
charliewillascend
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yes I know I’m crying like a bitch and you all don’t give a fuck and DNR , blah blah blah
don’t even bother reading this shit, it’s irrelevant and if you have a good life it’s pointless.
but honestly what is the point, it’s never been more over. Everywhere in life I seem to get the short end of the stick and loose out in a way where something I pray at night to not happen ALWAYS happens.
But the worst thing is I don’t blame myself at all, all the bad things that happen to me seem to be out of my control, which makes it even worse. It’s like failing a test that you studied so hard for, which by the way this happened to me for all my tests this week!!!!! WHICH I STUDIED FOR
I moved to a new school for sixth form (16-18 year old school in the uk) to be with my ‘best friend’ who I spoke to every night for a decade of my life and did everything with; yet he acted like I didn’t even exist there, in his group (the popular group so I had a chance to be happy but it course it blew up in my face ) I knew 8/9, and the one j didn’t know hated my guts for no reason!! And I stil can’t figure out why, and all he did was rinse the shit out of me despite me doing nothing wrong.
Since he is popular the rest joined in including my ‘friend’
At that point it’s a 7v1 , and I honestly didn’t do a single weird or ‘non NT’ thing!!!!!!!!!!!
So I had to move back to my old school in humiliation , where I also have no friends, and my ‘friend’ of decades hasn’t even bothered to reach out to me and it’s been months, NOT ONCE.
This is exactly what I fucking mean when I dont blame my self
It’s been proven to me, mid write of this thread my mom shouts my name , less then a second later (not even any time to respond£ she screams my name sharply cursing at me for no reason , i say what back in a sharp voice back and she freaks out on me like everyday,
Takes everything I own…
I screamed I want to die 3 times hit a wall and as expected no one cares. I’ve just been crying in my room for the last 3 minutes,
My mom will now cry to my dad and make up stuff and I will get screamed at for no reason.
My parents don’t care, I have no friends, I’m ugly , flunking school despite trying I don’t have hobbies I just sit inside all day as my parents don’t even bother to take me out anywhere , I haven’t been out with friends in over 3 years despite being 17, I constantly think everyone is judging me for my appearance and failos I am terrified of having my photo taken , holy shit it’s over.
And now I’m wondering why I even wrote this thread.
rope
don’t even bother reading this shit, it’s irrelevant and if you have a good life it’s pointless.
but honestly what is the point, it’s never been more over. Everywhere in life I seem to get the short end of the stick and loose out in a way where something I pray at night to not happen ALWAYS happens.
But the worst thing is I don’t blame myself at all, all the bad things that happen to me seem to be out of my control, which makes it even worse. It’s like failing a test that you studied so hard for, which by the way this happened to me for all my tests this week!!!!! WHICH I STUDIED FOR

I moved to a new school for sixth form (16-18 year old school in the uk) to be with my ‘best friend’ who I spoke to every night for a decade of my life and did everything with; yet he acted like I didn’t even exist there, in his group (the popular group so I had a chance to be happy but it course it blew up in my face ) I knew 8/9, and the one j didn’t know hated my guts for no reason!! And I stil can’t figure out why, and all he did was rinse the shit out of me despite me doing nothing wrong.
Since he is popular the rest joined in including my ‘friend’
At that point it’s a 7v1 , and I honestly didn’t do a single weird or ‘non NT’ thing!!!!!!!!!!!
So I had to move back to my old school in humiliation , where I also have no friends, and my ‘friend’ of decades hasn’t even bothered to reach out to me and it’s been months, NOT ONCE.
This is exactly what I fucking mean when I dont blame my self
It’s been proven to me, mid write of this thread my mom shouts my name , less then a second later (not even any time to respond£ she screams my name sharply cursing at me for no reason , i say what back in a sharp voice back and she freaks out on me like everyday,
Takes everything I own…
I screamed I want to die 3 times hit a wall and as expected no one cares. I’ve just been crying in my room for the last 3 minutes,
My mom will now cry to my dad and make up stuff and I will get screamed at for no reason.
My parents don’t care, I have no friends, I’m ugly , flunking school despite trying I don’t have hobbies I just sit inside all day as my parents don’t even bother to take me out anywhere , I haven’t been out with friends in over 3 years despite being 17, I constantly think everyone is judging me for my appearance and failos I am terrified of having my photo taken , holy shit it’s over.
And now I’m wondering why I even wrote this thread.
rope