i love my mother but she ruined my life

[proxxyy11]

what’s the point of hating on him if he never did you wrong in the first place?

no point i just hate retards with a victim mentality

 

[proxxyy11]

mentally ill? yeah

complaining? no

I’ve already stated it’s my responsibility and im working to get on my feet. i honestly don’t know what you’re trying to prove

you're lesser than me that's what i'm trying to prove buddy

 

[miserycel]

you're lesser than me that's what i'm trying to prove buddy

you are devoid of any kind of pride, meaning and integrity and one day you will be reduced to rotting decay that worms will feast upon

same exact thing for me

i hope you understand that all me and you are is worm food ticking on a clock

 

[Johnmogs2145]

you're lesser than me that's what i'm trying to prove buddy

so you argue with this guy back and forth just to say “muh i’m better then you”

I don’t get why you would spend so much time back and forth arguing just to try n life mog this guy

most people here are incels and losers making fun of someone’s problems makes you just as much of a loser as they are

 

[proxxyy11]

you are devoid of any kind of pride, meaning and integrity and one day you will be reduced to rotting decay that worms will feast upon

same exact thing for me

i hope you understand that all me and you are is worm food ticking on a clock

what the fuck nigga i was trolling bro ur actually sick

 

[miserycel]

no point i just hate retards with a victim mentality

you’re retarded

you basically skimmed the whole thread if what you came out of it was that i have a victim complex

 

[miserycel]

what the fuck nigga i was trolling bro ur actually sick

am i wrong?

 

[proxxyy11]

you’re retarded

you basically skimmed the whole thread if what you came out of it was that i have a victim complex

u do have one

 

[proxxyy11]

am i wrong?

no but why larp being overly depressed shit is cringe go take serotonin inhibs

 

[miserycel]

u do have one

read properly this time

 

[proxxyy11]

read properly this time

what the fuck nigga i was trolling bro ur actually sick

 

[miserycel]

no but why larp being overly depressed shit is cringe go take serotonin inhibs

im not larping anything

just speaking my true thoughts and you’re calling me sick and a “victim complex” for it

like i said at the very beginning, you just don’t get it

 

[Johnmogs2145]

@anondude

I see why you have this proxxyy kid on ignore

 

[Prøphet]

It’s fucking insane how similar your childhood sounds to mine

Like almost identical

 

[proxxyy11]

im not larping anything

just speaking my true thoughts and you’re calling me sick and a “victim complex” for it

like i said at the very beginning, you just don’t get it

im a cognitive empath i can understand almost any situation you've gone through

 

[proxxyy11]

@anondude

I see why you have this proxxyy kid on ignore

johnmogs123453345

 

[miserycel]

It’s fucking insane how similar your childhood sounds to mine

Like almost identical

we’re two peas in a pod

and people continue to dismiss it as being a victim or acting depressed, just like our parents did

no one will truly understand unless they felt it themselves

 

[proxxyy11]

It’s fucking insane how similar your childhood sounds to mine

Like almost identical

where did u get ur signature from

 

[Johnmogs2145]

It’s fucking insane how similar your childhood sounds to mine

Like almost identical

what’s up prophet

 

[Johnmogs2145]

where did u get ur signature from

ngas on his period gah damn

 

[proxxyy11]

ngas on his period gah damn

what nigga his signatures cool af

 

[miserycel]

im a cognitive empath i can understand almost any situation you've gone through

not really

you DNR’d half the “essay”

“you’re sick” “victim complex” “stop larping depression”

you give yourself more credit than what you’re worth

 

[Johnmogs2145]

what nigga his signatures cool af

oh shit I thought u meant smth else

it’s pretty cool

 

[proxxyy11]

not really

you DNR’d half the “essay”

“you’re sick” “victim complex” “stop larping depression”

you give yourself more credit than what you’re worth

do you know what a cognitive empath means? i can understand what situations you've gone through, doesn't mean I care to read about it or make you happy.

it's subtly different from an empath.

frankly i did dnr because i hate sad shit, even reading the title made me feel depressed for you so i just tried my best to turn it into hate so i can change my own mood if you care for the reason

 

[Prøphet]

we’re two peas in a pod

and people continue to dismiss it as being a victim or acting depressed, just like our parents did

no one will truly understand unless they felt it themselves

I still am destroyed realizing how many teen years I lost as a psychological result of just neglect and being ignored

It’s extremely difficult balancing your responsibility for your life with the fact you were set up to fail and learn to neglect yourself

I’m 81 now and I still feel severely stunted because no one was there to truly teach me how to grow up, I haven’t progressed past 14 in terms of milestones

This apathy I always carried through my life happened as a direct result of the neglect; I internalized every ounce of it

 

[Prøphet]

where did u get ur signature from

TikTok

 

[proxxyy11]

TikTok

u remember the @ ?

 

[Johnmogs2145]

johnmogs123453345

proxxyy11: hated by half the forum

 

[Prøphet]

what’s up prophet

John mogs

My nigga

John M.

 

[proxxyy11]

proxxyy11: hated by half the forum

loved by the other half

 

[SecularIslamist]

Same here. My mother isn't perfect. She is a FOB with zero understanding how the world works. Wont doxxx which country but did you say your father or mother was FOB?

Sometimes they literally have no conception of mental illness. I definitely know furry parents dont. That's why curries are so low inhib. They have good community and lifestyle as a result but being non-NT is a death sentence because it's something they just don't understand and consider you odd.

 

[Prøphet]

u remember the @ ?

 

[proxxyy11]

thanks boyo

 

[Johnmogs2145]

I still am destroyed realizing how many teen years I lost as a psychological result of just neglect and being ignored

It’s extremely difficult balancing your responsibility for your life with the fact you were set up to fail and learn to neglect yourself

I’m 81 now and I still feel severely stunted because no one was there to truly teach me how to grow up, I haven’t progressed past 14 in terms of milestones

This apathy I always carried through my life happened as a direct result of the neglect; I internalized every ounce of it

The more you think about it the more it really is about having a normal personality

i’ve seen lots of guys be ugly as shit but they are still popular and funny amongst comrades and women

having both is a plus but being good in either criteria is enough to get by

 

[miserycel]

I still am destroyed realizing how many teen years I lost as a psychological result of just neglect and being ignored

It’s extremely difficult balancing your responsibility for your life with the fact you were set up to fail and learn to neglect yourself

I’m 81 now and I still feel severely stunted because no one was there to truly teach me how to grow up, I haven’t progressed past 14 in terms of milestones

This apathy I always carried through my life happened as a direct result of the neglect; I internalized every ounce of it

exactly this

im 19 myself and in the same boat. i feel like the same 14 year old, nothing’s changed at all because in an environment like ours, you have to teach yourself everything whilst also carrying all the emotional baggage that was constantly thrown on you.

you’ve only really got yourself to rely on but deep down you know that you aren’t even that reliable since your childhood made you so weak and frail to even the most minor of inconveniences

it gets even worse considering you only ever had yourself to rely on, you don’t even know where to begin or how to begin sharing that piece of you with another human being. i’ve completely failed at even the most basic levels of human connection because there’s just so many shields up as even the slightest tint of rejection or neglect carries same the pain as what my mother did to me as a child

 

[miserycel]

Same here. My mother isn't perfect. She is a FOB with zero understanding how the world works. Wont doxxx which country but did you say your father or mother was FOB?

Sometimes they literally have no conception of mental illness. I definitely know furry parents dont. That's why curries are so low inhib. They have good community and lifestyle as a result but being non-NT is a death sentence because it's something they just don't understand and consider you odd.

yeah my father

they only think in practicality, as long as bills are paid and food is on the plate, they’re doing everything they’re supposed to right?

and when the neglect and emotional abuse leaks in and you end up being a psychological mess, they have no idea where they wrong because dinner was always served, so they just assume you were always compromised

 

[Prøphet]

exactly this

im 19 myself and in the same boat. i feel like the same 14 year old, nothing’s changed at all because in an environment like ours, you have to teach yourself everything whilst also carrying all the emotional baggage that was constantly thrown on you.

you’ve only really got yourself to rely on but deep down you know that you aren’t even that reliable since your childhood made you so weak and frail to even the most minor of inconveniences

it gets even worse considering you only ever had yourself to rely on, you don’t even know where to begin or how to begin sharing that piece of you with another human being. i’ve completely failed at even the most basic levels of human connection because there’s just so many shields up as even the slightest tint of rejection or neglect carries same the pain as what my mother did to me as a child

Holy shit man so accurate

There’s this block inside you too strong to be broken or climbed over

And you realize it was never even you who put it there

Wish you the best

 

[miserycel]

Holy shit man so accurate

There’s this block inside you too strong to be broken or climbed over

And you realize it was never even you who put it there

Wish you the best

yeah man

i get so scared whenever i make a potential new friend, i start to physically tremble because im terrified of letting them in, even though that’s all i really want, human connection

you too man, reach out if you ever want to talk about this stuff to me

 

[SecularIslamist]

yeah my father

they only think in practicality, as long as bills are paid and food is on the plate, they’re doing everything they’re supposed to right?

and when the neglect and emotional abuse leaks in and you end up being a psychological mess, they have no idea where they wrong because dinner was always served, so they just assume you were always compromised

Exactly the same here bro. They think in material terms too much.

It's hard to blame them sometimes. They are blissfully unaware what they did wrong. In their minds nothing was wrong. They did their job just like their parents before them.

 

[miserycel]

Exactly the same here bro. They think in material terms too much.

It's hard to blame them sometimes. They are blissfully unaware what they did wrong. In their minds nothing was wrong. They did their job just like their parents before them.

yeah, that’s why i forgive my mother, it is her fault at the end of the day, but she’s just not on the same wavelength you know

ethnic parents man what a shitshow

 

[hate]

u sound like a fucking girl my nigga do u know any man that talks and complains like this? holy shit get a grip

It’s high T to talk about your feelings pussy

 

[proxxyy11]

It’s high T to talk about your feelings pussy

is it? or is it more high T to realize and acknowledge the fact that no one else can help you with your situation but you, and thus it's unnecessary to complain to randoms online that may in fact actually make you even more depressed and clown you instead.

or may reinforce negative ideas into your head

sure it's high T to talk about your feelings, but perhaps with a professional, like a therapist or to the same people who have ruined your mental

 

[Vodxi]

she is very strong

always made sure that the necessities were there

food, a bed, clothes etc

and I’ll always be grateful for that

but she was severely neglecting

i remember i cut myself when i was 12 (dealing with some heavy stuff at a young age and was kinda edgy, no my arms aren’t full of scars) and she found out and she just shamed me and gossiped to her friends about how i was an attention seeking brat

was severely socially impaired to the point i would go non verbal a lot of the time and she never took me to get any kind of treatment or therapy, once again dismissed as attention seeking

she herself had a lot of trauma and basically dumped it all on me and my siblings, even a minor mistake such as spilling milk on the floor would lead to a one hour crash out over how she has such a hard life and im only contributing to it

on several occasions from as young as 11 she’s told me how she’s ashamed to call me her son and even made careless jokes about how she should’ve gotten an abortion

there’s a lot more but im not here to spill every minute drop of my fucked up childhood. i forgive all of it and put it past her because at the end of the day she’s my mother, and i also know that she is severely mentally compromised because of her own suffering that she will never understand what she put me through, but if im being honest with myself it was her who set me on this path

she cared too much about her own mental state and her own issues, completely dismissed and neglected any bad signs (and rather added to them) i had growing up. growing up as a neurodivergent and genetically unfortunate child with abusive parents is what made me the truecel i am today.

im not a bitch who will mope and blame it all on my mother, because even if it’s her accountability, at the end of the day it is my life and thus my responsibility. i just wonder had i had a mother who recognised my psychological implications, and did not emotionally torment me my entire childhood, maybe i would’ve turned out different

dnr but i feel bad

 

[hate]

is it? or is it more high T to realize and acknowledge the fact that no one else can help you with your situation but you, and thus it's unnecessary to complain to randoms online that may in fact actually make you even more depressed and clown you instead.

or may reinforce negative ideas into your head

sure it's high T to talk about your feelings, but perhaps with a professional, like a therapist or to the same people who have ruined your mental

I don’t think OP was really complaining, just thinking out loud/venting. It’s good to let things out because it helps us come to terms with things in life and move on. The realization and acceptance comes after talking and healing. And yes it’s true people may clown him, but the positive reinforcement and advice means way more than the retarded .org replies.

 

[proxxyy11]

I don’t think OP was really complaining, just thinking out loud/venting. It’s good to let things out because it helps us come to terms with things in life and move on. The realization and acceptance comes after talking and healing. And yes it’s true people may clown him, but the positive reinforcement and advice means way more than the retarded .org replies.

i stated my reasoning to clowning him above

frankly i did dnr because i hate sad shit, even reading the title made me feel depressed for you so i just tried my best to turn it into hate so i can change my own mood if you care for the reason

it was mainly for me lmao, needless to say i'm fairly normal and hearing ab sad shit makes me sad

 

[hate]

i stated my reasoning to clowning him above


it was mainly for me lmao, needless to say i'm fairly normal and hearing ab sad shit makes me sad

Oh well that does make sense. I do hope things get better for you man.

I too have a habit of taking things out on random forum users

 

[proxxyy11]

Oh well that does make sense. I do hope things get better for you man.

I too have a habit of taking things out on random forum users

my nigga nothings wrong with me LMAOOO i just hate seeing depressing shit on this forum

sometimes i encourage people saying they're going to rope to actually do it, forums rotted with low iq depressing people who love to spread their sadness onto others

i'm a positive force to this community !

 

[hate]

my nigga nothings wrong with me LMAOOO i just hate seeing depressing shit on this forum

sometimes i encourage people saying they're going to rope to actually do it, forums rotted with low iq depressing people who love to spread their sadness onto others

i'm a positive force to this community !

Ohhhh do excuse me, I’m on a come down from a huge Adderall binge and I’m basically illiterate.

I guess that could work, trying to make someone feel shit about being sad so they don’t feel sad any more. Kind of like when your homies will clown you for still not being over your ex just so you can snap out of it and move on. (Weird comparison but I think I get it now)

 

[proxxyy11]

Ohhhh do excuse me, I’m on a come down from a huge Adderall binge and I’m basically illiterate.

I guess that could work, trying to make someone feel shit about being sad so they don’t feel sad any more. Kind of like when your homies will clown you for still not being over your ex just so you can snap out of it and move on. (Weird comparison but I think I get it now)

u take IR?

also i meant just making myself happy, but yea i also acknowledge the fact that the other way works asw. that's how i cope with sad shit and encourage others to take their minds off things as well. i use that method a lot

 

[miserycel]

frankly i did dnr because i hate sad shit, even reading the title made me feel depressed for you so i just tried my best to turn it into hate so i can change my own mood if you care for the reason

you should probably put me on ignore then

a lot of what i speak about is sad because i am a truecel at the end of the day and this is my truth that i wanna talk about

im not that kind of guy who just mopes and is content with being sad forever tho. i am getting better