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vanity of vanities all is vanity
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idk how to feel. i cried when i turned 18. i cried when i turned 17. from the illusion of loss innocence. but i just feel numb. my mom made me a cake jfl. i hugged her for the first time in years. i also heard birds chirping for what seems like forever. i had a good dream. i dont know how to feel. i think its a mixture of hope and despair. i mean im still a teenager i can be silly for a little longer, but what i do now will impact the rest of my life, especially in regards to ascending. jfl look at me i don't even have friends that are wishing me happy bday and im talking to fucking incels on .org. so over. im just really scared of growing up man. i think i naturally romanticize shit, a childlike wonder and deep down, below all my nihilism, i think everything can be beautiful in some regard. i yearn to be a part of that beauty. experience it. i hope this is the year i can.