PsychoDsk
Just a guy | ᴀʀᴄʜɪᴛᴇᴄᴛ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴀᴛᴇ
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every fucking winter
It's like my body and mind remembers shit that happened when I was a little boy
while I consciously don't
just straight despair all winter long
Doesn't help the fact it's my birthday on supposedly the 'happiest' day of the year, a day of endings and new beginnings. yea right
Everybody will be out partying, spending time with family, getting wasted with friends. Oh the horror
That's why I'm spending the holidays alone in a hotel, just me and probably a couple bottles of the good old smirnoff.
I can already tell I'm gonna bawl my fucking eyes out seeing people celebrate, taking vids of fireworks, getting those awful 'happy newyear' messages from people even though it's quite literally my BIRTHDAY, but that's less important to everyone anyway.
I'm a happy nigga overall but oh man the holidays and just winter in general really takes a toll on my sanity, It takes me atleast 2 months every year to recover from the absolute disgusting loneliness hole I dug myself willingly.
last year I spent it with my ex and I was still just as miserable as always if not even more, the year before that I went to a party. went home 15 mins in and almost roped because of the sheer burden this shit has on me.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
It's like my body and mind remembers shit that happened when I was a little boy
while I consciously don't
just straight despair all winter long
Doesn't help the fact it's my birthday on supposedly the 'happiest' day of the year, a day of endings and new beginnings. yea right
Everybody will be out partying, spending time with family, getting wasted with friends. Oh the horror
That's why I'm spending the holidays alone in a hotel, just me and probably a couple bottles of the good old smirnoff.
I can already tell I'm gonna bawl my fucking eyes out seeing people celebrate, taking vids of fireworks, getting those awful 'happy newyear' messages from people even though it's quite literally my BIRTHDAY, but that's less important to everyone anyway.
I'm a happy nigga overall but oh man the holidays and just winter in general really takes a toll on my sanity, It takes me atleast 2 months every year to recover from the absolute disgusting loneliness hole I dug myself willingly.
last year I spent it with my ex and I was still just as miserable as always if not even more, the year before that I went to a party. went home 15 mins in and almost roped because of the sheer burden this shit has on me.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

