Im wondering if anyone experienced more insanity than me

[R@m@]

Ive had like 1000s of personalities perspectives, high cortisol/ adrenaline all time, insomnia...

But man I really wonder what we are and what is reality, sometimes I feel so distant that it feels like im creating reality and my toughts have lot of power

This shit is insane and ive never stepped a foot on a mental ward while lots of people on mental wards are still intact and sane

Its like im completely lost but theres always that voice deep down whispering so I can control myself

Im a mf gigachad bc Ive experienced real madness, real mental illness but I still keep going no matter how many pannick attacks I have thinking im dying

Im fucking strong mentally you guys have no idea

 

[R@m@]

My genes deserve to be propagated, even after all this cortisol my skin is intact and my dick still working

 

[R@m@]

Im fucking ruthless and brutal even with severe mental illness I cant be stopped

 

[R@m@]

I want to fucking smash someone skull with rocks as hard as I can

Someone from this forum

 

[Suimaxxer]

U sound like an edgy 16yo

 

[swt]

Sounds normal to me

 

[Toad]

Have you heard voices and seen hallucinations and had delusions?

 

[R@m@]

U sound like an edgy 16yo

23 yo mentally ill

 

[R@m@]

Have you heard voices and seen hallucinations and had delusions?

Yes, but not anymore

 

[Toad]

Yes, but not anymore

Same, I have them from time to time. It's not too bad but it can be really scary sometimes

 

[Sonneillon]

23 yo mentally ill

I can save you

 

[Sonneillon]

Same, I have them from time to time. It's not too bad but it can be really scary sometimes

They're not hallucinations though, neither are the voices they're trying to contact you and you only seem "crazy", because you're at a point where they're able to talk to you

 

[LTNUser]

Chad

 

[R@m@]

They're not hallucinations though, neither are the voices they're trying to contact you and you only seem "crazy", because you're at a point where they're able to talk to you

Thats exactly how I think about it

 

[first snow]

one day i feel the closest to humans
the other like an alien

 

[R@m@]

Do you know that sensation of ego death? Where its scary and different

It feels like ive left that stage lot of time ago, just to give you an idea

 

[Sonneillon]

Thats exactly how I think about it

Some are just chill like the random black flashes or shadow figures but some constantly try to scare you and are waiting to enter your mind when you fall asleep. Next time im going to confront those assholes it's annoying asf not being able to sleep at times

 

[sover]

just blast man

 

[7"L×6"G currymaxxer]

THE HIGH T RAPIST INDIAN BVLL WOULD LIKE TO AGREE WITH YOU

 

[Toad]

They're not hallucinations though, neither are the voices they're trying to contact you and you only seem "crazy", because you're at a point where they're able to talk to you

I know, but modern medicine classifies them as hallucinations

 

[Entschuldigung]

Isso é falta de um pirocao bem grande no teu cu

 

[Sonneillon]

I know, but modern medicine classifies them as hallucinations

They only want to intoxicate us to keep the gland closed

 

[R@m@]

Some are just chill like the random black flashes or shadow figures but some constantly try to scare you and are waiting to enter your mind when you fall asleep. Next time im going to confront those assholes it's annoying asf not being able to sleep at times

Bro reality feels slippery af, sometimes I see random flashes, figures out of nowhere, sometimes it feels like im actually seeing another reality on top of this one, broootal

 

[R@m@]

I know, but modern medicine classifies them as hallucinations

Its not, its you tapping into another reality I can tell you

 

[R@m@]

Some are just chill like the random black flashes or shadow figures but some constantly try to scare you and are waiting to enter your mind when you fall asleep. Next time im going to confront those assholes it's annoying asf not being able to sleep at times

Sometimes I feel confused between this reality and whatever reality Im seeing glimpses of

 

[Toad]

Its not, its you tapping into another reality I can tell you

I agree, first time I saw demonic shadows I knew that there was another layer beyond that which could be seen with the naked eye

 

[R@m@]

I agree, first time I saw demonic shadows I knew that there was another layer beyond what we could see

Yeah thats exactly how I describe it

Sometimes im like who tf is behind me or who tf was that

It feels like im still here but at the same time im low key in the other side jfl

 

[Sonneillon]

Bro reality feels slippery af, sometimes I see random flashes, figures out of nowhere, sometimes it feels like im actually seeing another reality on top of this one, broootal

You're gonna get used to it, i see it every night before going to bed, have you also gotten the strong white light shaped like the northenr lights

 

[Sonneillon]

I agree, first time I saw demonic shadows I knew that there was another layer beyond that which could be seen with the naked eye

They even mirror your own shadow when you walk along a wall at night sometimes i stop a bit and the shadow is lagged

 

[R@m@]

You're gonna get used to it, i see it every night before going to bed, have you also gotten the strong white light shaped like the northenr lights

Yeah I see something similar to that

What I see a lot is black portals randomly appearing and dissapearing

 

[Sonneillon]

Sometimes I feel confused between this reality and whatever reality Im seeing glimpses of

Just focus on your mind your reality comes from within if your mind becomes messy you'll start becoming insane and thenoutside world will seem crazy.

Yeah I see something similar to that

What I see a lot is black portals randomly appearing and dissapearing

Hmm do you have any black screens in your room like a monitor or tv?

 

[R@m@]

Just focus on your mind your reality comes from within if your mind becomes messy you'll start becoming insane and thenoutside world will seem crazy.

Hmm do you have any black screens in your room like a monitor or tv?

Yes, but even outside on nature I see those portals appearing and dissapearing very fast

 

[Sonneillon]

Yes, but even outside on nature I see those portals appearing and dissapearing very fast

Are they attacking your mind? you may be summoning them subconsciously by acknowledging their thought suggestions, that's also how most people get sleep paralysis demons and others since the entities have to have your perimission to enter into your 3d world sinc they're beings from other dimensions