I realized I can't kill myself

[StraightHeadJames]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

You remind me of myself at 18. I think it's why a strong support network is very crucial for someone to succeed in society. Me personally, having being ended up the failure without a support network, the anguish has more or less gone away, and has been replaced with numbness.

 

[anthony111553]

nigga has a girl and on incel forum

 

[StraightHeadJames]

nigga has a girl and on incel forum

Ooofy doofy for a girl who got pump and dumped by chad... It might be more pitiful than being an incel.

 

[anthony111553]

Ooofy doofy for a girl who got pump and dumped by chad... It might be more pitiful than being an incel.

then why care if she kills herself

 

[StraightHeadJames]

then why care if she kills herself

Because I like her and she seems to "love" me (until a chad will steal her like always)

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

this is really true, but i have the balls to do it and tried multiple times.

I guess it really means you never reached to the “it’s truly over” point.

Once there, nothing will stop me from going total bonkers

 

[mogstars]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

Read Socrates' execution dialogues and you'll never kill yourself

 

[hardestmfintheroom]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

You truly want to die? OD with any drug and go to sleep. If not just hold on brah, things eventually will change. Even though its better to start moving rather lol

 

[manletfuel]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

Why rope if have gf JFL

 

[Pale God]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

All that just to flex you got a girlfriend.

 

[romm2el]

My cope ever since I was 14 "If this doesn't improve, I will just kill myself"
"If I fail this class I will just kill myself"
"If it really goes wrong, I can just kill myself"

But no, I am 18 years old. I might fail the school year even tho I was straight A student in the past, I stopped studying a long time ago.
I have no work ethic. I've been depressed for years, I have no idea what I look like or how I am perceived.
My family is disappointed in me, I used to be so autistic, I still am but I improved. At school I used to hide my face with my hands when someone was sitting next to me, so they won't have to see my face. I never went swimming with friends cause I was insecure about my body. All of this at around 10 years old.

I have a genetically abused brain. I am literally cooked, I could find an escape and save myself, but what can I rely on if my own brain has sabotaged me ever since I know myself? Always was the mute kid.

But how can I ever kill myself? Make my mother and father possibly rope too? Destroy my family and make my girlfriend depressed and my siblings. It's not an option, it never was it was just a cope.

First time?

 

[nigtard]

"girlfriend' GTFOH you fakecel

 

[Deleted member 21345]

Lol @ niggas saying "bro you have a gf" like that solves every mental health problem

 

[StraightHeadJames]

You truly want to die? OD with any drug and go to sleep. If not just hold on brah, things eventually will change. Even though its better to start moving rather lol

"girlfriend' GTFOH you fakecel

Lol @ niggas saying "bro you have a gf" like that solves every mental health problem

All that just to flex you got a girlfriend.

I am an oofy doofy for a girl who had MULTIPLE HTN exes.
It's truly such a "flex" bro.
It doesn't change the fact that I am chasing good looks for my whole life and I can't achieve them no matter how hard I try. My dream is way more than a "girlfriend".

 

[ShowerMaxxing]

nigga has a girl and on incel forum

So?

 

[ShowerMaxxing]

Why rope if have gf JFL

Won’t magically make ur life better like u guys believe

 

[manletfuel]

Won’t magically make ur life better like u guys believe

Yes it does lmao
Coming from soemone who had a gf for a month it definitely helped

 

[ShowerMaxxing]

Yes it does lmao
Coming from soemone who had a gf for a month it definitely helped

had one for almost 2yrs now, lifes not all too different

 

[Deleted member 21345]

I am an oofy doofy for a girl who had MULTIPLE HTN exes.
It's truly such a "flex" bro.
It doesn't change the fact that I am chasing good looks for my whole life and I can't achieve them no matter how hard I try. My dream is way more than a "girlfriend".

I'm in a similar boat as you where my partner is basically the only reason to continue living

Making him happy and being there for him is basically the only thing brings me any kind of happiness or makes life even semi worth living

 

[EvangelicalRapist]

girlfriend

i was going to give you all my sympathies
Rope

 

[IAMNOTANINCEL]

idk bro, you can just kill yourself at any moment

 

[iblamechico]

Rate ur gf?

 

[AlphaLooksmaxxer666]

Man up and keep going.

 

[New Poster]

why would you off yourself at 18? Pretty fucking stupid

 

[StraightHeadJames]

why would you off yourself at 18? Pretty fucking stupid

i ascended since i wrote this bro got a taper fade and cleared most of my acne in 2 weeks im not that depressed anymore

 

[New Poster]

i ascended since i wrote this bro got a taper fade and cleared most of my acne in 2 weeks im not that depressed anymore

lol

 

[Subhuman232]

i ascended since i wrote this bro got a taper fade and cleared most of my acne in 2 weeks im not that depressed anymore

are u following the ways of our lord james sapphire the savior?

are u also bonesmashing, it's the divine way to ascend