sørenyuko
inflamed
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i just have this strong urge to do something new and original in my lifetime, my fear is having lived a life anyone else could've lived with nothing to speak of, i wanna take my converter (self) and create something substantial and entirely unique
not just impressive or cool, but something only i can understand, a completely new language/model/framework whatever you can call it.
i know what im seeing isnt all there is, i know if i dig deeper and deeper into depths of my mind i'll find something great similarly to how dreams reveal the most surprisingly good stuff, i intend to dig up those profound images from my mind and build monuments of them into the material world.
everytime i encounter something thats been done already i get turned off, i feel like im playing on a saved game file and im billions of years old, i speedran through the training course in my first years of life with no scaffolding and now im here, starting the actual game, im looking at myself and thinking how tf did i get here with no mentorship, no classes taken in this stuff, no therapy, no psychologist, nothing that would've given me the tools, i just casually ripped this spark out of nowhere.
After writing this i realised this sounds like the ramblings of a 99th percentile normie wanting to feel special but whatever man, the actions are what matter, not how 17 year old me explained his ambitions on the spot.
not just impressive or cool, but something only i can understand, a completely new language/model/framework whatever you can call it.
i know what im seeing isnt all there is, i know if i dig deeper and deeper into depths of my mind i'll find something great similarly to how dreams reveal the most surprisingly good stuff, i intend to dig up those profound images from my mind and build monuments of them into the material world.
everytime i encounter something thats been done already i get turned off, i feel like im playing on a saved game file and im billions of years old, i speedran through the training course in my first years of life with no scaffolding and now im here, starting the actual game, im looking at myself and thinking how tf did i get here with no mentorship, no classes taken in this stuff, no therapy, no psychologist, nothing that would've given me the tools, i just casually ripped this spark out of nowhere.
After writing this i realised this sounds like the ramblings of a 99th percentile normie wanting to feel special but whatever man, the actions are what matter, not how 17 year old me explained his ambitions on the spot.
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