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I started out as a normal heterosexual boy who watched porn and had fairly normal pornographic preferences for a few years. But then I became increasingly degenerate. I don't remember how it happened exactly; it's kind of hazy in my mind, but I believe I was exposed to passing MtF transgenders and developed an interest over time; I then watched a pornhub video of a crossdresser. It was fine, nothing too exciting, but ever since then I've occasionally searched for terms like 'shemale,' but finding passing MtF transgenders on porn sites is difficult.
As a result, I'd be exposed to masculine men in dresses as well as subhuman transmaxxers.
It wasn't particularly enjoyable, which is why I only watched it on occasion. You'd think that exposing myself to these 'shemales', whose appeal varies greatly, would gradually make me attracted to them, but that hasn't been the case. I've been watching MtF transgender porn for years now, and my sexual attraction to them hasn't changed. I still only like passing ones.
It appears that I will never be truly gay. One thing that has changed is that I now prefer the idea of a femboy to that of a transgender. I like the idea of a very feminine male who is extremely submissive. I believe transitioning diminishes the male appeal I value.
Take note that I mentioned the idea of a femboy. Unfortunately, it appears that most people do not share the same definition of a femboy.
And when I go to femboy subreddits or search femboy on porn sites, I get incel looking crossdressers, masculine dudes in dresses, rather than a male who is so feminine that he gets confused for a girl.
When I get the desire for a femboy and search for femboy on porn sites, I am disappointed and even disgusted.
The truth is that I only like about 1 in 1000 men. I cannot identify as gay.
I'm a phony homosexual.
In the future, I intend to use grinder to find the femboy of my dreams. However, due to their scarcity, the chances of success are slim.
Here's an example of a male who I'm sexually attracted to:
As a result, I'd be exposed to masculine men in dresses as well as subhuman transmaxxers.
It wasn't particularly enjoyable, which is why I only watched it on occasion. You'd think that exposing myself to these 'shemales', whose appeal varies greatly, would gradually make me attracted to them, but that hasn't been the case. I've been watching MtF transgender porn for years now, and my sexual attraction to them hasn't changed. I still only like passing ones.
It appears that I will never be truly gay. One thing that has changed is that I now prefer the idea of a femboy to that of a transgender. I like the idea of a very feminine male who is extremely submissive. I believe transitioning diminishes the male appeal I value.
Take note that I mentioned the idea of a femboy. Unfortunately, it appears that most people do not share the same definition of a femboy.
And when I go to femboy subreddits or search femboy on porn sites, I get incel looking crossdressers, masculine dudes in dresses, rather than a male who is so feminine that he gets confused for a girl.
When I get the desire for a femboy and search for femboy on porn sites, I am disappointed and even disgusted.
The truth is that I only like about 1 in 1000 men. I cannot identify as gay.
I'm a phony homosexual.
In the future, I intend to use grinder to find the femboy of my dreams. However, due to their scarcity, the chances of success are slim.
Here's an example of a male who I'm sexually attracted to:
