Spookybah
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a lot of stuff happened to me freshman and soph year, I got cheated on, got a girl pregnant, and I stayed in the same relationship like an abused dog.
It never helped that the girls I would talk to as friends had massive crushes on white guys who were tall with wide frames and good face. I still talk to those same girls but I just can’t help but feel annoyed by them.
About to graduate in a month and I’m looking back on all this wondering how life could’ve been if I knew that looks were what determined my standing in society. I’m finally ascending but it took so long to get the lesson beaten into my head lmao, even after what I was put through in relationships I was still the same fat guy with dirty skin and long disgusting hair. Not to mention all my other flaws.
The BP saves lives, I hope it’s not bad that I’m optimistic in the future since I finally know what matters. I’m not ND so I think exposure therapy could work well for my isolation. I just hope my life changes, but I’m not sure if that will happen.
It never helped that the girls I would talk to as friends had massive crushes on white guys who were tall with wide frames and good face. I still talk to those same girls but I just can’t help but feel annoyed by them.
About to graduate in a month and I’m looking back on all this wondering how life could’ve been if I knew that looks were what determined my standing in society. I’m finally ascending but it took so long to get the lesson beaten into my head lmao, even after what I was put through in relationships I was still the same fat guy with dirty skin and long disgusting hair. Not to mention all my other flaws.
The BP saves lives, I hope it’s not bad that I’m optimistic in the future since I finally know what matters. I’m not ND so I think exposure therapy could work well for my isolation. I just hope my life changes, but I’m not sure if that will happen.
