FailedNormieManlet
NTmaxxed pajeet
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I'm going back to my anger phase, I had this when I was 17 before. This feeling of anger, injustice and hatred isn't new to me. I expected myself to slip back into my old ways tbh, it's been a while since I took LSD. I know as soon as I drop LSD, I'm going to drop this shit.
But there is so much I am angry about, I hate the idea that women see me as a backup because of things I can't control like height, I hate that my value as a human and as a man by women is so low because I wasn't born with the right genes, I hate the fact that women see me as inferior because my jaw isn't strong. I hate everything about it, the fact that in the future I will be in bed with a woman and one day she won't feel like having sex with me, while she replays memories of her being fucked by a chad in college. I hate the fact I am texting girls things like "lets go for coffee" whereas chads are texting girls "lets fuck", I hate everything about it.
God has assigned me this bullshit role of betabux, my parents, society, peers and the media have told me this was my role. But I refuse. I said "no". I don't fear the idea of dying alone, nor do I fear the idea of being single forever. If I have to die alone like a dog, so be it. I refuse to accept this fate. After the blackpills I've seen, after I've seen how chads are treated, I cannot go back.
I am angry too, I've taken too many nietzsche and schopenhauer-pills, I now have such a pessimistic view on humanity and even when talking to my parents and others, I just feel disconnected. It sometimes feel like I am observing people from an outside perspective, my parents are highly islamic and their ideas of morality just annoy me at this point. It's obvious their sense of superiority stems from them being religious, god gets to define "good" and "bad". Good and bad aren't real, there is no fucking objective morality.
I cannot accept this shit, even now this MQNP girl is asking to get coffee with me I don't even want to meet her. I just think of blackpilled shit and realise that I am not of high enough SMV to pull off the shit I want to do.
I also have realised that I probably will never be able to slay, even though I am NT af. I'm going to probably have LTRs only, I don't have the traits needed for short term relationships.
I have a lot of anger, I have come to a lot of "truths" - there are no truths, only interpretations. But these "truths" have made me more angry than ever, I now want to looksmax to cause emotional pain to girls. I want to lie about being loving and then ghost these girls and hurt them emotionally. The fact they see me as such a lesser being angers me. I am a human, I am a son, a brother, a friend, I am not a betabux.
But there is so much I am angry about, I hate the idea that women see me as a backup because of things I can't control like height, I hate that my value as a human and as a man by women is so low because I wasn't born with the right genes, I hate the fact that women see me as inferior because my jaw isn't strong. I hate everything about it, the fact that in the future I will be in bed with a woman and one day she won't feel like having sex with me, while she replays memories of her being fucked by a chad in college. I hate the fact I am texting girls things like "lets go for coffee" whereas chads are texting girls "lets fuck", I hate everything about it.
God has assigned me this bullshit role of betabux, my parents, society, peers and the media have told me this was my role. But I refuse. I said "no". I don't fear the idea of dying alone, nor do I fear the idea of being single forever. If I have to die alone like a dog, so be it. I refuse to accept this fate. After the blackpills I've seen, after I've seen how chads are treated, I cannot go back.
I am angry too, I've taken too many nietzsche and schopenhauer-pills, I now have such a pessimistic view on humanity and even when talking to my parents and others, I just feel disconnected. It sometimes feel like I am observing people from an outside perspective, my parents are highly islamic and their ideas of morality just annoy me at this point. It's obvious their sense of superiority stems from them being religious, god gets to define "good" and "bad". Good and bad aren't real, there is no fucking objective morality.
I cannot accept this shit, even now this MQNP girl is asking to get coffee with me I don't even want to meet her. I just think of blackpilled shit and realise that I am not of high enough SMV to pull off the shit I want to do.
I also have realised that I probably will never be able to slay, even though I am NT af. I'm going to probably have LTRs only, I don't have the traits needed for short term relationships.
I have a lot of anger, I have come to a lot of "truths" - there are no truths, only interpretations. But these "truths" have made me more angry than ever, I now want to looksmax to cause emotional pain to girls. I want to lie about being loving and then ghost these girls and hurt them emotionally. The fact they see me as such a lesser being angers me. I am a human, I am a son, a brother, a friend, I am not a betabux.