I want to be even more destroyed

[Vermilioncore]

For some reason when things are going bad, instead of trying to make them better, I try to make them worse. Since my life is fucked, I go out of my way to try to fuck things up more for me. And I drink until I'm sick just to ruin myself more and more.

If even one thing good happened to me I'd be happy and try to improve everything, but that just won't happen. So, because of this, I will ruin my life purposely. Can't wait to destroy myself again later