ihms ugly face and short 5’3 16 years old. Suicidal thoughts self harm

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Hi everyone. I wanted to start by saying that I feel my life has a strong correlation with the black pill. I have no friends and no social life during school holidays (summer break), I don't talk to anyone, and that’s starting to worry me. I’ve never been someone with a lot of friends whether at school or in sports but I have been bullied, which often makes me wonder if there’s something wrong with me. I’ve changed schools twice and switched sports clubs, but I feel like things have only gotten worse. I try, but I don't see any results. On top of that, I got injured playing sports, I was out for eight months after tearing ligaments and twisting my knee and I don't think I received any emotional support while going through that difficult phase (which I think I'm still in, struggling with depression and taking pills for it). I quit soccer, a sport I’d played since I was seven. I’d never even considered quitting before, though the environment was toxic. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. I make an effort and try to dress well, but nothing works. My biggest insecurities are my face and my height. I have a recessed chin and jawline and I am too short, 161cm (5'3"). I went to the doctor for an X-ray and was devastated when he said my growth plates were almost closed (bone age 17/18). Is there anything I can do to deal with this?
Also i hate school i just go there to get good grades and make my parents proud because I don’t want to make them disappointed. Ihms and i feel like a nobody