Amnesia
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And how quickly you go from thinking u are the ugliest subhuman ever and want to stay inside for the rest of ur life to thinking ur actually better looking than 99% of the men u see in ur proximity and feel on top of the world.
I shaved my facial hair just 3 days ago and looked in the mirror and looked like a pale cuck faced weirdo. I canceled a Tinder date I had and stayed inside from the rest of the world depressed thinking why do I look so horrible, and I am a fraud. I spent the rest of that day just standing in front of the mirror doing aspie poses, wondering if my squint game was off or something but no matter what I did I thought I looked absolutely ugly as fuck. It was over for me, I was about to delete all dating apps and accept my fate as way past my prime and ugly and not even try anymore.
However today with stubble shadow back I was feeling a bit better. Well i went to Victoria Secret to return a bra I had gotten my ex GF from like 2 months ago. I noticed a girl in there eyeing me pretty hard but didnt think much of it. That girl eventually got in line behind me to checkout. At the checkout line I was returning the bra and the checkout girl literally just asked me "are u a model?" i said no and she just said "oh u just look like the type" and at that point the woman who was standing behind me started laughing and I turn around and shes like "I thought the same thing, are you really not?" And both the girls started laughing.I laughed and said thanks but left the store fast like an aspie of course
I immediately go home and go back in front of the mirror looking at myself and it was like A TOTALLY DIFFERENT FACE I am now looking at vs 3 days ago when I thought I was the ugliest human on the planet. Suddenly my confidence is back and I am thinking yeah u look fucking good, u DO look like a model, ur very gl.
HOW CAN MY PERCEPTION OF MY FACE BE SO FUCKING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT in the span of just a few days. Like for real it's like I was seeing a different face, how mentally ill can a person be? Why does this happen, why am I on the brink of suicide one day and thinking I am great looking the next, eventually it's totally over when I lose my looks given how much my overall well being and mood are dependent on how I look atm
I shaved my facial hair just 3 days ago and looked in the mirror and looked like a pale cuck faced weirdo. I canceled a Tinder date I had and stayed inside from the rest of the world depressed thinking why do I look so horrible, and I am a fraud. I spent the rest of that day just standing in front of the mirror doing aspie poses, wondering if my squint game was off or something but no matter what I did I thought I looked absolutely ugly as fuck. It was over for me, I was about to delete all dating apps and accept my fate as way past my prime and ugly and not even try anymore.
However today with stubble shadow back I was feeling a bit better. Well i went to Victoria Secret to return a bra I had gotten my ex GF from like 2 months ago. I noticed a girl in there eyeing me pretty hard but didnt think much of it. That girl eventually got in line behind me to checkout. At the checkout line I was returning the bra and the checkout girl literally just asked me "are u a model?" i said no and she just said "oh u just look like the type" and at that point the woman who was standing behind me started laughing and I turn around and shes like "I thought the same thing, are you really not?" And both the girls started laughing.I laughed and said thanks but left the store fast like an aspie of course
I immediately go home and go back in front of the mirror looking at myself and it was like A TOTALLY DIFFERENT FACE I am now looking at vs 3 days ago when I thought I was the ugliest human on the planet. Suddenly my confidence is back and I am thinking yeah u look fucking good, u DO look like a model, ur very gl.
HOW CAN MY PERCEPTION OF MY FACE BE SO FUCKING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT in the span of just a few days. Like for real it's like I was seeing a different face, how mentally ill can a person be? Why does this happen, why am I on the brink of suicide one day and thinking I am great looking the next, eventually it's totally over when I lose my looks given how much my overall well being and mood are dependent on how I look atm