
Mizi44
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similarly to @Orka then.. that guy is 50% polish and 50% italian, crazy mix IMOYes Polish 50% and 50% Brown it was a curse at first but now it's a. Sick blessing so exotic
Im telling you he's wrong just so you knowWell even if he was wrong, do you think I'm gonna tell a swole mfer he's wrong? HELL NO!
Okay bhais, I'm gonna watch a j-dorama and then sleep in a few mins. See you guys later. Have fun at school today, Larry!similarly to @Orka then.. that guy is 50% polish and 50% italian, crazy mix IMO
Im telling you he's wrong just so you know![]()
Mine is 50% bad brown tho but it somehow ended up positively i was such an subhuman when i was young but im happy with my looks now I like them alot but hope i can ascend beyondsimilarly to @Orka then.. that guy is 50% polish and 50% italian, crazy mix IMO
Im telling you he's wrong just so you know![]()
Thank you, have fun aswell and hope you sleep well.Okay bhais, I'm gonna watch a j-dorama and then sleep in a few mins. See you guys later. Have fun at school today, Larry!
We got holidays in Germany 2 weeksOkay bhais, I'm gonna watch a j-dorama and then sleep in a few mins. See you guys later. Have fun at school today, Larry!
You too broOkay bhais, I'm gonna watch a j-dorama and then sleep in a few mins. See you guys later. Have fun at school today, Larry!
CoffeeWhat did u even run on
I feel u bro. Insomnia is hell. Try getting Mirtazapine perscribed its heaven sent tbh.Nothing much more to say tbh, i cannot fall asleep at all, my mind doesn't allow me to.
I've had short naps at day where i uncontrollably fell asleep because of lack of sleep. Which is good because it allows me to atleast slightly function.
The day is basically miserable, im too tired to do anything - clean, school, hang out, cook, sleep and not to even mention the gym. And even if i wanted to rest my brain doesn't want me to
I have to wait probably 1-2 weeks before i can get a prescription for benzos (or other medication if my doctor changes his mind), untill then i have to endure
@PeakIncels @Gengar @Orka @Bryce @Luca_.
I'm late on this post.Nothing much more to say tbh, i cannot fall asleep at all, my mind doesn't allow me to.
I've had short naps at day where i uncontrollably fell asleep because of lack of sleep. Which is good because it allows me to atleast slightly function.
The day is basically miserable, im too tired to do anything - clean, school, hang out, cook, sleep and not to even mention the gym. And even if i wanted to rest my brain doesn't want me to
I have to wait probably 1-2 weeks before i can get a prescription for benzos (or other medication if my doctor changes his mind), untill then i have to endure
@PeakIncels @Gengar @Orka @Bryce @Luca_.
Thank you for your worry but i am very aware of the risks. You don't have to be worried about me.I'm late on this post.
Please don't do bezos unless you have to absolutely have too many of my friends lives were ruined overnight by them.
I truly truly hope you can get better without them, you must be very hesitant and weary if they are prescribed to you.
This is not a game, please try to your most sober ability to sleep without them bro please.
Things can go wrong very fast.
We don't know each other but hear my words brother.
Wishing the best for you!
Okay bro im not one to tell you what to do, you sound like you know what your doingThank you for your worry but i am very aware of the risks. You don't have to be worried about me.
me and gengar both take benzos when necessary and we are smart users of them so they don't completely ruin us.
Thank you very very much for the kind words, i have family that was ruined by benzos so i know what it's like.
caused mainly by chronic stress and past trauma
what ethnicity are you faggot?What are the reasons why you suffered from this as a child? It wasn't genetic, was it, like there should be some external triggering factors, right?
I feel really sorry for you Larry, especially since I'm a person who prioritizes sleep a lot, and if I don't get at least 6 hours of sleep a night, I feel pretty dysfunctional/tired all day long..
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Not only that, but lack of sleep is by far the most looksmin aspect, bc the body doesn't regenerate + the under eye area is getting fucked..
what ethnicity are you faggot?
Oh man it's a lot.. I don't know if i have the mental capacity to explain it all to a "stranger" (internet best friend) without sounding like an attention whore..What are the reasons why you suffered from this as a child? It wasn't genetic, was it, like there should be some external triggering factors, right?
My picture is calmer than before i feel like.. But the username color is old @Daddy's Home color. Was entrusted to me for safekeeping measures.woah your username got way brighter and your profile picture got way sluttier
what is up with that lol
Just take a xan and sleep like a kidNothing much more to say tbh, i cannot fall asleep at all, my mind doesn't allow me to.
I've had short naps at day where i uncontrollably fell asleep because of lack of sleep. Which is good because it allows me to atleast slightly function.
The day is basically miserable, im too tired to do anything - clean, school, hang out, cook, sleep and not to even mention the gym. And even if i wanted to rest my brain doesn't want me to
I have to wait probably 1-2 weeks before i can get a prescription for benzos (or other medication if my doctor changes his mind), untill then i have to endure
@PeakIncels @Gengar @Orka @Bryce @Luca_.
Oh man it's a lot.. I don't know if i have the mental capacity to explain it all to a "stranger" (internet best friend) without sounding like an attention whore..
I won't explain it in general worlds, i already opened up to peakincels a lot so i view this forum as a safe space, and don't generally mind sharing these things. I'm glad you understand I'm not having attention needing behaviours.Well, you're from Poland, I'm from Romania, practically the same culture and civilization, because we all know how things are here with us regarding abusive parents, abusive relatives, narcissistic parents, alcoholic parents, domestic violence, violence against children, sexual abuse, manipulation, the continuous maintenance of a state of fear and control etc. or even bullying at school or in the neighborhood..
These are not things that are easy to talk about or open up about publicly, we don't even do it with other people in real life, so I'm not surprised by your reticence on this subject, it's normal..
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If you want, you can summarize everything in just a few more general words, like "my parents weren't very supportive and didn't really treat me well," or "I wasn't exactly the coolest guy in school, and the other kids had a problem with that", to just have a general idea about the subject..
I can barely close my eyes at night, and if i succeed it comes with panicking and evaluated heart beat.chronic stress and trauma
at night as a child i used to have a lot of problems. From ages 1-12 I'd have vivid hallucinations, panic attacks (like i mentioned earlier in the thread), sleepwalking in which i did very bad things (like break stuff or come close to killing myself)
I can barely close my eyes at night, and if i succeed it comes with panicking and evaluated heart beat.
I'm over-responsive during it aswell, i hear everything, including breathing from my downstairs neighbor and the running water in the pipes in my bathroom walls.
I can't stay in a dark room aswell, i always need a light source that allows me to see everything around me clearly. One time when the power went out, i almost started an entire apartment fire trying to start a makeshift campfire with a lighter and plastic water bottles because i was THAT afraid of the dark.
It's awful, and because of it i can never sleep, and if i can it's off of drugs or in the day where for some reason my mind is more calm, but it's still rare.
Also, thank you for the very nice and reassuring words. I am very happy and lucky to have people like you around, even if we just know eachother off of anonymous forums.Well, you're from Poland, I'm from Romania, practically the same culture and civilization, because we all know how things are here with us regarding abusive parents, abusive relatives, narcissistic parents, alcoholic parents, domestic violence, violence against children, sexual abuse, manipulation, the continuous maintenance of a state of fear and control etc. or even bullying at school or in the neighborhood..
These are not things that are easy to talk about or open up about publicly, we don't even do it with other people in real life, so I'm not surprised by your reticence on this subject, it's normal..
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If you want, you can summarize everything in just a few more general words, like "my parents weren't very supportive and didn't really treat me well," or "I wasn't exactly the coolest guy in school, and the other kids had a problem with that", to just have a general idea about the subject..
From what i know, my mother and her parents (my grandparents) have a history of mental illnesses, but it's mainly things like bipolarity and chronic depression.I have never heard of such symptoms in general in my life, let alone heard of a real person suffering from something like this
Do you have a family history, grandparents, or cousins, etc. who suffer from similar symptoms? So is like something genetic/hereditary?
These symptoms sound like something that affects less than 1-3% of the planet's population
Isn't there a general disease name for all these behaviors and reactions, and a treatment that fixed these things at some point when you were a child (or now, a teenager)?
Modern medicine can't treat the cause, they just give you classic sleep medications to keep you relatively functional, that's all?
I don't know how you can have a normal life like this, be able to pay attention in school, be able to behave normally in society, possibly have a job, to sleep in the same room and bed with a girlfriend etc. (in terms of energy/mood and ambition to do things that require effort)
It's no wonder now that I see you online on the forum almost 24/7, at any hour..
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Oh man it's a lot.. I don't know if i have the mental capacity to explain it all to a "stranger" (internet best friend) without sounding like an attention whore..
My picture is calmer than before i feel like.. But the username color is old @Daddy's Home color. Was entrusted to me for safekeeping measures.
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Also, thank you for the very nice and reassuring words. I am very happy and lucky to have people like you around, even if we just know eachother off of anonymous forums.
It's really, really, really comforting, thank you, really.
I only got diagnosed with autism, ADHD and depression
I try my best to function, but im very close to just giving up on it all.
Despite what you might think i don't function normally in society at all and don't have any energy/mood to do things that require effort.
Having a girlfriend is nothing insane.
She's very supportive and i appreciate her support, but i really feel bad for her because she has to endure me and eventually endure worse things because of me.
She's perfectly normal, a little to normal infact. Almost a perfect person, i have no idea how she likes me at all.Does she also have certain problems like depression/ADHD, etc. or is she perfectly normal?
As stupid as it sounds, i agree.and he told me that I should basically not give a shit about girls
your totally not a faggot haha nice profile picture nice bolding italics nice intentionally craffted online personale utilizing the imagery of some dumb cumwhore nice faggot loser simp adopting her whorisms as his prominence on a hellscape die seven trillion times if you'd be so kindWhite, and I'm not a faggot
Why do you ask?
i have killed swans before it was cathartic btwI had a nap yesterday during the day since I have a cold & it was enjoyable.
this palefaced cumslutwhore and your fucking sparkling bright name you payed money for are what im criticizing its like you are the god of indiaShe's perfectly normal, a little to normal infact. Almost a perfect person, i have no idea how she likes me at all.
As stupid as it sounds, i agree.
There's 0 reason to care about this unless you will find comfort, peace or happiness in it. If it won't, then why bother? It'll only be a waste of time, just like you said.
There are many people that live way better lives because they don't care about finding a partner or forming deeper level connections at all.
It seems like you care, but you just aren't ready yet, and that's okay, you should take all the time you need.
I know it's not exactly wise to take advice from a 17 year old, but that's really how i think about it. Just do what you feel is right, don't lose yourself over other people and the views of others. The world is yours to shape, because you live in your eyes.
i know bringing up ur girl might start getting annoying but cant you ask her to come over and sleep with her or somethingNothing much more to say tbh, i cannot fall asleep at all, my mind doesn't allow me to.
I've had short naps at day where i uncontrollably fell asleep because of lack of sleep. Which is good because it allows me to atleast slightly function.
The day is basically miserable, im too tired to do anything - clean, school, hang out, cook, sleep and not to even mention the gym. And even if i wanted to rest my brain doesn't want me to
I have to wait probably 1-2 weeks before i can get a prescription for benzos (or other medication if my doctor changes his mind), untill then i have to endure
@PeakIncels @Gengar @Orka @Bryce @Luca_.
i have no idea how she likes me at all.
As stupid as it sounds, i agree.
but you just aren't ready yet, and that's okay, you should take all the time you need.
The world is yours to shape, because you live in your eyes.
Why don’t you buy the drugs online? Ik it will probably not come for a few days/ weeks but at least you’d get a couple extra days of sleep. Also you should make a stockpile of them to prevent this happening again. Sorry to hear about this thoughNothing much more to say tbh, i cannot fall asleep at all, my mind doesn't allow me to.
I've had short naps at day where i uncontrollably fell asleep because of lack of sleep. Which is good because it allows me to atleast slightly function.
The day is basically miserable, im too tired to do anything - clean, school, hang out, cook, sleep and not to even mention the gym. And even if i wanted to rest my brain doesn't want me to
I have to wait probably 1-2 weeks before i can get a prescription for benzos (or other medication if my doctor changes his mind), untill then i have to endure
@PeakIncels @Gengar @Orka @Bryce @Luca_.
What grade are you bro?only choice atp tbh
i dont wanna go to school but gotta thug that out aswell
school is meaningless and pointless but all my family and peers peer pressure me into it instead of LDARing and waiting to die
Sounds like shit, i can see how you feel now. I guess nobody on this site truly has a good life huh.That's what I was talking about with ChatGPT
You don't really have time, it's relative, you're constantly getting older
You don't really have resources, either you have them or someone else does, it's simple, we're not in communism where we all have the same resources
It's the same with that cute girl you see on the street in your first year of high school
Either you go and talk to her and you have a relationship with her, or someone else will, she won't stay there alone forever, waiting for you... there will always be someone else for her instead of you..
Shape your life, until I am born into a family of retarded parents who cannot support me, I have no brothers or sisters, I am born in a small town that is depopulating in a country that is depopulating
I am forced to move to a larger city with more opportunities for university, alone, I am forced to start from level 1, rent, entry-level jobs, etc., and I dream of level 99 with a car and a house, but the social, political, and economic context of the country/continent does not help me and blocks me indefinitely, but the years are passing, while I see my friends born in the big city, who were born into good families with resources and supportive parents, who use their connections to provide them with good jobs, who are younger than me, have their own house, their own car, and already have a girlfriend, and then they ask me, knowing that I am smarter and cooler than them, "Do you have a girlfriend?" and I am like..
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I don't know how to phrase it, "grading" in Poland is completely different than a typical grading systemWhat grade are you bro?
Alr man. I just hope the best with your sleep.I don't know how to phrase it, "grading" in Poland is completely different than a typical grading system
I guess it would translate to the 12th grade.
Yah, idk why I just can’t sleep at nightReally? Is there a reason?