Isolation and rotting makes me so much more ND

[vigor]

I've said this before but rn I have fuck all to do because I'm stuck in my shitty hometown for another two weeks

I can feel my social skills, my accumulated neurotypicality slipping away every second I am deprived of social interaction (by virtue of all my friends being 100s of miles away rn). I'm old enough and smart enough to be able to act pretty normally and mask very well irl when I have a steady supply of social interaction and a stimulating life but times like this just bring me back to my early teen rotter years

I have spent hours today just arguing with random fags on this website and LDARing I am going insane
Every time this happens I'm basically simulating the life of an incel NEET for a couple of weeks

Don't know how you guys do it full time without painting the ceiling red or going ER

 

[vigor]

,

 

[Nox𓂀]

Keep technology away and go out, try to meditate.

It helps a lot, try fixing your fucked up dopamine system.

 

[enten]

Me too champ i will not survive in the real world next month

 

[vigor]

Keep technology away and go out, try to meditate.

It helps a lot, try fixing your fucked up dopamine system.

I try
The problem is I live in a hellhole rn
Built up, crime-ridden london outer city
Grey and boring
I meditate in the mornings and before bed but there's only so much benefit one can extract from it