I wish my mother abandoned me as a child

[Deleted member 5746]

It is such a shame. I'd so much rather have no parents than growing up with only a mother. I feel like I owe her, I feel like I disappoint her, I feel like I betrayed her.
Had I grown up in foster home I'd have no problem killing myself or care about my performance in any way.
Now I feel like I can't do that because my mother wasted her whole youth on me, even though my life is going nowhere and there really isn't much I can do abt it. It's really sad how my mother had to deal with this. She'll hate to find out just how fucked things are when she does. I'm afraid she might kill herself even.

 

[magnificentcel]

Y is your life going nowhere

 

[Deleted member 5746]

Y is your life going nowhere

It's going downhill, it's all downhill from here

 

[magnificentcel]

It's going downhill, it's all downhill from here

Y

 

[Deleted member 5746]

Y

Hard to explain. Let's just put it I'm gonna be less and less attractive as time goes on and there's not much I can do about it. Even if I would be attractive I will be less and less productive, smart, efficient, and less capable of fitting in the human society. There's a lot of reasons for this but everything seems to be going downhill and it was always kinda destined to go downhill.

 

[Deleted member 756]

You’ve had a girlfriend and had sex
Plus your family is rich