Introversion.

[jc0]

Whenever I get into a social situation with someone who I am not extremely close with I feel “out of the moment” or I become hyper aware and start questioning life. It sounds cringe and hard to explain but I can rarely fully immerse myself into what’s happening. I also find I care so much about what others think, to the point I become paranoid around others and am afraid of what they’ll think of me. I think that’s the reason behind this.

I feel I’ve become such a closed off person and no one actually knows who I am. In hs I wasn’t a loner but I wasn’t very close with anyone as well. I didn’t truly identify with any group because I felt I was too “cool“ for the non popular group but couldn’t immerse myself in the popular group because of the fact there were girls there and I wasn’t close enough to the guys I had connections with. I’d go out very occasionally when I’d get the invite. I found myself not being in any group chats and not getting invited to places because I wasn’t close with anyone, just cool with most. However I also didn’t enjoy going out because I was afraid of judgement from others I guess so I contradict myself there. What held me back was how I never tried to make friends with girls or just be apart of a group when there was a girl present because I was subhuman before this and I’m awkward and scared of judgement and introverted.

Basically my fear of judgement and others opinions lead to me being very introverted so much to the point I couldn’t get close with anyone because I was hyper aware of my actions and could never feel in the moment. My previous looks probably played apart in this because I was subhuman before but now I’d say I’m average looking. I js needed to rant a lil and find people who can relate really.

 

[jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaames]

This message was trutly tip-stroking, condolences to all my tung tung tung sahur 67 mustard diddybluds who are suffering through this

 

[Peubert]

yeah ur fucked
start drugmaxxing

 

[Framemaxxx]

Pretty relatable. After a while ive found peace in solidarity. Its honestly just stressful whenever I have to interact with people

 

[undo]

Whenever I get into a social situation with someone who I am not extremely close with I feel “out of the moment” or I become hyper aware and start questioning life. It sounds cringe and hard to explain but I can rarely fully immerse myself into what’s happening. I also find I care so much about what others think, to the point I become paranoid around others and am afraid of what they’ll think of me. I think that’s the reason behind this.

I feel I’ve become such a closed off person and no one actually knows who I am. In hs I wasn’t a loner but I wasn’t very close with anyone as well. I didn’t truly identify with any group because I felt I was too “cool“ for the non popular group but couldn’t immerse myself in the popular group because of the fact there were girls there and I wasn’t close enough to the guys I had connections with. I’d go out very occasionally when I’d get the invite. I found myself not being in any group chats and not getting invited to places because I wasn’t close with anyone, just cool with most. However I also didn’t enjoy going out because I was afraid of judgement from others I guess so I contradict myself there. What held me back was how I never tried to make friends with girls or just be apart of a group when there was a girl present because I was subhuman before this and I’m awkward and scared of judgement and introverted.

Basically my fear of judgement and others opinions lead to me being very introverted so much to the point I couldn’t get close with anyone because I was hyper aware of my actions and could never feel in the moment. My previous looks probably played apart in this because I was subhuman before but now I’d say I’m average looking. I js needed to rant a lil and find people who can relate really.

imagine them taking a shit or imagine them as someone to who this doesnt apply to, genuinely works bhai