TrueNateJacobs
I just want to be beautiful
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Most recently, I was with a girl at a party, and we were making out and shit. She was like solid hmtb with huge tits and an okay ass.
We ended up going back to her house, into the basement, and she obviously wanted to fuck, so when she went to use the bathroom I pretended to be asleep on the floor since we were both very drunk.
She came out of the bathroom with just a bra on and she kept poking me trying to wake me up but I kept faking until she left me alone.
I didn’t have a condom though so that was part of it I think. Otherwise I might have fucked her.
She kept hitting me up for like 2 months after that and only recently stopped cause I just have been ignoring her.
She’s always trying to meet up with me and chill alone together.
I honestly feel like a fucking faggot/foid.
Like I feel like she only wants to fuck me/use me for my body since I’m gymmaxxed, and it makes me feel objectified/disgusted.
I don’t want some whore who just wants to fuck.
I want love. I want true beautiful love.
That sound’s gay but I’m just telling you how it is.
I think about sex a lot
I want to have sex
When I makeout with girls I usually cum in my pants at least a little bit
I love women, seriously sometimes too much.
(Normal for a teenage boy I guess)
But when it actually comes down to the act, and thinking about doing it, I get scared/don’t wanna do it.
I’ve had opportunities to do it, many in fact, but I always end up making an excuse, or purposefully stop talking to the girl before it get’s to that point.
I think honestly it might be the fact that I’m scared of losing my virginity to the wrong girl.
I don’t want to lose my virginity to some random mtb.
I want to love the girl that I lose my virginity to, and I want it to be a beautiful moment.
But recently I have been thinking that maybe it wouldn’t even be so bad if I never lost my virginity.
Like I couldn’t care less.
Of course I still want to, but if I never did, that would be fine too.
Honestly the thought of losing my virginity to the wrong girl makes me want to cry
Some dudes get so lucky.
They get the perfect htb girl that they want, and they start dating her, and then after a couple of months, they passionately lose their virginity together.
This is true teen love.
Not this fucking bullshit 2 man culture and hookup culture.
If I just wanted fucking sex I would buy a prostitute.
Wizz, tinder, snapchat
In my opinion these things are no better than prostitution.
I don’t know why my brain is wired to think this way, but this is one of the few areas in my live where I’m very conservative/traditional.
I believe you should date to for love, and nothing else.
We ended up going back to her house, into the basement, and she obviously wanted to fuck, so when she went to use the bathroom I pretended to be asleep on the floor since we were both very drunk.
She came out of the bathroom with just a bra on and she kept poking me trying to wake me up but I kept faking until she left me alone.
I didn’t have a condom though so that was part of it I think. Otherwise I might have fucked her.
She kept hitting me up for like 2 months after that and only recently stopped cause I just have been ignoring her.
She’s always trying to meet up with me and chill alone together.
I honestly feel like a fucking faggot/foid.
Like I feel like she only wants to fuck me/use me for my body since I’m gymmaxxed, and it makes me feel objectified/disgusted.
I don’t want some whore who just wants to fuck.
I want love. I want true beautiful love.
That sound’s gay but I’m just telling you how it is.
I think about sex a lot
I want to have sex
When I makeout with girls I usually cum in my pants at least a little bit
I love women, seriously sometimes too much.
(Normal for a teenage boy I guess)
But when it actually comes down to the act, and thinking about doing it, I get scared/don’t wanna do it.
I’ve had opportunities to do it, many in fact, but I always end up making an excuse, or purposefully stop talking to the girl before it get’s to that point.
I think honestly it might be the fact that I’m scared of losing my virginity to the wrong girl.
I don’t want to lose my virginity to some random mtb.
I want to love the girl that I lose my virginity to, and I want it to be a beautiful moment.
But recently I have been thinking that maybe it wouldn’t even be so bad if I never lost my virginity.
Like I couldn’t care less.
Of course I still want to, but if I never did, that would be fine too.
Honestly the thought of losing my virginity to the wrong girl makes me want to cry
Some dudes get so lucky.
They get the perfect htb girl that they want, and they start dating her, and then after a couple of months, they passionately lose their virginity together.
This is true teen love.
Not this fucking bullshit 2 man culture and hookup culture.
If I just wanted fucking sex I would buy a prostitute.
Wizz, tinder, snapchat
In my opinion these things are no better than prostitution.
I don’t know why my brain is wired to think this way, but this is one of the few areas in my live where I’m very conservative/traditional.
I believe you should date to for love, and nothing else.


