sub5chudwholikesaot
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I hate that I cope with gooning. It’s obviously true you can’t ascend with gooning because lowers your test and also energy levels, etc. but it’s my only way to cope. I have no friends, I’m sub 3, short, and I just get made fun of everyday in school. My brother hits me and just clowns on me while insulting me and my parents don’t care and just tell me to be like him. The only times I get talked to is when they ask if I’m his little brother and why I got the bad genetics and you know it hurts. Everyday and everytime they see me and my brother, they just say why are you so ugly compared to your brother but just saying it in a friendlier way. And I hate it, I hate me and I hate people like them. I’ve always been ugly compared to my brothers and I just want to be noticed and not just be told why I got bad genetics like I can control it. But to get back on topic lol, I don’t know how to stop gooning, it’s an addiction. It’s not porn necessary but it’s my mind. I could get bumped by a girl in the hallways and I’d go home to goon of thought of being loved by her. I don’t know if I goon just because of the feeling of not being loved but I can’t do it anymore. I occasionally watch porn sometimes if I don’t get interacted by a girl, like bumped in the hallways or looked at. So I use porn to cope and bring me happiness before I cry the entire day until i fall asleep. I just need to stop this. It’s unhealthy and it’s just bad. My life is already doomed enough I just can’t make it worse so please give me advice to stop. And don’t give me that bs by saying pray to god. Sorry for the yap sesh lol got a bit sidetracked with the vent.
