I think about killing myself everyday

[Narcissus🥀]

I really doubt I'd actually do it, but yet I keep thinking about death, I want to die and I keep feeling this strong desire for it.

These past few weeks have been very fucking rough, my girlfriend died, I almost got bombed, I'm having exams, and I just don't feel like I have anyone...

Even I am giving up on myself.

What is this fear? Maybe fear of Losing someone, or fear of missing out, but it's eating my heart out and it's hurting...

 

[NoseProphecy]

I really doubt I'd actually do it, but yet I keep thinking about death, I want to die and I keep feeling this strong desire for it.

These past few weeks have been very fucking rough, my girlfriend died, I almost got bombed, I'm having exams, and I just don't feel like I have anyone...

Even I am giving up on myself.

What is this fear? Maybe fear of Losing someone, or fear of missing out, but it's eating my heart out and it's hurting...

Brutal. But why are they taking exams during the war?

 

[ChadL1te]

Think about how your mom would feel bro, not worth it

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Think about how your mom would feel bro, not worth it

You think she wouldn't be happy if I joined her?

 

[NoseProphecy]

How did your girlfriend die? Didn’t you say that you were trying to get a contact from a girl

 

[NoseProphecy]

You think she wouldn't be happy if I joined her?

Holy shit…

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Brutal. But why are they taking exams during the war?

Fuck college.

Someday I'm gonna go ER on everyone there, Everytime I'm inside that miserable place I'm listening to "pumped up kicks"
And imagining myself holding an AK-47.

And Everytime someone there is talking to me I zone out and think about bashing thier skull.

 

[NoseProphecy]

Fuck college.

Someday I'm gonna go ER on everyone there, Everytime I'm inside that miserable place I'm listening to "pumped up kicks"
And imagining myself holding an AK-47.

And Everytime someone there is talking to me I zone out and think about bashing thier skull.

Even Chad has mental issues…

 

[Narcissus🥀]

How did your girlfriend die? Didn’t you say that you were trying to get a contact from a girl

Car accident.
And the other girl, I haven't talked to her yet.

 

[arab_chink]

I really doubt I'd actually do it, but yet I keep thinking about death, I want to die and I keep feeling this strong desire for it.

These past few weeks have been very fucking rough, my girlfriend died, I almost got bombed, I'm having exams, and I just don't feel like I have anyone...

Even I am giving up on myself.

What is this fear? Maybe fear of Losing someone, or fear of missing out, but it's eating my heart out and it's hurting...

Same here, for me is social isolation, what about you?

 

[hiwasuwor]

i think about going to the supERmarket evERyday

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Even Chad has mental issues…

It's my fault.

In the gym I had a different mindset, I decided that I was gonna be as extroverted and social as possible.
Now the gym is my SANCTUARY!!!
Everyone there knows and respects me, Everytime I go gym I get loads of lifefuel.


Meanwhile at the start of college I decided to be introverted and not talk to anyone, frequently I get approached by girls but nothing can save me from the loneliness and isolation I feel there.

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Same here, for me is social isolation, what about you?

It's my fault.

In the gym I had a different mindset, I decided that I was gonna be as extroverted and social as possible.
Now the gym is my SANCTUARY!!!
Everyone there knows and respects me, Everytime I go gym I get loads of lifefuel.


Meanwhile at the start of college I decided to be introverted and not talk to anyone, frequently I get approached by girls but nothing can save me from the loneliness and isolation I feel there.

 

[NoseProphecy]

It's my fault.

In the gym I had a different mindset, I decided that I was gonna be as extroverted and social as possible.
Now the gym is my SANCTUARY!!!
Everyone there knows and respects me, Everytime I go gym I get loads of lifefuel.


Meanwhile at the start of college I decided to be introverted and not talk to anyone, frequently I get approached by girls but nothing can save me from the loneliness and isolation I feel there.

I can’t get along with people in my college as well. I had such a solid friend group in school and now I’ve moved away and everything thing feels like shit

 

[arab_chink]

You get approached by girls bro!!! I get nothing!!

 

[twojei]

I really doubt I'd actually do it, but yet I keep thinking about death, I want to die and I keep feeling this strong desire for it.

These past few weeks have been very fucking rough, my girlfriend died, I almost got bombed, I'm having exams, and I just don't feel like I have anyone...

Even I am giving up on myself.

What is this fear? Maybe fear of Losing someone, or fear of missing out, but it's eating my heart out and it's hurting...

Smile!

 

[arab_chink]

You get approached by girls bro!!! I get nothing!!

And if it male friends you can just join a club

 

[Narcissus🥀]

I can’t get along with people in my college as well. I had such a solid friend group in school and now I’ve moved away and everything thing feels like shit

True.
People are strangers when it comes to emotions, no one understands the other or knows what it feels like to be the other person.

People are too busy with themselves, but recently even I stopped caring about myself.

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

#Metoo

 

[NoseProphecy]

True.
People are strangers when it comes to emotions, no one understands the other or knows what it feels like to be the other person.

People are too busy with themselves, but recently even I stopped caring about myself.

Genuinely think modern culture is a part of it. I’ve also noticed in my house that everyone went from watching TV together to watching their shows on streaming services by their own.

The modern culture is isolating us

 

[Narcissus🥀]

You get approached by girls bro!!! I get nothing!!

I don't care about some fucking MTBs.
The girl I want has a place in my heart, and I know she likes me too, but it's just the circumstances that don't allow it.

 

[st.hamudi but 6‘5]

u are chaddam bro indians and urkcels would kill to be in your body
don’t kill yourself

 

[Narcissus🥀]

u are chaddam bro indians and urkcels would kill to be in your body
don’t kill yourself

Brother I'm not gonna kill myself.
It's just that I can't stop the pain

 

[arab_chink]

I don't care about some fucking MTBs.
The girl I want has a place in my heart, and I know she likes me too, but it's just the circumstances that don't allow it.

Then approach, add her on insta and start talking to her!

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Then approach, add her on insta and start talking to her!

It's not that simple.

 

[arab_chink]

It's not that simple.

It is if your truley “chad”

 

[STAMPEDE]

I have strong desires to rope too but Im scared

 

[Narcissus🥀]

I have strong desires to rope too but Im scared

Tbh I don't want to do it and I'm not gonna do it.

But the pain and stress are becoming unbearable, been struggling for several months now I'm still waiting for when the storm ends and rainbows shine.

 

[Jason Voorhees]

Same tbh. I cry myself to sleep every other day. I sometimes have strong urges to quit everything

 

[NoseProphecy]

Same tbh. I cry myself to sleep every other day. I sometimes have strong urges to quit everything

May god bless you with 3 virgin North Indian bunnies

 

[try2beme]

Fuck college.

Someday I'm gonna go ER on everyone there, Everytime I'm inside that miserable place I'm listening to "pumped up kicks"
And imagining myself holding an AK-47.

And Everytime someone there is talking to me I zone out and think about bashing thier skull.

Lets go ER together

 

[try2beme]

If i wasn’t religious id have ropes but I fear God tbh

 

[TechnoBoss]

You're brave for admitting this. I often think about this as well. I hope you don't ever do it.

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Same tbh. I cry myself to sleep every other day. I sometimes have strong urges to quit everything

Lets go ER together

It's absolutely fucking crazy how we all have the same experience and share the same pain.

 

[tombradylover]

Don’t do it bhai u have too much potential. Ur good looking, can fight and u seem intelligent when not acting autistic jfl. If u push through it it will get better and u will be stronger for it. U should go back to gym and do it since it made u so happy. Don’t put it off any longer no matter what. It’s ok to feel down but try and to what u can to make u feel better go gym, talk about ur issues do wtv it takes but don’t rope. Too young for that bhai no one should rope unless there literally is no other option

 

[PrinceLuenLeoncur]

I really doubt I'd actually do it, but yet I keep thinking about death, I want to die and I keep feeling this strong desire for it.

These past few weeks have been very fucking rough, my girlfriend died, I almost got bombed, I'm having exams, and I just don't feel like I have anyone...

Even I am giving up on myself.

What is this fear? Maybe fear of Losing someone, or fear of missing out, but it's eating my heart out and it's hurting...

Hmm so I’m not the only one.

I guess whatifslthists vidoe on the psychological Black Death checks out as legit

 

[Deleted member 65981]

What's the point? You die anyways in the end. Might as well stay to see how your life unfolds.

Emil Cioran said it best. "What's your rush? You can kill yourself any time you like. So calm down."

I mentioned this in one of my previous posts but what are the fucking chances we're all here. The 1 in 400 trillion probability of being born is far from correct. Every fucking thing had to go to plan, exactly the way it did since the test of time. Including every event that changed the dynamics of the world like slavery. Your dad had to bust in your mom at the exact time and moment. As well as every single one of your ancestors. Fruit for thought and how precious your life is, my friend. Cherish it no matter your circumstances.

 

[Narcissus🥀]

What's the point? You die anyways in the end. Might as well stay to see how your life unfolds.

Emil Cioran said it best. "What's your rush? You can kill yourself any time you like. So calm down."

I mentioned this in one of my previous posts but what are the fucking chances we're all here. The 1 in 400 trillion probability of being born is far from correct. Every fucking thing had to go to plan, exactly the way it did since the test of time. Including every event that changed the dynamics of the world like slavery. Your dad had to bust in your mom at the exact time and moment. As well as every single one of your ancestors. Fruit for thought and how precious your life is, my friend. Cherish it no matter your circumstances.

It's because of the pain, stress, pressure and all the ugly things I feel while alive.

Maybe me be born wasn't a thing of fortunate luck, maybe it was very bad luck.

 

[Deleted member 65981]

It's because of the pain, stress, pressure and all the ugly things I feel while alive.

Maybe me be born wasn't a thing of fortunate luck, maybe it was very bad luck.

Bad luck? Blud, even in the sperm race. The first to reach the egg is not the winner. The first to reach the egg opens the egg for the next (you) and the 300 million+ cells including the first one dies in the process. Never to be born.

Fuuark maybe im not sending the right message and you were the slow bastard that let everyone else do the hard work and took all the credit for yourself while the rest died in the process. But the point is that others sacrificed so you can live. Make the most of it.

 

[i_love_roosters]

Don't even let such thoughts creep up in your head. It'll all be alright bhai. Better days are coming for sure. Praying for you

 

[Deleted member 65825]

You know it's ovER when even chad is thinking about death




NEVER BEGAN

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Don't even let such thoughts creep up in your head. It'll all be alright bhai. Better days are coming for sure. Praying for you

You're 100% right.

I always carry my burdens and move forward all the time, but it's just that every now and then I feel tired and need to vent out a little.

Today has been very great so far!
I'm feeling very good and happy

 

[wsada]

To be honest bro I always think about the same thing every single day I just cope by thinking about my family and islam

 

[Narcissus🥀]

To be honest bro I always think about the same thing every single day I just cope by thinking about my family and islam

It's ok man, you're gonna be ok

 

[wsada]

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It's ok man, you're gonna be ok

In the end it always turns out great we just should never give up!

 

[Clown Show]

my girlfriend died

Stopped reading right there

 

[N1666]

What country are you in to be getting bombed? Sounds like hell, I complain about my life and then realise I have it easy compared to other people and should be more grateful.

 

[Deleted member 62821]

Those late night thoughts are temporary bro. Things get better as time passes, find hobbies, find a social circle, don’t let those evil thoughts consume you

 

[Narcissus🥀]

Stopped reading right there

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Nigga what the fuck?

What country are you in to be getting bombed? Sounds like hell, I complain about my life and then realise I have it easy compared to other people and should be more grateful.

Syria.
But I'm grateful because I'm still very good and alive compared to the kids that are suffocating under thier fallen houses.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

Stopped reading right there

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bro his mum just died, hes in a fucking war, inceldom isnt everything