lucifer88
self destruction enthusiast
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Hey broskis so yeaaaa the title is not clickbait and im really happy about that
why? well bc
As some of my day ones already know I’ve been dealing with blood cancer (leukemia) for a long time now and bc im a fucking retard things really went downhill after I started a cycle of trenbolone and testosterone WITH cancer lolooll and before you recall me stupid yes it was dumb but i was suicidal (very suicidal) at that time and killing myself pinning seemed like the best solution, dying jacked sounded like the way i wanted to die and it that process i guess it was working it completely messed up my hormones, and over time anorexia hit due leukemia even if i wasnt eating so badly, however anorexia wasn't the only issue, i was literally dying. Everything felt awful, and I was at the edge of becoming a zombie
In previous posts I mentioned that the reason I didn’t start the stronger treatments, like the chemotherapy I was supposed to get, was because of my weird emotional attachment to my hair. The thought of losing it made me depressed, so I went to underground clinics and tried other “treatments” that claimed they could heal me. They were all scams. I was close to dying because of my own retarded decisions.
But now things are so much better. Yes, I’m bald xD but at least I get to live a couple more years. I finally started chemo fully and properly, exactly the way I was supposed to, and I can already see how much things have improved. Even though my appearance has changed because of the hair loss, I’m doing better. I’m not fully healed and I never will be, which means I’ll have to treat this condition for the rest of my life, but honestly, it’s not as bad as I thought.
hopefully my health will get better from now on but the reason why i post this here its bc im genuinely grateful as fuck for those who supported me here and brough me support when nobody else did to a lot of people it would just be random niggas on the internet but to me is llike a family, thanks guys
HM to @BigBallsLarry @afroheadluke and some others which username i cant remember but trust me if ur not tagged i did not forget u i js cant type ur user but anyways
love uall
why? well bc
As some of my day ones already know I’ve been dealing with blood cancer (leukemia) for a long time now and bc im a fucking retard things really went downhill after I started a cycle of trenbolone and testosterone WITH cancer lolooll and before you recall me stupid yes it was dumb but i was suicidal (very suicidal) at that time and killing myself pinning seemed like the best solution, dying jacked sounded like the way i wanted to die and it that process i guess it was working it completely messed up my hormones, and over time anorexia hit due leukemia even if i wasnt eating so badly, however anorexia wasn't the only issue, i was literally dying. Everything felt awful, and I was at the edge of becoming a zombie
In previous posts I mentioned that the reason I didn’t start the stronger treatments, like the chemotherapy I was supposed to get, was because of my weird emotional attachment to my hair. The thought of losing it made me depressed, so I went to underground clinics and tried other “treatments” that claimed they could heal me. They were all scams. I was close to dying because of my own retarded decisions.
But now things are so much better. Yes, I’m bald xD but at least I get to live a couple more years. I finally started chemo fully and properly, exactly the way I was supposed to, and I can already see how much things have improved. Even though my appearance has changed because of the hair loss, I’m doing better. I’m not fully healed and I never will be, which means I’ll have to treat this condition for the rest of my life, but honestly, it’s not as bad as I thought.
hopefully my health will get better from now on but the reason why i post this here its bc im genuinely grateful as fuck for those who supported me here and brough me support when nobody else did to a lot of people it would just be random niggas on the internet but to me is llike a family, thanks guys
HM to @BigBallsLarry @afroheadluke and some others which username i cant remember but trust me if ur not tagged i did not forget u i js cant type ur user but anyways
stay well


