i think im genuienly starting to hate myself and be a miserable person

[Xheca]

i just cant go through school without sleeping, i dont talk to anyone, i feel constantly judged, i feel tired, but i also want to be social at the same time but its like i just cant handle being around people its too much even if its family and after getting rejected once (even if the best case way to get rejected) i still cant handle being myself and constantly imagine myself doing stuff like killing myself or shooting up the school or whatever, just as a clarification, i will NEVER do these but its like i just cant help but imagine myself just jumping out the window one day in the middle of the class and finally being free. i just thought i'd write it here to kind of let it out. thanks for reading.

 

[Surrender]

 

[belowavgheight]

you’ll be alright

not tryna be a corny fag but you either get over it or get used to it and find ways to cope

 

[Sceptical]

have you considered doing drugs or commiting crimes for some excitement in your life?

 

[Assymetry]

have you considered doing drugs or commiting crimes for some excitement in your life?

Drugs get mundane quickly, not a good path to take.