I tried to leave this, but it's pulling me back.

[Stargazer]

I lurked for a while back and went through BOTB, surgery megathreads, etc and made a plan for hardmaxxes to get when I'm freshly 18.

But I saw friends around me shorter and uglier than me date and be social, which made me reconsider if this was entirely worth it.

I focused on normie softmaxxes such as neck curls, working out, eating healthy, etc. Completely disregarding any topicals, steroids, peptides, or surgeries.

Slowly I integrated into the normie social life and started to forget.

But it started slowly, every now and then just that voice saying all my insecurities and flaws.

"She would text you back sooner if you had better skin."

"You'd have more respect if you were taller."

It started getting more and more often, now I've reverted back to almost my old self of just critiquing myself every possible way.

I will see what happens when I genuinely do everything I can to ascend, and if the voice goes away once I do.

There truly is no escape.

 

[Stalker]

why do you want to leave this community its nice here

 

[Stargazer]

why do you want to leave this community its nice here

It's never enough, I didn't join to rot, but to improve my shit life.

My original goal was to leave once I ascended, using this as a tool.

I thought it would get better when I ascended slightly, but it's only getting worse.

 

[jasnatgaz]

I lurked for a while back and went through BOTB, surgery megathreads, etc and made a plan for hardmaxxes to get when I'm freshly 18.

But I saw friends around me shorter and uglier than me date and be social, which made me reconsider if this was entirely worth it.

I focused on normie softmaxxes such as neck curls, working out, eating healthy, etc. Completely disregarding any topicals, steroids, peptides, or surgeries.

Slowly I integrated into the normie social life and started to forget.

But it started slowly, every now and then just that voice saying all my insecurities and flaws.

"She would text you back sooner if you had better skin."

"You'd have more respect if you were taller."

It started getting more and more often, now I've reverted back to almost my old self of just critiquing myself every possible way.

I will see what happens when I genuinely do everything I can to ascend, and if the voice goes away once I do.

There truly is no escape.

same bro, only solution is to ascend