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fifteenflagsfly
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I already posted this in the wrong topic section so reposting here:
When I was 9 year old this 14 year old boy molested me (I'm male), it lasted for like 3 weeks. I was touched repeatedly, dry-humped and he forced me to make-out with him, he almost had sex with me but I made him go away.
It turned me into a high-inhib cuck and I got bullied many times at school and got racial abuse for being a soft beta (I'm black btw, so was the guy who molested me). Essentially it ruined my whole life. I'm supposed to be this young sexual beast but I am actually afraid of sex, I have sexual anxiety.
If I was not molested I would have some confidence but I have none, I'm literally the most scared guy on the planet and I come from the most low-inhib, confident race. Because of this I have no black friends, I'm even scared of black men because some of them look like the guy who molested me + they bullied me severely over the years.
On top of that I have learning disabilities like Extreme ADHD, Dyspraxia, and potential Autism.
I don't think anyone here has it as bad as me, I'm truly a failure. No friends, mentally ill etc.
Why is life so cruel? Why?
When I was 9 year old this 14 year old boy molested me (I'm male), it lasted for like 3 weeks. I was touched repeatedly, dry-humped and he forced me to make-out with him, he almost had sex with me but I made him go away.
It turned me into a high-inhib cuck and I got bullied many times at school and got racial abuse for being a soft beta (I'm black btw, so was the guy who molested me). Essentially it ruined my whole life. I'm supposed to be this young sexual beast but I am actually afraid of sex, I have sexual anxiety.
If I was not molested I would have some confidence but I have none, I'm literally the most scared guy on the planet and I come from the most low-inhib, confident race. Because of this I have no black friends, I'm even scared of black men because some of them look like the guy who molested me + they bullied me severely over the years.
On top of that I have learning disabilities like Extreme ADHD, Dyspraxia, and potential Autism.
I don't think anyone here has it as bad as me, I'm truly a failure. No friends, mentally ill etc.
Why is life so cruel? Why?