friganispermici
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A change of innocent personality is worse than complete death, a prefix example is Randy Stair (or Andrew Blaze) . He went on from being a lively and cheerful kid making childish videos to becoming obsessed with columbine and a fictional ghost girl and believing in delusions and whatnot, i lately realized this when i started looking at text messages of me and my friend when we were both 11-12 working on geography videos (yes those mapping videos you see on tiktok) now he has been so distant and less talkative, its either that he is distant or we have changed, weirdly we were almost inseperable from the day we met on our first day of school until 4th grade when i switched schools due to reasons i will not be disclosing atleast for now, even after 4th grade we talked through discord and whatsapp and worked on our server, hell we even regularly hanged out outside sometimes during our summer break, even as recently as the end of summer 2025. I really miss his old innocent and playful personality from when he was 12, im looking at our old chats and im shedding multiple tears. It's so overwhelimg seeing days that were in the present now be 5 to 7 years ago. As im writing this i also saw another guy from switzerland who was in our discord server, who was near and dear especially to me and especially my other friend as they had collaborated on some of their videos, 3 months ago i saw the same name he had a few years ago on steam and us both were all so hyped to wait for a response from him, sadly it never came. He left without a trace in summer 2023 and has been gone since from the entire internet privating (possibly even deleting) his videos just like my friend, he also quit in december 2023. I took a different approach in privating my videos so i could atleast archive something of a personality of mine that once was but no longer is. That just reminded me of a roblox knock off forum i had talked a shit ton on when i was 8 and 9, but this forum is long enough, i had over 2 thousand something hundred posts on both accounts so its definetly going to be long, The forum shut down in the beginning of november 2020 and there is now an archive of it, although the person holding it has been radio silent since 2022. I just really wish i could relive atleast 1 day from then, but thats never gonna happen.. not in this life
