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Kraken
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After improving my looks and acne so much this year I realize how better I am treated. I've been ugly for so long 1-2 years now fat acne greasy gross hair tired eyes and depression that you could see on my eyes.
After 3 months of living on my own my depression went away I lost weight my skin improved with the routine I had. Now that I am back home even my own grandparents were nicer to me. I always felt social anxiety and my (((Therapist))) a year back said this was due to delusions and in my head that people were judging me (KEK). But I realize now the cause of it was my declining health which effected my looks and mood for the worst. Of course I developed a fear of people when every interaction I subtly picked up on people hating or being bothered by me. Every conversation was a chore unless I genuinely had interesting things to say people acted annoyed at me for existing.
Cashier even older ones would give me a gross stare. I would always wear a face mask and glasses because people looking at me gave me panic attacks. Now I don't feel like this anymore cashiers will say "here you go Honey or Sir" and are always nice to me. Its got nothing to do with anything sexual they are usually older women. Someone on reddit would say get a better personality but unironically its impossible to have a good one if your ugly. Either you will be bitter and evil or become socially scared and a hikimori.
After 3 months of living on my own my depression went away I lost weight my skin improved with the routine I had. Now that I am back home even my own grandparents were nicer to me. I always felt social anxiety and my (((Therapist))) a year back said this was due to delusions and in my head that people were judging me (KEK). But I realize now the cause of it was my declining health which effected my looks and mood for the worst. Of course I developed a fear of people when every interaction I subtly picked up on people hating or being bothered by me. Every conversation was a chore unless I genuinely had interesting things to say people acted annoyed at me for existing.
Cashier even older ones would give me a gross stare. I would always wear a face mask and glasses because people looking at me gave me panic attacks. Now I don't feel like this anymore cashiers will say "here you go Honey or Sir" and are always nice to me. Its got nothing to do with anything sexual they are usually older women. Someone on reddit would say get a better personality but unironically its impossible to have a good one if your ugly. Either you will be bitter and evil or become socially scared and a hikimori.