alexthegoat
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I have came to the conclusion long ago that most of the asian Countries are seen as slum dwellers, espedially thr south Asian Countries. for example India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, and other countries like Indonesia, China, Vietnam, etc. I, unfortunately, am from one of them: Pakistan.
I am 90% of the time seen as rust in the iron online. it hurts, it really does. when my country is spoken of, most of the people start laughing or loose interest immediately.
I once told a friend, whom i had talked to for a while, where I was from. they laughed so hard it stuck with me since.
I'm not sure where this post will end up or what benefit it will ever provide me but i just wanted to pour a bit of my thoughts out to relieve some stress.
I envy alot, quite often. whenever I see people living in those european-style cities, cool greenery, happy family's, many friends, school looks really fun, and all that, and they still complain, it creates a certain feeling within me. like the most accurate way to describe it is that all I feel is rage. I cannot believe people who live I such places as such 'looking' would even complain. yes, it is human to be unhappy, but the greed. I envy every westerner. yes I believe that an average European is way better looking than an average Asian, or pakistani in my case.
it's brutal because an 'average-looking' European with coloured eyes, brown/black hair, good colouring naturally, tall, lean and healthy is automatically and subconsciously, as we know it, way better looking than the average pakistani, or any other south Asian, in every aspect: if its IQ, Europeans are smarter, if it's height, Europeans, like the dutch, tower over us (average height of 5'6 for Pakistanis whereas Dutch average height is 6'3, according to studies).
I hate how I'm a voicecel.. whenever I speak, I get talked over. I have no value in conversations. no wonder people tendnto ignore me. I just watch as those with low-pitched, deep voices catch everyone's attention and my voice, all of the sudden, doesn't matter; like it never existed.
yes I know it, everyone knows it, but few admit that the halo effect is real. I'm certain if I was a 6'4 HTN with a deep voice from Europe, I would never struggled with friends, or social life, or anything really. I suffer a lot in my mind most of the time but I keep it to myself.
I've never told anyone these things other then the big GPT and now here. I'm guessing this post might be DNR by many to be honest.
i just generally hate everythinf overall. i have nothing interesting going on in my life..
I'm so tired of looking at my skin, my dark brown, almost fully black, eyes, my receeding hairline, my height, everything.. it's so unfair..
both of my parents are below 5'7, maybe around 5'5-6 at most. I'm somehow 5'11.5 (my uncle is 5'10.5 and grandfather is 5'9). I'm thankful, i really am, but I still feel so miserable..
this is most likely just a low-IQ post, full of rant but I feel a lot better now than when I've kept it to myself.
well this was my first ever post on org. not sure what to expect but I just have to keep living like this, I guess.. uncertain of where my life's heading but I presume l have to tell myself and cope with lies to keep my sanity. I suppose being a first post, i shouldn't expect much.
I am 90% of the time seen as rust in the iron online. it hurts, it really does. when my country is spoken of, most of the people start laughing or loose interest immediately.
I once told a friend, whom i had talked to for a while, where I was from. they laughed so hard it stuck with me since.
I'm not sure where this post will end up or what benefit it will ever provide me but i just wanted to pour a bit of my thoughts out to relieve some stress.
I envy alot, quite often. whenever I see people living in those european-style cities, cool greenery, happy family's, many friends, school looks really fun, and all that, and they still complain, it creates a certain feeling within me. like the most accurate way to describe it is that all I feel is rage. I cannot believe people who live I such places as such 'looking' would even complain. yes, it is human to be unhappy, but the greed. I envy every westerner. yes I believe that an average European is way better looking than an average Asian, or pakistani in my case.
it's brutal because an 'average-looking' European with coloured eyes, brown/black hair, good colouring naturally, tall, lean and healthy is automatically and subconsciously, as we know it, way better looking than the average pakistani, or any other south Asian, in every aspect: if its IQ, Europeans are smarter, if it's height, Europeans, like the dutch, tower over us (average height of 5'6 for Pakistanis whereas Dutch average height is 6'3, according to studies).
I hate how I'm a voicecel.. whenever I speak, I get talked over. I have no value in conversations. no wonder people tendnto ignore me. I just watch as those with low-pitched, deep voices catch everyone's attention and my voice, all of the sudden, doesn't matter; like it never existed.
yes I know it, everyone knows it, but few admit that the halo effect is real. I'm certain if I was a 6'4 HTN with a deep voice from Europe, I would never struggled with friends, or social life, or anything really. I suffer a lot in my mind most of the time but I keep it to myself.
I've never told anyone these things other then the big GPT and now here. I'm guessing this post might be DNR by many to be honest.
i just generally hate everythinf overall. i have nothing interesting going on in my life..
I'm so tired of looking at my skin, my dark brown, almost fully black, eyes, my receeding hairline, my height, everything.. it's so unfair..
both of my parents are below 5'7, maybe around 5'5-6 at most. I'm somehow 5'11.5 (my uncle is 5'10.5 and grandfather is 5'9). I'm thankful, i really am, but I still feel so miserable..
this is most likely just a low-IQ post, full of rant but I feel a lot better now than when I've kept it to myself.
well this was my first ever post on org. not sure what to expect but I just have to keep living like this, I guess.. uncertain of where my life's heading but I presume l have to tell myself and cope with lies to keep my sanity. I suppose being a first post, i shouldn't expect much.
