zerotohero
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Two weeks ago, I had momentum. Gym daily. Clean food. Cold showers. Reading. I felt alive. There was even a girl who made me believe I mattered.
Now I haven’t trained in 2 days. Haven’t showered. Spent hours edging, rotting in my room. Back to the same dopamine traps. The same numbness.
She didn’t even end things. Just slowly vanished. No closure. No words. I was never really “hers” anyway. But I built my purpose around her attention. That was the mistake.
I relapse the moment reality hits. I know the routines. I’ve done them before. But when shit gets hard, I fold. Every time.
It’s always the same cycle.
It’s over. Again.
Now I haven’t trained in 2 days. Haven’t showered. Spent hours edging, rotting in my room. Back to the same dopamine traps. The same numbness.
She didn’t even end things. Just slowly vanished. No closure. No words. I was never really “hers” anyway. But I built my purpose around her attention. That was the mistake.
I relapse the moment reality hits. I know the routines. I’ve done them before. But when shit gets hard, I fold. Every time.
It’s always the same cycle.
It’s over. Again.
