Is there a point in being optimistic?

[hunnidrounds]

I mean, I don't see my situation changing in the future unless I really get my money up. And even then, I would be old at 40 years old. Even when I was gymmaxxed I still had to resort to escorts, so yeah, I don't think much will change.

 

[Part-Time Chad]

I remember hearing something about a tribe in south America. Their main goal in life was to just keep on living.

 

[hunnidrounds]

But I accept it. When I was let out of the psych ward years ago I met a friend at a group home who shared similar interests to me. I was a virgin at the time so I was all about improving myself to get out of this shit situation. But, even when I talked to him about school, moving into our own apartments instead of the housing the county was giving us, and things of the like he didn't seem too interested in that. Like he accepted his lot in life. Which is probably what I should do, just accept it. He died from cancer at 26 so he escaped this hellhole and is probably lounging around in his mansion in Heaven right now.

 

[hunnidrounds]

Yes I've flirted with suicide before