Improving my looks didn't solve anything...

[Deleted member 11126]

I looksmaxed when I was 16. I was very ugly back then mainly cause of acne and my face looked 12, Went through puberty lifted grew out my hair and got rid of my acne I went from like a 3ish to a 6ish and I grew like 7 inches in 1 and a half years. Which is insane in terms of level of difference.

But even though I've had a few dates and people around me don't treat me like a freak I still will always feel like a freak. I always assume people despise me when they don't anymore. Being treated as a subhuman made me an evil person

Looking in the mirror I still never feel like I'm not good enough despite looking like a normal person I always feel different I will always hate people for what they've done to me. Everyone forgets how badly they treated me and treats me normally now but I will never forget or forgive this. I look at my old self I was 100 pounds skinny asf acne ridden buzz cut and I had so many bags on my eyes

 

[Deleted member 11126]

On the outside I may look normal but inside I'm still the same man only more mad. I realized I was only treated so poorly because of factors I could not control.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Mentally deranged user number 35798. Welcome to the forum.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Yeah, some mental scaring can't heal.

 

[Bewusst]

Just get therapy theory

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Yeah, some mental scaring can't heal.

Yeah I can't even accept when people are nice to me cause I assume they are messing with me.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Just get therapy theory

Therapist would never understand this shit. What would some 40 year old white therapist know about me? She's literally 105 IQ and went to a shit school I would never take advice from such people.

 

[Deleted member 18603]

Just get therapy theory

said no intelligent person ever

 

[FrenchareMedCucks]

What is your PSL? If sub 4.75 ascension isn t high enough to get any benefits unless an easier social life and friends but that is it.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

What is your PSL? If sub 4.75 ascension isn t high enough to get any benefits unless an easier social life and friends but that is it.

Its mainly the mental anguish that never want away. I could never fully like friends because I still felt alone. I think if you spend enough time alone it rots your brain. If you get rejected enough you will never be able to form proper bonds.

 

[FrenchareMedCucks]

If you are 4 PSL you have only average looks and it sucks being Normie you need hang out everyday , simping every girls to get 96% rejections.
Normies cope with tatoos, drugs and alcohol but their life is shit.

 

[Bewusst]

Therapist would never understand this shit. What would some 40 year old white therapist know about me? She's literally 105 IQ and went to a shit school I would never take advice from such people.

I didn't mention the kind of therapy

Spoiler

 

[Deleted member 11126]

If you are 4 PSL you have only average looks and it sucks being Normie you need hang out everyday , simping every girls to get 96% rejections.
Normies cope with tatoos, drugs and alcohol but their life is shit.

Being a normie is 100X better then being genuinely ugly as a kid I didn't even want a gf I just wanted a single friend at school. I only made friends by turning myself into a clown and being a joke. I was so small and weak it was all I could do just make myself into a joke.

I would often pray nightly for just a friend group. I was 5'2 and 100 pounds at like 14

 

[Ice]

Same I was very obese with glasses, I lost weight and put on contacts to discover a nice eye area
with a wide jawline and cheekbones, and people have started to treat me completely differently, both,
people who I knew for years and new people who I meet, the only one who treats me the same is my mom.

People are more smiling, chatty, they respect me more, they don't give me the 'looking through you" look, they are more engaging and friendly and sometimes I expect them to disrespect me but it just doesn't happen anymore.

I feel like it caused me depersonalization to some extent since I feel that nothing now is real, it's probably just my brain adapting to being normal or the realization of how important looks are.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Yeah I can't even accept when people are nice to me cause I assume they are messing with me.

It's weird getting treated badly by people before and then treat better after your ascension. You can't ever forget how people really are like deep down.

 

[FrenchareMedCucks]

Its mainly the mental anguish that never want away. I could never fully like friends because I still felt alone. I think if you spend enough time alone it rots your brain. If you get rejected enough you will never be able to form proper bonds.

You are likely depressed clinical you see everything dark trough your depression.
Your past sucks but that is it.
You could have a degenerative disease and being cripple during your youth then you could really be depressed.
You need try harder looksmaxing like surgeries to ascend

 

[Deleted member 6305]

Teenager who thinks he's depressed and uses Evangelion Avi

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Being a normie is 100X better then being genuinely ugly as a kid I didn't even want a gf I just wanted a single friend at school. I only made friends by turning myself into a clown and being a joke. I was so small and weak it was all I could do just make myself into a joke.

I would often pray nightly for just a friend group. I was 5'2 and 100 pounds at like 14

I think most people have to humiliate themselves to some extent except chad. Most people still don't get to experience a truly great life.

Hard to think about, so many problems in society is caused by people just being ugly.

 

[Deleted member 18603]

the way therapy and cbt works is intentionally convoluting logos. when you overcomplicate representation you'll lose the binary opposition which is the crux of meaning. the same way they demoralize our society through distorting and removing sense of what is right from wrong is how therapists imprison you in semantic delusions and denial.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

It's weird getting treated badly by people before and then treat better after your ascension. You can't ever forget how people really are like deep down.

Different people have different goals. But if your below 4/10 your literally a dreg. Most guys can't easily get girls but they can still have male friends and cashiers treat them normally. I could tell I was a loser after 14 I didn't hit puberty till late so I was short weak and pathetic and I got a ton of acne on top of it. If you are treated badly during critical periods I believe it shapes your personality. In some ways I'm grateful though if it weren't for how badly I was treated I would have never been a cynical kid.

Like I don't fall for anything because I always assume people are screwing with me or trying to scam me.

You are likely depressed clinical you see everything dark trough your depression.
Your past sucks but that is it.
You could have a degenerative disease and being cripple during your youth then you could really be depressed.
You need try harder looksmaxing like surgeries to ascend

Oh yeah I can still looksmax quite a bit more but I don't think it will change how I view the world. I died at 12 really I will never be able to change my perspective

Same I was very obese with glasses, I lost weight and put on contacts to discover a nice eye area
with a wide jawline and cheekbones, and people have started to treat me completely differently, both,
people who I knew for years and new people who I meet, the only one who treats me the same is my mom.

People are more smiling, chatty, they respect me more, they don't give me the 'looking through you" look, they are more engaging and friendly and sometimes I expect them to disrespect me but it just doesn't happen anymore.

I feel like it caused me depersonalization to some extent since I feel that nothing now is real, it's probably just my brain adapting to being normal or the realization of how important looks are.

Yeah it didn't even make me happier at first I was but then it made me depressed because I realized I wasn't lonely cause I was a shit person. I realized it was not my fault and that is what enraged me so much. People treat me like I'm smarter now and more interesting but I was always a smart interesting person they just never cared to figure it out.

 

[Deleted member 18603]

I think most people have to humiliate themselves to some extent except chad. Most people still don't get to experience a truly great life.

Hard to think about, so many problems in society is caused by people just being ugly.

yes this is true. normies have to go through diminution of their pride in order to achieve their (biological) purposes

they're lemmings after all, which is why they're so adamantly fixated in upholding the status quo

 

[Enfant terrible]

it is what it is

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Different people have different goals. But if your below 4/10 your literally a dreg. Most guys can't easily get girls but they can still have male friends and cashiers treat them normally. I could tell I was a loser after 14 I didn't hit puberty till late so I was short weak and pathetic and I got a ton of acne on top of it. If you are treated badly during critical periods I believe it shapes your personality. In some ways I'm grateful though if it weren't for how badly I was treated I would have never been a cynical kid.

Like I don't fall for anything because I always assume people are screwing with me or trying to scam me.


Oh yeah I can still looksmax quite a bit more but I don't think it will change how I view the world. I died at 12 really I will never be able to change my perspective


Yeah it didn't even make me happier at first I was but then it made me depressed because I realized I wasn't lonely cause I was a shit person. I realized it was not my fault and that is what enraged me so much. People treat me like I'm smarter now and more interesting but I was always a smart interesting person they just never cared to figure it out.

I also started puberty way later than normal, your mind is still developing but people treat you like you're still a little kid. A complete mis match.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

the way therapy and cbt works is intentionally convoluting logos. when you overcomplicate representation you'll lose the binary opposition which is the crux of meaning. the same way they demoralize our society through distorting and removing sense of what is right from wrong is how therapists imprison you imprison in semantic delusions and denial.

At best therapists are replacing the job that any good friend or father/family member would play in your life. At worse they are just there to keep you in a loop where you are content enough not to shoot yourself and if their lucky they can get a paycheck when you sign up for SSRIs.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

I also started puberty way later than normal, your mind is still developing but people treat you like you're still a little kid. A complete mis match.

Yeah I'm glad I got to 5'9-10 but that was brutal. Being short especially when your young is so brutal. I'm much stronger now I wish I could see some of the people from middle school today I could beat the shit out of them.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

yes this is true. normies have to go through diminution of their pride in order to achieve their (biological) purposes

they're lemmings after all, which is why they're so adamantly fixated in upholding the status quo

They're usually the most toxic people as well. They're the main cause of discrimination based on looks. They do it to others and they get mis treated themselves.

 

[Hero of the Imperium]

Inject T

 

[Deleted member 16853]

I looksmaxed when I was 16. I was very ugly back then mainly cause of acne and my face looked 12, Went through puberty lifted grew out my hair and got rid of my acne I went from like a 3ish to a 6ish and I grew like 7 inches in 1 and a half years. Which is insane in terms of level of difference.

But even though I've had a few dates and people around me don't treat me like a freak I still will always feel like a freak. I always assume people despise me when they don't anymore. Being treated as a subhuman made me an evil person

Looking in the mirror I still never feel like I'm not good enough despite looking like a normal person I always feel different I will always hate people for what they've done to me. Everyone forgets how badly they treated me and treats me normally now but I will never forget or forgive this. I look at my old self I was 100 pounds skinny asf acne ridden buzz cut and I had so many bags on my eyes

I can relate, not with looks but my autism, when I became "less" Autistic, people started treating me differently, even my family