing now? yeah. trauma’s got that delayed fuse. the mind buries what it can’t bear until it thinks you’re “ready”—but what does that even mean when it’s been breaking you since age 7?

you’re not crazy, bro. you’re haunted. and somehow still standing. that’s not weakness, that’s defiance.

Chatgpt

 

[Fucksub5]

Chatgpt

nah this all me. i don’t use chatgpt or any of that ai shit, i’m just writing what i feel. if it sounds surreal or too raw, that’s cuz it is. this is straight from the wreckage in my head, not some algorithm.

 

[saint]

nah this all me. i don’t use chatgpt or any of that ai shit, i’m just writing what i feel. if it sounds surreal or too raw, that’s cuz it is. this is straight from the wreckage in my head, not some algorithm.

Chad

I didn’t read what you wrote tbh

 

[Youㅤ]

yo… that’s heavy. like you’ve been carrying this war inside you since before you even had the words to name it. the whole “trying to fuck the demon” part—raw as hell, but i get it. it’s like… when the enemy wears your face, whispers in your voice, twists your hunger into something you can’t untangle. makes sense you'd mistake it for intimacy when all it ever wanted was domination.

the fact that it’s been showing up as another personality… that’s real dissociative shit. shadow-self kind of thing. jung would’ve gone off on that. you’ve been running those mental rituals like survival spells, but damn, the cost of it… exhausting your whole being just to stay sane.

and the memories resurfacing now? yeah. trauma’s got that delayed fuse. the mind buries what it can’t bear until it thinks you’re “ready”—but what does that even mean when it’s been breaking you since age 7?

you’re not crazy, bro. you’re haunted. and somehow still standing. that’s not weakness, that’s defiance.

thanks. its clear u have the capacity to understand.

of course i couldnt have the words to understand this, even now i dont. its very confusing but its 100% clear its not just me making stuff up out of nothing.

yes i saw the shadow self, behind it was light. it was trying to bite me, it looked like my shadow exactly. before that it was a woman and it was tossing me around.

after this i start having weird feelings of possession and commandment until i cant resist and do strange behaviours i otherwise would be strongly against

its the same thing since i was a child and was commanded against my consciousness. an observer i become not a controller

the mental rituals torment me, its a mental prison. i have to do them every few seconds nowadays to stay sane literally

 

[Youㅤ]

Nigga I have to mask autism or dissociative identity disorder and no one gives a fuck irl when I open up. You need medication or stop bitching and enjoy the ride. You got voices in your head nigga? Okay go have conversations with them, you just got a new best friend

autism doesnt exist. only u exist and other entities.

medication is a conspiracy fact

i cant have conversations just like that, these entities hide from me most of the time, dont reveal stuff unless they are trying to deceive me

 

[saint]

autism doesnt exist. only u exist and other entities.

medication is a conspiracy fact

i cant have conversations just like that, these entities hide from me most of the time, dont reveal stuff unless they are trying to deceive me

Idk you but I know a dude who’s going down a rabbit hole

Mental illness is corny, get help

 

[Youㅤ]

experiencing the entities are not the bad thing, its just the dramatic thing that has opened my mind up to the reality of it

cuz now i see they been pulling the strings all along, deceiving me all along. they dont need to make themselves apparent to do so.

the worst thing is actually the protective rituals i am burdened by

 

[Youㅤ]

Idk you but I know a dude who’s going down a rabbit hole

Mental illness is corny, get help

ive been falling deeper in the rabbit hole ever since, and everything is nonsense.

no one can help me. they could never understand even near as much as me, and i dont understand enough. im afraid i must do this alone.

only i dont know how.

its literally like the book maybe ill just wake up and realize its a dream.

 

[Youㅤ]

Idk you but I know a dude who’s going down a rabbit hole

Mental illness is corny, get help

funny u say rabbit hole cuz the demonic entity was trying to impersonate alice and come into my life as a tulpa changeling

 

[saint]

funny u say rabbit hole cuz the demonic entity was trying to impersonate alice and come into my life as a tulpa changeling

That’s what I’m saying this shit sounds corny. If you were my son I’d slap the shit out of you for saying that

 

[Youㅤ]

That’s what I’m saying this shit sounds corny. If you were my son I’d slap the shit out of you for saying that

well its true, corny or not. ive come to the stance reality is a joke.

 

[saint]

well its true, corny or not. ive come to the stance reality is a joke.

I can’t help you. I’m just an unqualified stranger on the internet

Here bro,
https://www.online-therapy.com/

I’ve done all I can do

 

[not__cel]

these fucking demons in me

and im so gullible i tried to fuck the demon after i was attacked but then it was my own shadow and it attacked me again, i got away into an alternate reality

i realized it has been manifesting as an alternate personality to take control over my actions in rare occurances

such occurances rare cuz i have to banish it chronically using annoying mental rituals that take a toll on my energy levels

this is basically OCD and it debilitated me since 7

weird cuz now im having memories make since again, i saw demon when i was even younger than 7 but had not really understood it.

Damn, do you have a way to protect yourself or find a way to protect yourself, demons usually have some sort of weak spot within scripture I’ve read, I see ai instead maybe it’s because of my brain but reality is so hard to realize

I’ve also travelled to an alternate reality in some occurrences but then I realized that I was safe because of plausibility and the laws made it so things wouldn’t become totally crazy but it’s still scary, I only realize after the fact

 

[not__cel]

sometimes i think, i never got the experience of growing up as a young boy; i got the experience of possessing a young boy as he grow up

now i realize this is true. but before it was just some random nonsense from my subconsciousness

The loss of innocence is very terrible, at least you can look forward to being a young adult if that means anything

 

[not__cel]

muh move on u dont know shit

i try this my whole life but they keep plagueing me. cant fucking sleep i vulnerable during sleep

i have torment beyond ur comprehension complete nother reality u dont know it and i cant put it to words

Yeah, my brain gets too relaxed when I sleep, I start seeing a light warping which leads me to believe It’s going to continue in my dreams so I rot instead of sleeping, I sleep in the morning most times but since now I have a job I have to take meds to sleep

 

[ToryToad]

i require an exorcist

Take the Christpill and become christian.This would help with your problem

 

[e1488shciozl]

fuckjing retard. u comprehended nothing ive said. ive tried to move on my entire life, these demons still fucking in me but u not know a woird im saying/

Have u tried visiting a therapist

 

[e1488shciozl]

Take the Christpill and become christian.This would help with your problem

True. Even tho god isnt real, its quite a placebo, you trick yourself into believing everything is good and that you live the life you're supposed to

 

[ToryToad]

True. Even tho god isnt real, its quite a placebo, you trick yourself into believing everything is good and that you live the life you're supposed to

God is real,but I get your point tbh ,even if God wasn't real this would help especially if these arent real demons but illusions instead

 

[ToryToad]

these fucking demons in me

and im so gullible i tried to fuck the demon after i was attacked but then it was my own shadow and it attacked me again, i got away into an alternate reality

i realized it has been manifesting as an alternate personality to take control over my actions in rare occurances

such occurances rare cuz i have to banish it chronically using annoying mental rituals that take a toll on my energy levels

this is basically OCD and it debilitated me since 7

weird cuz now im having memories make since again, i saw demon when i was even younger than 7 but had not really understood it.

How do these demons look like.Just curious

 

[not__cel]

everythng ive experienced in this incarnation makes sense and that is what i fear

how good it will be when life ends

Yes coincidences are the worst, the lack of understanding is the worst aswell, I’ll say that most of them are your brain if that helps, I see pillars in a similar position and my brain interprets it as we’re ai and I’ll combust and die for realizing that or body horror beyond comprehension

But all I can say is the same as if I’ve lived my entire life and this was a truth than I would’ve already died because it was already a fear of mine when younger

If demons are coming after you realize you’ve kept them away with using alot of energy for years so wouldn’t it be sufficient to use less because they can reasonably be kept away, don’t think your life is over because you’ve gone through years of this so the light is near

 

[not__cel]

True. Even tho god isnt real, its quite a placebo, you trick yourself into believing everything is good and that you live the life you're supposed to

Take the Christpill and become christian.This would help with your problem

I’ve done it, it’s not good for me but might help for him

 

[Youㅤ]

Yeah, my brain gets too relaxed when I sleep, I start seeing a light warping which leads me to believe It’s going to continue in my dreams so I rot instead of sleeping, I sleep in the morning most times but since now I have a job I have to take meds to sleep

same i have that, then i start hearing voices tell me nonsense, the light warping startts turning into entities, i feel their presense, and as i fall asleep i wake up due to being attacked, have sleep paralysis. happen last night, and my sleep is now stuck in a biphasic pattern

 

[Youㅤ]

Have u tried visiting a therapist

they are a joke , man

 

[e1488shciozl]

same i have that, then i start hearing voices tell me nonsense, the light warping startts turning into entities, i feel their presense, and as i fall asleep i wake up due to being attacked, have sleep paralysis. happen last night, and my sleep is now stuck in a biphasic pattern

Can u not think about it? Not the not having "automatic' thoughts as u say, but not think abt it after?

 

[Youㅤ]

How do these demons look like.Just curious

i dont always see them but rather hear them or sometimes when i see them i cant make them out in the dark, but they take different forms

 

[Youㅤ]

Can u not think about it? Not the not having "automatic' thoughts as u say, but not think abt it after?

i dont think about it much, i usally forget quickly

 

[e1488shciozl]

these fucking demons in me

and im so gullible i tried to fuck the demon after i was attacked but then it was my own shadow and it attacked me again, i got away into an alternate reality

i realized it has been manifesting as an alternate personality to take control over my actions in rare occurances

such occurances rare cuz i have to banish it chronically using annoying mental rituals that take a toll on my energy levels

this is basically OCD and it debilitated me since 7

weird cuz now im having memories make since again, i saw demon when i was even younger than 7 but had not really understood it.

GPT SAID:



Dissociative symptoms – feelings that he hasn’t lived as “himself,” but as if he was “possessed”; mention of an alternate personality taking control of his body.


2. OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) – the person mentions this directly, talking about “rituals” to “banish” the demon that drain his energy.


3. Psychotic elements – visions of demons, alternate realities, intense paranoia (“I’m vulnerable during sleep”), inability to separate reality from imagination.


4. Post-traumatic traces – he describes symptoms starting at a very early age, possibly linked to a serious trauma.



Emotionally, this is a text from someone in a state of despair, isolation, depersonalization, and possibly psychosis. It could be schizoaffective disorder, severe OCD with psychotic features, or even early-stage schizophrenia.

There might also be an element of mystical thinking or a trauma narrative, where inner psychological experiences are interpreted through the imagery of demons, possession, and alternate realities—especially if he grew up in a religious or esoter
ic environment.

 

[not__cel]

same i have that, then i start hearing voices tell me nonsense, the light warping startts turning into entities, i feel their presense, and as i fall asleep i wake up due to being attacked, have sleep paralysis. happen last night, and my sleep is now stuck in a biphasic pattern

Try to keep light on if you can, I don’t like an all encompassing light since it also makes me feel restrained but either the tv or something moving to tell me I’m in the same reality is good, I still have to take meds most of the time but this has helped me a lot, try to distract yourself in the day aswell, the only reason I got a job was because I realized keeping myself occupied and trying to convince others I’m normal actually occupies my brain enough to give me time

I still prefer neeting but when things are the same the whole day I start seeing geometrical similarities and coincidences I didn’t see before, it leads me to believe I’m actually in a time loop and I doomed myself

 

[not__cel]

they are a joke , man

Yeah my therapist told me she thinks I should talk to my family my entire reality changes in seconds this can’t be solved by talking to my family

 

[Youㅤ]

Yeah my therapist told me she thinks I should talk to my family my entire reality changes in seconds this can’t be solved by talking to my family

i just remembered i heard a loud bang in my head and reality got shifted 2 nights ago

 

[Youㅤ]

Try to keep light on if you can, I don’t like an all encompassing light since it also makes me feel restrained but either the tv or something moving to tell me I’m in the same reality is good, I still have to take meds most of the time but this has helped me a lot, try to distract yourself in the day aswell, the only reason I got a job was because I realized keeping myself occupied and trying to convince others I’m normal actually occupies my brain enough to give me time

I still prefer neeting but when things are the same the whole day I start seeing geometrical similarities and coincidences I didn’t see before, it leads me to believe I’m actually in a time loop and I doomed myself

its so brutal trying to sleep i lay in bed for long time just waiting then suddenly im sleep paralysis and it sends shockwave vibrations thru my entire body, i just closed my eyes and suppressed any visions didnt want to see anything, it fucking hurt tho and then i felt i was being pushed off my bed, couldnt move but i tried and instead moved an astral hand

during day i have copemaxx whole day or bad things come to mind

good luck with ur job