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I generally got high levels of validation from sex with any kind of MTB and some LTBs when I was in my slaying peak from 22-24 but as of late, even when I slay a MTB who is my type physically and slay a strong MTB who on paper is ideal behaviour wise due to being inexperienced, the sex feels completely dull and the post slay validation is barely existent.
The % of girls I feel I could actually get validation from slaying currently is quite small
I also realized that non drunk meetings with girls where you spend 12 hours together including their overnight stay is quite dull because it's just impossible to talk to a foid who you have nothing in common with which is probably 98% of them for me.
Just because they have a relatively pleasant personality doesn't mean I'll actually want to spend extended time in their company
My illusions of what I thought I needed have been shattered, once I receive some intimacy/affection, I realize that getting it once in a blue moon is enough and it's just an illusion to think I need a sustained amount of it to feel fulfilled. The only thing that will really fulfill me is success or the slaying of a higher level of foid that will provide novelty for me
Once you get used to being on your own, being in the company of a sub ideal foid just feels meh
The % of girls I feel I could actually get validation from slaying currently is quite small
I also realized that non drunk meetings with girls where you spend 12 hours together including their overnight stay is quite dull because it's just impossible to talk to a foid who you have nothing in common with which is probably 98% of them for me.
Just because they have a relatively pleasant personality doesn't mean I'll actually want to spend extended time in their company
My illusions of what I thought I needed have been shattered, once I receive some intimacy/affection, I realize that getting it once in a blue moon is enough and it's just an illusion to think I need a sustained amount of it to feel fulfilled. The only thing that will really fulfill me is success or the slaying of a higher level of foid that will provide novelty for me
Once you get used to being on your own, being in the company of a sub ideal foid just feels meh