I like the idea of killing myself more than succeeding.

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I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
 
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I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
are you sub5?
 
are you sub5?
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I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
yeah it stems from self hate, I relate. Just do shit that doesn't make you self hate. Don't force relationships, force jobs etc. Do shit in your comfort. If you don't like people, work remotely, enjoy video games, go and hike, walk ur dog or some shit.

It doesn't go away , just do what you want to do.
 
Life sucks ngl
it sure does bro but if you aren't sub5 you can push through, theres still things to be achieved, find yourself an mtb that likes you, get to sub10% bf, life won't be so bad then
 
stop being such an inconsiderate asshole and think about who itd effect if u did that
 
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Just leanmaxx bro
 
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I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
already over for you because of your faggot mentality. stop mentally handicapping yourself.
 
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Then rope & leave room for the rest of us
 
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yeah it stems from self hate, I relate. Just do shit that doesn't make you self hate. Don't force relationships, force jobs etc. Do shit in your comfort. If you don't like people, work remotely, enjoy video games, go and hike, walk ur dog or some shit.

It doesn't go away , just do what you want to do.
Well the hobbies I like are too expensive I like motorcycles I give all my money to my mom for living expenses I don't have any plans on advancing in a career keep getting pressured by my dad to start my own business instead of just working for his but the business he thinks I should do I don't even like. The business I want to do takes crazy amounts of capital to start hell if I were to start just doing a fraction I would need at least a plasma cutter I got $80 to my name nigga :lul: truth of the matter is that it's over 15 year old me told myself by 18 if you don't got anything really going for yourself you should rope I tried mildly not going to say I tried my best not going to say I didn't try at all. But quite frankly nothing has changed I have more free time so I can literally spend more time working but I still don't make much money the reality of it is it's over I'm now 19 no longer sad about suicide I'm actually looking forward to it like a birthday can't wait to see you the look on her face when I meet her in person
 
stop being such an inconsiderate asshole and think about who itd effect if u did that
It would only affect my mom not saying that I don't care about my mom that's why I feel the need to not do it in front of her not going to I can't let her find me in that state with half my head missing but once she gets her prison BF out I'll be free to go to Arizona and blow my head off
 
Well the hobbies I like are too expensive I like motorcycles I give all my money to my mom for living expenses I don't have any plans on advancing in a career keep getting pressured by my dad to start my own business instead of just working for his but the business he thinks I should do I don't even like. The business I want to do takes crazy amounts of capital to start hell if I were to start just doing a fraction I would need at least a plasma cutter I got $80 to my name nigga :lul: truth of the matter is that it's over 15 year old me told myself by 18 if you don't got anything really going for yourself you should rope I tried mildly not going to say I tried my best not going to say I didn't try at all. But quite frankly nothing has changed I have more free time so I can literally spend more time working but I still don't make much money the reality of it is it's over I'm now 19 no longer sad about suicide I'm actually looking forward to it like a birthday can't wait to see you the look on her face when I meet her in person
u need to stop pitying ur mom, she made u sub5, i can tell even the image u sent which is still subhuman is ai generated based on the hair folecules. Man your mom confined you to a world of being sub5, ask her what she will do for you, to help you ascend, and improve your life, then you can worry about paying for her. If she isn't willing to give u shit, don't waste your money.

It isn't greed, if she isn't willing to give her child she brought into this world, and if shes making u pay for shit, u might as well live in a group home or near a college and rent for cheap, and make some fucking friends instead of driving urself insane.

Parentpill is fucking brutal, dont let them bitch u around. My dad was an alcoholic and treated me like shit, I stopped talking to him and he has not drunk for months now, I haven't spoken to him everytime I see him i ignore him, but its a necessary evil for him to be a good dad. U need ur parents to self reflect
 
u need to stop pitying ur mom, she made u sub5, i can tell even the image u sent which is still subhuman is ai generated based on the hair folecules. Man your mom confined you to a world of being sub5, ask her what she will do for you, to help you ascend, and improve your life, then you can worry about paying for her. If she isn't willing to give u shit, don't waste your money.

It isn't greed, if she isn't willing to give her child she brought into this world, and if shes making u pay for shit, u might as well live in a group home or near a college and rent for cheap, and make some fucking friends instead of driving urself insane.

Parentpill is fucking brutal, dont let them bitch u around. My dad was an alcoholic and treated me like shit, I stopped talking to him and he has not drunk for months now, I haven't spoken to him everytime I see him i ignore him, but its a necessary evil for him to be a good dad. U need ur parents to self reflect
It's narcissistic to blame either my mom or my dad I look better than both of them at their age they've had multiple life partners quite frankly I'm just a social failure. Also that picture is not AI generated I don't know why people keep saying that here's a picture of my side profile let me guess both of these are AI generated
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I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
At least you acknowledge your current reality instead of delusionmaxxing like a lot of other retards online. Go to a Catholic church for some lifefuel and stop posting about how killing yourself would "feel good" online like a faggot, and focus on getting some small wins in your life first to stop being depressed

Unfortunately, God loves people like you... maybe capitalize on that
 
I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
Same
 
It's narcissistic to blame either my mom or my dad I look better than both of them at their age they've had multiple life partners quite frankly I'm just a social failure. Also that picture is not AI generated I don't know why people keep saying that here's a picture of my side profile let me guess both of these are AI generated
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top isnt, the bottom is, i can tell jfl. If u got a shit camera just buy a good one jfl, why r u ai generating a higher quality image of urself im fucking dead yo.

U being a social failure, plus u look very mediocre man. Ur part of the horde, 67% of men. I assume ur ethnic too, probably in a white country. These niggas did not set u up for shit, just left u to go school and didn't take care of u. U dont owe them shit bro.
 
top isnt, the bottom is, i can tell jfl. If u got a shit camera just buy a good one jfl, why r u ai generating a higher quality image of urself im fucking dead yo.

U being a social failure, plus u look very mediocre man. Ur part of the horde, 67% of men. I assume ur ethnic too, probably in a white country. These niggas did not set u up for shit, just left u to go school and didn't take care of u. U dont owe them shit bro.
he's above avg ur being retarded
 
At least you acknowledge your current reality instead of delusionmaxxing like a lot of other retards online. Go to a Catholic church for some lifefuel and stop posting about how killing yourself would "feel good" online like a faggot, and focus on getting some small wins in your life first to stop being depressed

Unfortunately, God loves people like you... maybe capitalize on that
I have frequent small micro social wins I like to ride my scooter around and I'm really good at doing tricks on it so frequently people will record and cheer but besides that I'm nothing but a jester to them lol I had friends in high school but they were just high school friends you know what I mean just kids you would talk to and walk around the halls with second I got out of high school never heard from them ever again. I even messaged a couple of them just for them to DNR me. It hurts but the reality is it is I'm only living for myself really and I don't even like myself cuz no one else likes me:lul: also I used to be religious but I realized it was cope still go to church with my dad you can see the joy and genuine belief that they think they're going to heaven kind of sad to me I just hear nothing but cope but they think they hear the truth
 
It would only affect my mom not saying that I don't care about my mom that's why I feel the need to not do it in front of her not going to I can't let her find me in that state with half my head missing but once she gets her prison BF out I'll be free to go to Arizona and blow my head off
cuck mentality ngl
 
I have frequent small micro social wins I like to ride my scooter around and I'm really good at doing tricks on it so frequently people will record and cheer but besides that I'm nothing but a jester to them lol I had friends in high school but they were just high school friends you know what I mean just kids you would talk to and walk around the halls with second I got out of high school never heard from them ever again. I even messaged a couple of them just for them to DNR me. It hurts but the reality is it is I'm only living for myself really and I don't even like myself cuz no one else likes me:lul: also I used to be religious but I realized it was cope still go to church with my dad you can see the joy and genuine belief that they think they're going to heaven kind of sad to me I just hear nothing but cope but they think they hear the truth
Well, I mean, they're the ones with joy, a wife, and kids, while you're just nigger posting online about killing yourself because of some dream you had, even though you're not ugly. So, even if organized religion is all bullshit, who really won in the end, the normies or you?
 
At least you acknowledge your current reality instead of delusionmaxxing like a lot of other retards online. Go to a Catholic church for some lifefuel and stop posting about how killing yourself would "feel good" online like a faggot, and focus on getting some small wins in your life first to stop being depressed

Unfortunately, God loves people like you... maybe capitalize on that
religion for lifefuel jfl religion makes me wanna rope
 
But imagine how fire half of my head blow of would be especially if I do it in front of her
Are you ok?? I get thoughts like this sometimes but mainly when my mental health is doing shit.
 
top isnt, the bottom is, i can tell jfl. If u got a shit camera just buy a good one jfl, why r u ai generating a higher quality image of urself im fucking dead yo.

U being a social failure, plus u look very mediocre man. Ur part of the horde, 67% of men. I assume ur ethnic too, probably in a white country. These niggas did not set u up for shit, just left u to go school and didn't take care of u. U dont owe them shit bro.
No my mom did her best at least with her 90 IQ dad probably could have did better but he was super deathnic Mexican so I never really liked the motherfucker until I got older my point is I'm at least average and average niggas all the time can get girlfriends hypergamy is not nearly as bad as niggas claim the problem is I'm just not a likable person most people view me as a jesture they get second hand embarrassed from. The problem isn't hypergamy the problem is that women are not very loyal to their looks matched boyfriend so when Tyrone comes around for a pump and dump and your girl is at the function going that's how people get cheated on by their girl the truth is she probably can't do better cuz she's average just like her boyfriend but she was presented with an opportunity so she took it even if the opportunity was just meaningless gross sex. Which is another reason why I'm killing myself I cannot live in a world where people can have sex with each other and it means absolutely nothing.
 
I just got a very detailed visual imagination of me sitting next to the girl I've been stalking it sent shivers down my entire body it was semi-pleasant but when I realized it was just imaginary all the pleasant feelings were gone I like the idea and the visions of me killing myself more because I know at least those will come true
if ur stalking then ur mentally fucked up, go to a therapist or some bs. dont rope infront of anyone, shits just traumatizing them because of ur own problems. if your gonna rope go do it alone in a motel room not right infront of someone that hasnt done anything to deserve it
 
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No my mom did her best at least with her 90 IQ dad probably could have did better but he was super deathnic Mexican so I never really liked the motherfucker until I got older my point is I'm at least average and average niggas all the time can get girlfriends hypergamy is not nearly as bad as niggas claim the problem is I'm just not a likable person most people view me as a jesture they get second hand embarrassed from. The problem isn't hypergamy the problem is that women are not very loyal to their looks matched boyfriend so when Tyrone comes around for a pump and dump and your girl is at the function going that's how people get cheated on by their girl the truth is she probably can't do better cuz she's average just like her boyfriend but she was presented with an opportunity so she took it even if the opportunity was just meaningless gross sex. Which is another reason why I'm killing myself I cannot live in a world where people can have sex with each other and it means absolutely nothing.
hypergamy is giga real man, no foid is going to put up with u in 2026 without princess treatment sorry. That isn't a flaw in ur personality but more say just hypergamy doing it s work. U could have acted the same way u acted a couple decades ago and u would have a gf, maybe even a couple years ago.
 
Are you ok?? I get thoughts like this sometimes but mainly when my mental health is doing shit.
No I'm not okay and I don't think I've ever been but now that I'm older I no longer cry at those thoughts I laugh 12 year old me would cry when I thought about it the older I got the less I was crying and the more I started laughing at it, it's inevitable niggas don't care about me as an individual they care about the idea of a guy being sad and killing himself which I can't blame them I'm just a nobody over the screen.
 
hypergamy is giga real man, no foid is going to put up with u in 2026 without princess treatment sorry. That isn't a flaw in ur personality but more say just hypergamy doing it s work. U could have acted the same way u acted a couple decades ago and u would have a gf, maybe even a couple years ago.
I got a DNR this brother I'm sorry hypergamy is only real in Miami and LA the giga rich prick places in America your average town in the Midwest doesn't have hypergamy dick head what happens is a girl will cheat on an average boyfriend because she was given the opportunity to. Women get bored pretty easily it's kind of inevitable they cheat
 
if ur stalking then ur mentally fucked up, go to a therapist or some bs. dont rope infront of anyone, shits just traumatizing them because of ur own problems. if your gonna rope go do it alone in a motel room not right infront of someone that hasnt done anything to deserve it
That's kind of the whole point it's probably the most evil shit I would have ever done but it's what I need to motivate myself to actually do it my physical entity would never leave her mind. Like how she wouldn't leave mine I know it's not her fault at all but it's what's necessary for me to go through
 
No I'm not okay and I don't think I've ever been but now that I'm older I no longer cry at those thoughts I laugh 12 year old me would cry when I thought about it the older I got the less I was crying and the more I started laughing at it, it's inevitable niggas don't care about me as an individual they care about the idea of a guy being sad and killing himself which I can't blame them I'm just a nobody over the screen.
Please don't kill yourself bro, I'm telling you I've attempted multiple times and each time I was glad I failed. Just because you feel bad now doesn't mean you will forever.
 
That's kind of the whole point it's probably the most evil shit I would have ever done but it's what I need to motivate myself to actually do it my physical entity would never leave her mind. Like how she wouldn't leave mine I know it's not her fault at all but it's what's necessary for me to go through
ur a fucking loser, get help. dont rope. ive wanted to rope almost every day for 2 years straight but im not psychopathic to the point where i want to do it infront of people and think its the only way to fix myself. js go get help dawg
 
Please don't kill yourself bro, I'm telling you I've attempted multiple times and each time I was glad I failed. Just because you feel bad now doesn't mean you will forever.
You're not very good at suicide if you failed multiple times I feel like people want me to be alive because the idea of someone killing themselves is sad but the truth is not everyone will get what they want in life I'm not okay with living without what I want if my dreams cannot come true I don't want to live and I now know they will never come true life can get better but it can't get perfect I can't get the girl I want I can't get the career I want I can't become financially stable before I'm 20 best case scenario I get affiliated in the industry I want and maybe by 30 I'll be financially stable who are we all kidding materialistic stuff only goes so far if I fill my theoretical house with my theoretical garage full of the toys I've always wanted as a preteen I'll still be lonely because the girl I want don't even want me I'm scared cuz I don't even think she was real I think I made her up.
 
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